28 February, 2006
I've a new song I'm obsessing over. Heh. I go through phases of obsession with songs; I'll listen to them on loop over and over and over again. And I don't get sick of it. Heh. Right now it's Relient K's Getting Into You. I simply LOVE the guitar, the melody, the words, everything. *sigh* I want more of Relient K's albums, especially their older ones, but it's kinda hard to get them in Singapore. I was ever so surprised to see their two latest albums on sale at Tower Records. Even Christian bookshops don't carry Relient K. They've got the more popular bands like Switchfoot and Jars of Clay though. I like Jars of Clay. I think I shall get an album by them the next time I go shopping.
I'm not Christian, nor am I a believer. But Christian rock has me addicted. Hard.
'A' level results tomorrow. Ahhh! How bloody exciting. I mean, I know I'll get a band 2 for PW. But there's this bit of me hoping and hoping for a band 1. I don't think it's possible; my project isn't good enough (is anything ever good enough?). But hope. Even if there's just a bit of it, my heart clings onto it and never lets go, feeding and feeding on it until sometimes there's none left when the thing actually comes around.
Then there's CLAO, but somehow I don't really care about it. I'm confident I'll pass it anyway. I know about the argument about how Chinese is important and all that crap being regurgitated a billion times so don't start. It's not that I hate Chinese, I just dislike how CLAO is being taught. There's no bloody syllabus, firstly, and the lessons are so SLACK. There's no tone of seriousness to them at all. It's not like a real lesson, if you know what I mean. There's always this undercurrent of "screw this, I just want to go home" and "I'm just doing this because I have to".
Blah. Am busy working on fac board stuff. Screw it too. Will talk about this fac stuff another time, maybe. But now... off to work.
I'm not Christian, nor am I a believer. But Christian rock has me addicted. Hard.
'A' level results tomorrow. Ahhh! How bloody exciting. I mean, I know I'll get a band 2 for PW. But there's this bit of me hoping and hoping for a band 1. I don't think it's possible; my project isn't good enough (is anything ever good enough?). But hope. Even if there's just a bit of it, my heart clings onto it and never lets go, feeding and feeding on it until sometimes there's none left when the thing actually comes around.
Then there's CLAO, but somehow I don't really care about it. I'm confident I'll pass it anyway. I know about the argument about how Chinese is important and all that crap being regurgitated a billion times so don't start. It's not that I hate Chinese, I just dislike how CLAO is being taught. There's no bloody syllabus, firstly, and the lessons are so SLACK. There's no tone of seriousness to them at all. It's not like a real lesson, if you know what I mean. There's always this undercurrent of "screw this, I just want to go home" and "I'm just doing this because I have to".
Blah. Am busy working on fac board stuff. Screw it too. Will talk about this fac stuff another time, maybe. But now... off to work.
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26 February, 2006
Have been tagged by Elyse to answer the question: why do I blog?
I'm an exhibitionist. Haha. No, I don't mean it that way. I like to write about what has happened to me and how I feel or think about things, and I enjoy the fact that people read it. I'm an attention-seeker by nature, and I love it when people shower me with undivided attention, which I'm getting for a few minutes when people read my blog.
Of course there's the fact that I love to write, and blogging lets me do that. And it gives me space to publicly rant about things, proclaiming my displeasures to the world, should they choose to hear it. It's also a way for me to keep in touch with friends whom I don't see on a regular basis anymore (5TORM!), and my blog keeps them updated on my life when I'm not around to scream it into their ears for them. Heh.
Also have been tagged by Huifang to answer questions of a less serious nature. I would refuse to do it, but then I might come across as unsporting. So I might as well.
The Game of TAG
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. They need to mention the sex of the target.
2. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their blog saying they've been tagged. -- I absolutely refuse to impose this evil thing on others.
3. If you're tagged a 2nd time, there's no need to post.
Sex of Target: Target? That's an odd way to put it. But, for the sake of answering the question, male.
1. Since he's a perfect lover, he must be good-looking. LOL.
2. He must be a good person inside too. Rather, our personalities had better not clash.
3. I must love him. Yes, this is very important. If he loves me perfectly but I don't feel the same way, what's the point?
