29 November, 2007
My modem has finally given up. Spent about half an hour this morning trying to get it to bloody switch on. It's been having this problem for quite awhile already, but today it just refused to switch on no matter how many times I tried. I mean it eventually did, but I think it was luck. There's something wrong with the switch so I can't get it to turn on properly. Called customer service and they just said "ho ho, get a new one" so yeah. Thinking of upgrading to wireless, but don't know how good reception will be but it should be okay, I suppose. But I'll need to get a wireless card for my PC, but I don't fancy opening it up again. The last time I did, I had to get my cousin to help and yeah, I don't want to trouble him again because he's probably busy with his newborn daughter. Did I mention she's really really really cute? I kind of regret not taking a picture the last time I saw her at my aunt's place.
Anyway. If I don't get a wireless modem, I'll have to get another modem anyway. I hope I don't have to though, but I still have 7 more months to go before my broadband plan expires. You can recontract 3 months before, so that's 4 more months. And I don't know if they'll give you free modems when you recontract. For some reason, I don't think so. Ehh.
I'll have to find out about that USB wireless adaptor. If there's one thing my PC doesn't lack, it's USB ports because I've got an extension. Heh.
Am on dialup again. Sian. But this morning it's moving pretty fast. :D Little things like that make me happy.
ARGH JLPT ON SUNDAY.
Anyway. If I don't get a wireless modem, I'll have to get another modem anyway. I hope I don't have to though, but I still have 7 more months to go before my broadband plan expires. You can recontract 3 months before, so that's 4 more months. And I don't know if they'll give you free modems when you recontract. For some reason, I don't think so. Ehh.
I'll have to find out about that USB wireless adaptor. If there's one thing my PC doesn't lack, it's USB ports because I've got an extension. Heh.
Am on dialup again. Sian. But this morning it's moving pretty fast. :D Little things like that make me happy.
ARGH JLPT ON SUNDAY.
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27 November, 2007
Argh, Spanish was difficult. I even checked if the paper they gave me was level 1 Spanish or not. There were so many difficult words!! It doesn't help that I'm not all that interested in Spanish in the first place. Blahblahblah. At least I'm not going to look at it again next sem! Haha! Adios, Espanol!
In other news, exams are over. PHEWWWWWW.
Now to pick the subjects I want to take for next sem.
They have astronomy!! Don't ask me why I didn't join the astronomy club. I know I should, because I have an interest (as well as a telescope of my own which I should learn how to use) but (let's hear my lousy reason) none of my friends joined so I didn't. HAHA. That's so bloody lame. Fine. But at least now I get to study it!! Excited. But I don't know if I can fit it into my timetable. We only get to put subjects on our waitlist on the 4th of December so yeah, I have to wait till then. I'm going to be sitting at home, glued to my laptop, willing my broadband to work as fast as it can. LOL. Fastest finger's first!
And I just read the description for Japanese Level 3 (I plan to take level 2, but no harm finding out what I'm getting myself into) and it says that it'll prepare us for JLPT 4. HUH? Whutttt? I'm taking my JLPT Level 4 THIS SUNDAY. Are you telling me that only after I finish level 3 will I have all the knowledge required to take JLPT 4?? Does that mean I have to study with godlike speed for JLPT 4 the next 5 days???
This is scaring me a little, but on the other hand, I'm quite confident. Hah. I'll show them that I can pass my JLPT4! See, the key word here is PASS. LOL.
There's this course called Website Design and Development that's being offered. Quite interested to take that. Again, I probably won't be able to fit it into my timetable. I'll finally learn Flash! I know, I know, I've been talking about learning it for aaaages, but I never got around to it, okay?
Hah. And there's an accounting module that's on my "module to take" list, because I'm aiming for a biz minor (like the hundreds other out there). It sounds boring and I heard it's tough, but ho hum.
Mmm. Have to look for more interesting courses to take. Maybe I'll try my hand at Psychology. Grah. This sucks. Most of what I'm interested in will probably clash with my core subjects. My core sounds boring next sem. Take a look: Information Literacy and Interpretation, Speech and Argumentation (LCW AGAIN, OHNOES) and *drumroll* Foundations of Research. *groan* That sound exceptionally boring. And I found out I have 3 8.30am lectures again. ARGH I HATE MORNING LECTURES.
In other news, exams are over. PHEWWWWWW.
Now to pick the subjects I want to take for next sem.
They have astronomy!! Don't ask me why I didn't join the astronomy club. I know I should, because I have an interest (as well as a telescope of my own which I should learn how to use) but (let's hear my lousy reason) none of my friends joined so I didn't. HAHA. That's so bloody lame. Fine. But at least now I get to study it!! Excited. But I don't know if I can fit it into my timetable. We only get to put subjects on our waitlist on the 4th of December so yeah, I have to wait till then. I'm going to be sitting at home, glued to my laptop, willing my broadband to work as fast as it can. LOL. Fastest finger's first!
And I just read the description for Japanese Level 3 (I plan to take level 2, but no harm finding out what I'm getting myself into) and it says that it'll prepare us for JLPT 4. HUH? Whutttt? I'm taking my JLPT Level 4 THIS SUNDAY. Are you telling me that only after I finish level 3 will I have all the knowledge required to take JLPT 4?? Does that mean I have to study with godlike speed for JLPT 4 the next 5 days???
This is scaring me a little, but on the other hand, I'm quite confident. Hah. I'll show them that I can pass my JLPT4! See, the key word here is PASS. LOL.
There's this course called Website Design and Development that's being offered. Quite interested to take that. Again, I probably won't be able to fit it into my timetable. I'll finally learn Flash! I know, I know, I've been talking about learning it for aaaages, but I never got around to it, okay?
Hah. And there's an accounting module that's on my "module to take" list, because I'm aiming for a biz minor (like the hundreds other out there). It sounds boring and I heard it's tough, but ho hum.
Mmm. Have to look for more interesting courses to take. Maybe I'll try my hand at Psychology. Grah. This sucks. Most of what I'm interested in will probably clash with my core subjects. My core sounds boring next sem. Take a look: Information Literacy and Interpretation, Speech and Argumentation (LCW AGAIN, OHNOES) and *drumroll* Foundations of Research. *groan* That sound exceptionally boring. And I found out I have 3 8.30am lectures again. ARGH I HATE MORNING LECTURES.
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24 November, 2007
Just got back from watching The Pillowman and I can tell you the fifty bucks I spent for the tickets were worth it. Well I could have gotten a student discount, but Meow couldn't make it on Saturday because of piano lessons--or so I thought, when I bought the tickets. But her lessons got cancelled after I bought them so ho hum, nevermind, eh? But it was worth it anyway, even after adding in the SISTIC ticket surcharge and the $2 we "donated" to get a copy of the programme.
Anyway, I'm no critic and I know next to nothing about plays. In fact, I think this is my first after Macbeth in Sec 2. But The Pillowman was good. It's dark, funny, sick, gruesome, sad, dramatic, thought-provoking and generally an enjoyable experience. It's quite long though; the first half is 1 hour and 40 min (I think?), followed by a 10 min intermission, and another hour in the second half.
The second half moved faster than the first half, but I thought both were equally interesting. I liked the wit behind the dialogue, and just how every bit of the story was tied together nicely, and the parallels between the story of the Pillowman the main character, Katurian, wrote and the actual situation he was in.
Here's a summary of Wikipedia's description of the play:
Katurian is a short story writer who is being interviewed by two policemen, Tupolski and Ariel. Apparently, there have been some bizarre child murders happening around town that are similar to his short stories. After being interrogated/tortured, he is thrown into a cell with his mentally handicapped brother Michal. Michal says that he is the one who killed the children, and was only acting out the stories. Katurian didn't want his brother to be executed for something he wasn't fully cognisant about so he smothers his brother with a pillow. He then confesses to the murders and makes a deal with the two policemen that if he did they would not destroy his stories. He is eventually exposed when evidence didn't match up to his testimony, but he is executed anyway for the murder of his parents and Michal.
I can't say I liked Katurian's gruesome, sadistic short stories. Here's a link to A Tale of the Town on the River, the first story we hear, if you want to get a taste of just what kind of stories Katurian writes. I must admit the twist at the end is pretty clever and I was mentally going "Oh my god, so that's what he's talking about!" and would have said it out loud if I weren't in the middle of a play. Haha.
I liked the casting, the dialogue and the was a role-reversal of "good cop" and "bad cop" at the end. AND HEY, I got to see Adrian Pang in the flesh! I really like the experience of watching a play and how intimate it is because the actors are there, live, reciting the lines and living the lives of the characters on-stage. I guess after witnessing school plays and such (Dramafest, anyone?) watching something done by professionals is like woah. Really really good.
Why couldn't we study something good like this for lit? Then again it only premièred at the end of 2003 so I guess that wasn't possible. But I would love to analyse The Pillowman. Heck, I want to watch it again, if it weren't for the hefty price tag. It's showing till the 25th, but a quick check on the SISTIC website tells me that all tickets are sold out.