4. I must feel at ease with him. It's not use if I feel self-concious around him all the time.
5. He must be able to make me laugh. I like to be happy.
6. Does little things for me out of his own volition, without being prompted.
7. Doesn't embarrass me, or do embarrassing things.
8. Shares my interests/tastes. That's be super. But it wouldn't do to have everything in common. What makes other people interesting is discovering how different they are from you, and celebrating these differences.
Most of it is crap, really. I mean, I'm describing an ideal person here. I read somewhere that you never marry Mr Right -- you just marry Mr Good Enough.
I was just thinking, if I made Kathy do this, one of her points would definitely be: Must have money. Haha.
I'm an exhibitionist. Haha. No, I don't mean it that way. I like to write about what has happened to me and how I feel or think about things, and I enjoy the fact that people read it. I'm an attention-seeker by nature, and I love it when people shower me with undivided attention, which I'm getting for a few minutes when people read my blog.
Of course there's the fact that I love to write, and blogging lets me do that. And it gives me space to publicly rant about things, proclaiming my displeasures to the world, should they choose to hear it. It's also a way for me to keep in touch with friends whom I don't see on a regular basis anymore (5TORM!), and my blog keeps them updated on my life when I'm not around to scream it into their ears for them. Heh.
Also have been tagged by Huifang to answer questions of a less serious nature. I would refuse to do it, but then I might come across as unsporting. So I might as well.
The Game of TAG
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. They need to mention the sex of the target.
2. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their blog saying they've been tagged. -- I absolutely refuse to impose this evil thing on others.
3. If you're tagged a 2nd time, there's no need to post.
Sex of Target: Target? That's an odd way to put it. But, for the sake of answering the question, male.
1. Since he's a perfect lover, he must be good-looking. LOL.
2. He must be a good person inside too. Rather, our personalities had better not clash.
3. I must love him. Yes, this is very important. If he loves me perfectly but I don't feel the same way, what's the point?
4. I must feel at ease with him. It's not use if I feel self-concious around him all the time.
5. He must be able to make me laugh. I like to be happy.
6. Does little things for me out of his own volition, without being prompted.
7. Doesn't embarrass me, or do embarrassing things.
8. Shares my interests/tastes. That's be super. But it wouldn't do to have everything in common. What makes other people interesting is discovering how different they are from you, and celebrating these differences.
Most of it is crap, really. I mean, I'm describing an ideal person here. I read somewhere that you never marry Mr Right -- you just marry Mr Good Enough.
I was just thinking, if I made Kathy do this, one of her points would definitely be: Must have money. Haha.
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25 February, 2006
Thanks to Rach's very enlightening comment, I know what the hoo-hah over that particular search term is about. Tsk. All you pervertic people. Do you think my blog will contain any information related to it? Sometimes I wonder at the stupidity of people, because when you search, there is a small excerpt of the page that is included below the link, and OBVIOUSLY my blog does not have any related material to it. =.=;
Nothing much to say. A very uneventful week has just passed me by. These days, time has been trickling by like water. They just seem to flow by so unnoticeably and before I know it, it's Saturday again. Going to VCH later to watch NTU's choir concert. Heh. But yeah. Other than that, nothing much has been happening to me. We had our last Skill C/D Physics SPA yesterday, which I mildly screwed but don't care about.
And I have been very irritated on my morning 172 bus lately, because on my second stop, these senior citizens will get off their seats and swarm to the door, but they aren't getting down, they're just standing there, preparing to get down on the third stop. How stupid and annoying is that? They're blocking the middle of the bus and it's kind of crowded in the bloody early morning and people jostle here and there and I really really HATE that. Also, when the bus nears the interchange, several people will get their seats and squeeze into the aisle, squeezing into ME. I don't understand why they can't sit securely in their seats and wait until the bus stops before they do so. I mean, what's the point of squeezing into the aisle when they have to stand there and wait anyway? So I just stand there, not letting any of those idiots push me away from where I'm standing. Yes, I'm very stubborn. Ugh. Can't stand the people on that bus. So impatient. Raar. >:O
Nothing much to say. A very uneventful week has just passed me by. These days, time has been trickling by like water. They just seem to flow by so unnoticeably and before I know it, it's Saturday again. Going to VCH later to watch NTU's choir concert. Heh. But yeah. Other than that, nothing much has been happening to me. We had our last Skill C/D Physics SPA yesterday, which I mildly screwed but don't care about.