Anyway cabbed home after the play. It ended at 11pm so I didn't want to endure the travails of public mass transportation. Meow ended up getting the first taxi we could flag down because I lost in a game of scissors-paper-stone (haha), so I walked down to the Liang Court taxi stand. It was probably nothing, but it was kind of scary nonetheless, walking alone on the streets. Sure, it wasn't like 1am or anything, and there were lots of people around, but it was those very people that I was kinda wary of. Thinking back now it was kind of stupid of course. Was relieved nonetheless when I got on the cab anyway.
I'm so glad it's the weekend! I've been subsisting on dial-up during the week, because my mum's monitoring her stocks online (yeah, damn, she finally figured out how to surf the net...). I realised that dial-up wasn't as bad as I remembered to be. It's sufficient for surfing the web, but not for downloading any kind of media. So I have this huge backlog of music that I have to catch up on, and torrents that I have to seed. Listening to the dial tone does bring back memories though. I've been hearing the same number being dialled ever since I was in primary school.
Oh I've finished reading most of the manga I downloaded (unlicensed, of course) but and I have to wait for the respective scanlation groups to get their new chapters up. ARGH THE WAIT. I do know how much work it takes to translate though, because I tried my hand and doing some Chinese-English translating work for a Jap drama (funny, right?) and I take like, 3-4 solid hours to translate a 1 hour episode.
On a side note, I use mIRC for my manga fix and I'm it increasingly annoying. I know it's shareware and if I look hard enough maybe I'll find a crack for it or something, but having to wait before I can sign in is a pain in the ass.
But anyway one of the manga I'm reading is called The Hour of the Mice and it's about this group of children studying at this "exclusive" school which is actually owned by a pharmaceutical company that is using them as human test subjects. It's really interesting and the art's good. You can download the scanlations from Kotonoha's website. They're a scanlation group I recently discovered and they work on a lot of rare treasures. It's definitely a breather from all those candy-coated formulaic shoujo manga.
Rightyo. I'd better go sleep soon. Have to make use of the weekend to study for Spanish next Tuesday. Argh, I think I'm going to do really badly for my exams, especially for 258, which I just crapped through. Ho hum.
Edit: Ugh, so many errors. I can't be bothered to correct them. This is what happens when you blog at 1+am.
Anyway, I'm no critic and I know next to nothing about plays. In fact, I think this is my first after Macbeth in Sec 2. But The Pillowman was good. It's dark, funny, sick, gruesome, sad, dramatic, thought-provoking and generally an enjoyable experience. It's quite long though; the first half is 1 hour and 40 min (I think?), followed by a 10 min intermission, and another hour in the second half.
The second half moved faster than the first half, but I thought both were equally interesting. I liked the wit behind the dialogue, and just how every bit of the story was tied together nicely, and the parallels between the story of the Pillowman the main character, Katurian, wrote and the actual situation he was in.
Here's a summary of Wikipedia's description of the play:
Katurian is a short story writer who is being interviewed by two policemen, Tupolski and Ariel. Apparently, there have been some bizarre child murders happening around town that are similar to his short stories. After being interrogated/tortured, he is thrown into a cell with his mentally handicapped brother Michal. Michal says that he is the one who killed the children, and was only acting out the stories. Katurian didn't want his brother to be executed for something he wasn't fully cognisant about so he smothers his brother with a pillow. He then confesses to the murders and makes a deal with the two policemen that if he did they would not destroy his stories. He is eventually exposed when evidence didn't match up to his testimony, but he is executed anyway for the murder of his parents and Michal.
I can't say I liked Katurian's gruesome, sadistic short stories. Here's a link to A Tale of the Town on the River, the first story we hear, if you want to get a taste of just what kind of stories Katurian writes. I must admit the twist at the end is pretty clever and I was mentally going "Oh my god, so that's what he's talking about!" and would have said it out loud if I weren't in the middle of a play. Haha.
I liked the casting, the dialogue and the was a role-reversal of "good cop" and "bad cop" at the end. AND HEY, I got to see Adrian Pang in the flesh! I really like the experience of watching a play and how intimate it is because the actors are there, live, reciting the lines and living the lives of the characters on-stage. I guess after witnessing school plays and such (Dramafest, anyone?) watching something done by professionals is like woah. Really really good.
Why couldn't we study something good like this for lit? Then again it only premièred at the end of 2003 so I guess that wasn't possible. But I would love to analyse The Pillowman. Heck, I want to watch it again, if it weren't for the hefty price tag. It's showing till the 25th, but a quick check on the SISTIC website tells me that all tickets are sold out.
Anyway cabbed home after the play. It ended at 11pm so I didn't want to endure the travails of public mass transportation. Meow ended up getting the first taxi we could flag down because I lost in a game of scissors-paper-stone (haha), so I walked down to the Liang Court taxi stand. It was probably nothing, but it was kind of scary nonetheless, walking alone on the streets. Sure, it wasn't like 1am or anything, and there were lots of people around, but it was those very people that I was kinda wary of. Thinking back now it was kind of stupid of course. Was relieved nonetheless when I got on the cab anyway.
I'm so glad it's the weekend! I've been subsisting on dial-up during the week, because my mum's monitoring her stocks online (yeah, damn, she finally figured out how to surf the net...). I realised that dial-up wasn't as bad as I remembered to be. It's sufficient for surfing the web, but not for downloading any kind of media. So I have this huge backlog of music that I have to catch up on, and torrents that I have to seed. Listening to the dial tone does bring back memories though. I've been hearing the same number being dialled ever since I was in primary school.
Oh I've finished reading most of the manga I downloaded (unlicensed, of course) but and I have to wait for the respective scanlation groups to get their new chapters up. ARGH THE WAIT. I do know how much work it takes to translate though, because I tried my hand and doing some Chinese-English translating work for a Jap drama (funny, right?) and I take like, 3-4 solid hours to translate a 1 hour episode.
On a side note, I use mIRC for my manga fix and I'm it increasingly annoying. I know it's shareware and if I look hard enough maybe I'll find a crack for it or something, but having to wait before I can sign in is a pain in the ass.
But anyway one of the manga I'm reading is called The Hour of the Mice and it's about this group of children studying at this "exclusive" school which is actually owned by a pharmaceutical company that is using them as human test subjects. It's really interesting and the art's good. You can download the scanlations from Kotonoha's website. They're a scanlation group I recently discovered and they work on a lot of rare treasures. It's definitely a breather from all those candy-coated formulaic shoujo manga.
Rightyo. I'd better go sleep soon. Have to make use of the weekend to study for Spanish next Tuesday. Argh, I think I'm going to do really badly for my exams, especially for 258, which I just crapped through. Ho hum.
Edit: Ugh, so many errors. I can't be bothered to correct them. This is what happens when you blog at 1+am.
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18 November, 2007
Had my Jap oral today. This is the last of all the tests! It was really really short. You took the grading sheet and wrote your details, and waited for your number to be called. There were two examiners, and coincidentally, both were my teachers, one former, one current. Not that they know me of course, they teach so many people. Anyway they asked about 5 questions or so, and I didn't have much difficulty answering, but I spoke kinda slowly. Haha. Had some problem processing my answer. And I didn't answer very completely to some questions and I didn't really pay attention to my enunciation. Oh well. Hope I sounded sufficiently Japanese.
Dyed my hair again! It's more obvious now. The first time round I think people couldn't really tell unless there was a light source around. I need a haircut. Will do it after the exams, probably. In the meantime I've been tying up my hair because it's just too messy otherwise.
Sigh. Studying for my 815 which is tomorrow. It's okay, but I'm not done. I'm itching to watch my anime though, which is so irresponsible of me. There's this new one that just finished airing. It's similar to 12 Kingdoms and OHMYGOD the art is just GORGEOUS.
Click for bigger. There are DVD rips being put out, but they're not done. I think these are TV rips so they're not in 720p quality, which I would have preferred, but I couldn't wait.
Dyed my hair again! It's more obvious now. The first time round I think people couldn't really tell unless there was a light source around. I need a haircut. Will do it after the exams, probably. In the meantime I've been tying up my hair because it's just too messy otherwise.
Sigh. Studying for my 815 which is tomorrow. It's okay, but I'm not done. I'm itching to watch my anime though, which is so irresponsible of me. There's this new one that just finished airing. It's similar to 12 Kingdoms and OHMYGOD the art is just GORGEOUS.
Click for bigger. There are DVD rips being put out, but they're not done. I think these are TV rips so they're not in 720p quality, which I would have preferred, but I couldn't wait.
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Saw this old journal entry and thought of you.
"Why do you take away my happiness, then bring it back again? I feel as if my emotions are controlled by your whim. Everything you do seems to affect me one way or another. I watch you, you know. But actually you don't, because you're not supposed to. Behind your back I watch your every move, every step, every breath.
"But sometimes, I can't bear to look. When you stand in front of me, I find it so hard to look away. Your back fills my vision. So I close my eyes and will you away, but when I open them, you're still there.
"This isn't supposed to be happening. I thought I've gone through this. *slams head on floor* I want you out of my head, out of my mind. But your linger on at the edges of my frayed consciousness, slipping in and out of my thoughts like an apparition."
And the sad thing is, I still dream of you.
"Why do you take away my happiness, then bring it back again? I feel as if my emotions are controlled by your whim. Everything you do seems to affect me one way or another. I watch you, you know. But actually you don't, because you're not supposed to. Behind your back I watch your every move, every step, every breath.
"But sometimes, I can't bear to look. When you stand in front of me, I find it so hard to look away. Your back fills my vision. So I close my eyes and will you away, but when I open them, you're still there.
"This isn't supposed to be happening. I thought I've gone through this. *slams head on floor* I want you out of my head, out of my mind. But your linger on at the edges of my frayed consciousness, slipping in and out of my thoughts like an apparition."
And the sad thing is, I still dream of you.
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17 November, 2007
In the middle of my exams. Right smack in the middle. Three papers down, three more to go. Actually uni exams are so much less xiong than exams were in JC. I mean, they're only 2 hours long, and each module has only one paper! I still remember when I was in Sec 4 and I was looking at the O level handbook (which had information on A levels as well) and was horrified at the 3 hour papers. I was so scared, LOL. But then again in uni there are two rounds of exams a year, once a sem. Blah blah blah. I just want mine to be over ASAP. Some of my friends have only 1 paper left, lucky them. But I don't have any double papers. In fact, I've never had any double papers since O levels, haha.
Oh man I just totally wasted today watching scattered episodes of anime and TV serials. I feel so self-indulgent. I will so study hard tomorrow. I'm afraid for 258. I think I'll just like, get a C+ or B- or some shit grade like that. Oh god. I'm going to do badly for my first sem in uni and it will pull down my GPA and I'll get third class honours which is like, useless.
Okay. That was so totally self-sabotage. These will turn into self-fulfilling prophecies. I will not engage in negative intrapersonal communication. Oh, and I will stop dropping all these communication terms everywhere in this paragraph. Haha. I actually kind of like 201, although I admit I spent a bit too much time studying it when I didn't need to. But blah.
I'll try and come up with a layout after the exams. Try being the operative word here. It's not difficult to make something, but it's difficult to make something that I like.
I've noticed a recurring theme of flight in a lot of my work. It's just like me to go ahead and pick something impossible, eh? But if I had to answer the question of what superpower I would like to have, it would be to fly. Wouldn't it be just bloody awesome if you could? I guess I can only imagine.
Oohhh. My mother bought me my 2008 SPCA calendar. I lovelove SPCA calendars. :D They're soooo cute.
My DSL modem looks like it's going to give up on me soon. I don't know what's wrong with it, probably a problem with the contacts between the parts or something, but I have a hard time getting it to switch ON. I can sit there and press the on/off switch dozens of times and the bloody modem wouldn't even turn on.
Oh, I got back to reinstalling Last.fm. Well, not technically, because the software wouldn't work for some reason, so I'm subsisting on a foobar0.9 plugin which works, but I have to manually change the proxy information when I'm switching from the school network (both wireless and dial-up! oh gosh, am I still using 56k?) and my home broadband.
Anyway I just took a look at the charts on Last.fm and Radiohead's new album is dominating it like crazy. I took a listen and don't see what the hoo-hah is all about. I guess it just doesn't suit my music tastes. I've always been kinda apprehensive about Radiohead because I knew that I wouldn't like them, but I got curious, hey. Now I can say for sure that I don't like them.
Okay, enough random paragraphs. I should toddle off and sleep so I can wean myself off the habit of sleeping at 3am everyday even though I'm not studying from 12-3. (Gah, the evils of the D:\Videos folder are beckoning to me...)
Oh man I just totally wasted today watching scattered episodes of anime and TV serials. I feel so self-indulgent. I will so study hard tomorrow. I'm afraid for 258. I think I'll just like, get a C+ or B- or some shit grade like that. Oh god. I'm going to do badly for my first sem in uni and it will pull down my GPA and I'll get third class honours which is like, useless.
Okay. That was so totally self-sabotage. These will turn into self-fulfilling prophecies. I will not engage in negative intrapersonal communication. Oh, and I will stop dropping all these communication terms everywhere in this paragraph. Haha. I actually kind of like 201, although I admit I spent a bit too much time studying it when I didn't need to. But blah.
I'll try and come up with a layout after the exams. Try being the operative word here. It's not difficult to make something, but it's difficult to make something that I like.
I've noticed a recurring theme of flight in a lot of my work. It's just like me to go ahead and pick something impossible, eh? But if I had to answer the question of what superpower I would like to have, it would be to fly. Wouldn't it be just bloody awesome if you could? I guess I can only imagine.
Oohhh. My mother bought me my 2008 SPCA calendar. I lovelove SPCA calendars. :D They're soooo cute.
My DSL modem looks like it's going to give up on me soon. I don't know what's wrong with it, probably a problem with the contacts between the parts or something, but I have a hard time getting it to switch ON. I can sit there and press the on/off switch dozens of times and the bloody modem wouldn't even turn on.
Oh, I got back to reinstalling Last.fm. Well, not technically, because the software wouldn't work for some reason, so I'm subsisting on a foobar0.9 plugin which works, but I have to manually change the proxy information when I'm switching from the school network (both wireless and dial-up! oh gosh, am I still using 56k?) and my home broadband.
Anyway I just took a look at the charts on Last.fm and Radiohead's new album is dominating it like crazy. I took a listen and don't see what the hoo-hah is all about. I guess it just doesn't suit my music tastes. I've always been kinda apprehensive about Radiohead because I knew that I wouldn't like them, but I got curious, hey. Now I can say for sure that I don't like them.
Okay, enough random paragraphs. I should toddle off and sleep so I can wean myself off the habit of sleeping at 3am everyday even though I'm not studying from 12-3. (Gah, the evils of the D:\Videos folder are beckoning to me...)
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09 November, 2007
Sigh blogging just to complain. I got a B+ for my term paper! OMG sucks can. Everyone else I know got an A-. Fine, it's half a grade, but it's still HALF A GRADE HIGHER. And the problem is I don't know what's wrong with my bloody paper. Okay. Fine. I do. It's not "in-depth" enough. Blargh. I can go see my professor, but I can't be bothered and the exams are so near so I should just drop it and not think about it.
Sigh. I'm so unmotivated. I need to motivate myself to study. Grrr.
Jap written on my birthday. Sigh. I actually feel like studying Jap but I'm holding back because I need to concentrate on other stuff.
I actually have a remodel in mind, and did a layout in Photoshop but it turned out bad. It eventually evolved into a pretty nice wallpaper though, which I'm currently using now. Thought I'd share it with everyone. It's widescreen, but it should look fine centred on a white background on any resolution.
Sigh. I'm so unmotivated. I need to motivate myself to study. Grrr.
Jap written on my birthday. Sigh. I actually feel like studying Jap but I'm holding back because I need to concentrate on other stuff.
I actually have a remodel in mind, and did a layout in Photoshop but it turned out bad. It eventually evolved into a pretty nice wallpaper though, which I'm currently using now. Thought I'd share it with everyone. It's widescreen, but it should look fine centred on a white background on any resolution.
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05 November, 2007
Spanish oral was okay. Rachel and I were fretting and practising like crazy before that. Haha. Okay, we weren't crazy. We were just a little nervous and worried we'd forget our script and screw up.
Which I kind of did. It wasn't a major screw up, but I made a couple of mistakes and took longer than I should have to pick up on one of her cues and say my line.
But it was okay. And only "okay". It wasn't great or anything. Cristina, our tutor, praised us after that. But it was more like it was directed toward Rachel and not me. *shrug* Not that I care. I just hope I don't do too badly on the oral so that my chance of getting an A isn't screwed.
Although I hope for an A, I don't know if I deserve it. I'm not hardworking enough. Who cares, I'm just relieved Spanish oral and listening is over. Only the written paper to go, and that's 3 weeks away after all my other papers.
What I'm fretting over now is 203, which we had a revision lecture for today, and it totally freaked everyone out. Okay, "freaked" is not a good choice. More like worry excessively over the subject. I was all fired-up after the lecture I went to borrow extra readings from the library after lunch, then realised that I didn't want to focus on film (which were the readings I borrowed), and so returned them after a while. Still staying with my decision to do advertising/PR for my 203. But seeing the stuff that my friends collaborated to come up with makes me worried. And I haven't mugged my journalism notes. Argh, my journalism lecturer is intimidating. He's just so bloody smart and everything he says sounds right.
But now that I'm home, I don't feel so stressed out. I feel kind of relaxed, actually. I need to somehow drum into my head that I don't have time left. EXAMS ARE NEXT WEEK OMFG. I feel so... unprepared. This feels so different from JC or secondary school. It's like I seem to have so much to study for, yet I don't know where to start. And when I look at my materials, I'm like, hey, it's only this much, I still have time. And then I slack off. Like now.
I bought new jeans from ESPRIT on Sunday! They're so comfy. I love comfy jeans. Haha I love it that I have a 20% discount off everything in November because it's my birthday month! :D:D:D:D I'm not looking forward to growing old though, nor am I looking forward to the day because I have my Jap written. It's going to be a lonely day as are all Jap class days. Surprisingly, I'm fine about it. I'm fine about being alone when I've got something to do. I feel like telling everyone that hey, you know, I'm walking by myself but that's because I'm going somewhere. Are you?
Oh and on a side note: watching ELLEGARDEN's live performance makes me want to go to their concert SO BADDDDD. TOT. I ended up working on my research project while watching their live concert. Haha. Talk about multi-tasking and diminished quality of work. Sigh.
Which I kind of did. It wasn't a major screw up, but I made a couple of mistakes and took longer than I should have to pick up on one of her cues and say my line.
But it was okay. And only "okay". It wasn't great or anything. Cristina, our tutor, praised us after that. But it was more like it was directed toward Rachel and not me. *shrug* Not that I care. I just hope I don't do too badly on the oral so that my chance of getting an A isn't screwed.
Although I hope for an A, I don't know if I deserve it. I'm not hardworking enough. Who cares, I'm just relieved Spanish oral and listening is over. Only the written paper to go, and that's 3 weeks away after all my other papers.
What I'm fretting over now is 203, which we had a revision lecture for today, and it totally freaked everyone out. Okay, "freaked" is not a good choice. More like worry excessively over the subject. I was all fired-up after the lecture I went to borrow extra readings from the library after lunch, then realised that I didn't want to focus on film (which were the readings I borrowed), and so returned them after a while. Still staying with my decision to do advertising/PR for my 203. But seeing the stuff that my friends collaborated to come up with makes me worried. And I haven't mugged my journalism notes. Argh, my journalism lecturer is intimidating. He's just so bloody smart and everything he says sounds right.
But now that I'm home, I don't feel so stressed out. I feel kind of relaxed, actually. I need to somehow drum into my head that I don't have time left. EXAMS ARE NEXT WEEK OMFG. I feel so... unprepared. This feels so different from JC or secondary school. It's like I seem to have so much to study for, yet I don't know where to start. And when I look at my materials, I'm like, hey, it's only this much, I still have time. And then I slack off. Like now.
I bought new jeans from ESPRIT on Sunday! They're so comfy. I love comfy jeans. Haha I love it that I have a 20% discount off everything in November because it's my birthday month! :D:D:D:D I'm not looking forward to growing old though, nor am I looking forward to the day because I have my Jap written. It's going to be a lonely day as are all Jap class days. Surprisingly, I'm fine about it. I'm fine about being alone when I've got something to do. I feel like telling everyone that hey, you know, I'm walking by myself but that's because I'm going somewhere. Are you?
Oh and on a side note: watching ELLEGARDEN's live performance makes me want to go to their concert SO BADDDDD. TOT. I ended up working on my research project while watching their live concert. Haha. Talk about multi-tasking and diminished quality of work. Sigh.
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03 November, 2007
Actually you know what, the presentation turned out pretty okay. I guess I can be a stick in the mud sometimes about how things must look proper, and about not wanting to deviate from what I think it's normal. Maybe I should be a little less fussy about things and not be so uptight about trying new stuff. I guess that's the biggest thing I learned from this presentation.
Went to my aunt's housewarming today and it was so bloody effing boring. I was pretty okay up until we finished dinner, greeting everyone and smiling and participating in conversations and everything, but after that there was absolutely nothing to do and I just wanted to go home and not have to sit in that cold function room, nor talk about my cousin's new house or whatever else the old women were talking about. So I just sat in a corner being anti-social and sulking and ended up tearing up bits of paper to vent my frustration and be immature. I know I shouldn't have done that. I probably embarrassed my mother by acting like I was 10. It felt like I was 10 anyway. None of the cousins my age went. Not that we're close anyway, but it would at least have been better.
But I'm not sorry for my behaviour. For some reason I feel like I deserve to act that way.
Mmmmm.... should be reading my 201 textbook now. SLfjlasjlf. No mood.
Oh oh oh. Went out on Friday to celebrate Meow's birthday! Belatedly, since her actual birthday was on Monday, but we're all so busy so we didn't have the time. Went to NYP to meet Weiqi... I still think her school is waaaay better-looking than mine. And I still can't get over the fact that they have powerpoints at EVERY BENCH. In my school the benches with powerpoints are very much in demand. But with effort you can power your laptop; it's just a matter of how far you want to walk.
Anyway we were late in meeting Meow because we hadn't got Meow's present yet. Wanted to get something for her new Macbook but couldn't think of anything and everything else was so expensive. Went to Borders instead and got her a wolf calendar thing. Oh and I finally got a new water bottle! Been hunting around for a 400ml metal one. They're quite rare.
So we went to Citylink after that and ate at New York New York. The food is so-so only. Don't go there if you want good food. But I guess it didn't really matter, because being with 5TORM just makes me happy. They're one of the few people I can talk to without any effort or self-conciousness. It's just so comfortable and easy.
Oh I bought the last Harry Potter book at last! For $29.90 at HMV. Apparently they're selling it at that price at Popular too. I saw it today when I went to Jurong Point for lunch with Mother. Hah! I knew it was the right move to hold out. The original price is like $53. Or $43 after 20% discount. :D:D:D:D:D
I can't wait for the holidays. School's okay. But I have nothing to look forward to. It could be so much better.
Went to my aunt's housewarming today and it was so bloody effing boring. I was pretty okay up until we finished dinner, greeting everyone and smiling and participating in conversations and everything, but after that there was absolutely nothing to do and I just wanted to go home and not have to sit in that cold function room, nor talk about my cousin's new house or whatever else the old women were talking about. So I just sat in a corner being anti-social and sulking and ended up tearing up bits of paper to vent my frustration and be immature. I know I shouldn't have done that. I probably embarrassed my mother by acting like I was 10. It felt like I was 10 anyway. None of the cousins my age went. Not that we're close anyway, but it would at least have been better.
But I'm not sorry for my behaviour. For some reason I feel like I deserve to act that way.
Mmmmm.... should be reading my 201 textbook now. SLfjlasjlf. No mood.
Oh oh oh. Went out on Friday to celebrate Meow's birthday! Belatedly, since her actual birthday was on Monday, but we're all so busy so we didn't have the time. Went to NYP to meet Weiqi... I still think her school is waaaay better-looking than mine. And I still can't get over the fact that they have powerpoints at EVERY BENCH. In my school the benches with powerpoints are very much in demand. But with effort you can power your laptop; it's just a matter of how far you want to walk.
Anyway we were late in meeting Meow because we hadn't got Meow's present yet. Wanted to get something for her new Macbook but couldn't think of anything and everything else was so expensive. Went to Borders instead and got her a wolf calendar thing. Oh and I finally got a new water bottle! Been hunting around for a 400ml metal one. They're quite rare.
So we went to Citylink after that and ate at New York New York. The food is so-so only. Don't go there if you want good food. But I guess it didn't really matter, because being with 5TORM just makes me happy. They're one of the few people I can talk to without any effort or self-conciousness. It's just so comfortable and easy.
Oh I bought the last Harry Potter book at last! For $29.90 at HMV. Apparently they're selling it at that price at Popular too. I saw it today when I went to Jurong Point for lunch with Mother. Hah! I knew it was the right move to hold out. The original price is like $53. Or $43 after 20% discount. :D:D:D:D:D
I can't wait for the holidays. School's okay. But I have nothing to look forward to. It could be so much better.
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02 November, 2007
Look what came in the maaail~~!
:D:D:D:D:D MY NELL CD! ZOMGHOLYSHITS.
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Thanks for sharing the enthusiasm.
I get a big kick out of listening to bands no one's heard of.
But I feel happy anyway when I look at them, even when there's nothing to be remotely happy about, seeing that
EXAMS ARE IN TWO WEEKS OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
Gaaaaargh. Someone tell me why I'm still reading manhwa/manga? It's just so bloody addicting lsdfjalisjfdds.
And I've had so little sleep for the past few days.
I don't know how I survive.
I'm getting a cold.
Been sneezing all day.
Celebrating Meow's belated birthday tomorrow!
I wanted to draw a card for her.
I have the (stolen) idea already.
But I just don't have the time!!! Argh.
I hate it when I have inspiration and I don't get to act on it.
Spanish oral is on Monday!!!! OMFG. My Spanish sucks. Sigh.
And I hate talking about my family.
Somewhere inside me, time stopped that day.
It hasn't run forward.
I'm still living back then, in 2006.
I still speak in the present tense about him.
He still goes to work. He still drives his car.
I still have three people in my family.
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