And I have been very irritated on my morning 172 bus lately, because on my second stop, these senior citizens will get off their seats and swarm to the door, but they aren't getting down, they're just standing there, preparing to get down on the third stop. How stupid and annoying is that? They're blocking the middle of the bus and it's kind of crowded in the bloody early morning and people jostle here and there and I really really HATE that. Also, when the bus nears the interchange, several people will get their seats and squeeze into the aisle, squeezing into ME. I don't understand why they can't sit securely in their seats and wait until the bus stops before they do so. I mean, what's the point of squeezing into the aisle when they have to stand there and wait anyway? So I just stand there, not letting any of those idiots push me away from where I'm standing. Yes, I'm very stubborn. Ugh. Can't stand the people on that bus. So impatient. Raar. >:O
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21 February, 2006
"... we are all locked inside our individual personal prisons of skin and bone and only able to see out through our own limited, occasionally very faulty perspective." - Torey Hayden
How true.
How true.
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Can someone tell me what the hell is "nyp girl video"? Because I keep on getting so many searches for it that refer to my blog.
So what've I been up to of late? I dunno. Nothing much. I've been going to school early because I got sick of doing nothing in the mornings and waiting for 5.50am to roll around. So I leave the house at about 5.45am now and take the 5.50am bus instead. A 5-minute difference, I know, but it beats falling asleep on the couch waiting for that 5 minutes to crawl by. The early bus is soooo much emptier. And the roads are less congested. Oh, today my bus sort of broke down. Haha. But luckily it occured at the Hwa Chong bus stop, so I wasn't affected. XP
Seriously, these days, one word is enough to describes my life: ennui. Everything has become so bloody boring I find myself sitting at the class bench stoning my life away. Haha yes, I know I should study, but that's a beside the point. And I absolutely dislike doing work in school. It's not that I avoid it completely, because I don't, but most of the time I don't feel like it, and when I try, it's usually not very productive anyway.
Drrrr. Wednesday tomorrow. Which means one period PE, a slack Maths tutorial, a boring Physics lecture that will go in my right ear and come out the other, and choir. Oh yeah, and fac comm meeting... ugh. Like, most of the agenda pertains to me. Which is bad. Raar. >=|
I have a strong craving to eat instant noodles. Have had one for the past two days I think. Heh.
edit: Oh, and I finally got around to listening to the Chrono Trigger music Timo burned for me and it's fantastic! Thank you a billion. XD It's like all those familiar tunes I've been listening to have sprouted wings and taken flight with full orchestra backing! No more cheesy MIDIs! Haha.
why is it i feel encapsulated in this bubble and so tired at the same time? i can't be bothered to reach out and touch you. but this is not saying i'm content to sit within these walls and look out either. maybe i don't want to look anymore.
So what've I been up to of late? I dunno. Nothing much. I've been going to school early because I got sick of doing nothing in the mornings and waiting for 5.50am to roll around. So I leave the house at about 5.45am now and take the 5.50am bus instead. A 5-minute difference, I know, but it beats falling asleep on the couch waiting for that 5 minutes to crawl by. The early bus is soooo much emptier. And the roads are less congested. Oh, today my bus sort of broke down. Haha. But luckily it occured at the Hwa Chong bus stop, so I wasn't affected. XP
Seriously, these days, one word is enough to describes my life: ennui. Everything has become so bloody boring I find myself sitting at the class bench stoning my life away. Haha yes, I know I should study, but that's a beside the point. And I absolutely dislike doing work in school. It's not that I avoid it completely, because I don't, but most of the time I don't feel like it, and when I try, it's usually not very productive anyway.
Drrrr. Wednesday tomorrow. Which means one period PE, a slack Maths tutorial, a boring Physics lecture that will go in my right ear and come out the other, and choir. Oh yeah, and fac comm meeting... ugh. Like, most of the agenda pertains to me. Which is bad. Raar. >=|
I have a strong craving to eat instant noodles. Have had one for the past two days I think. Heh.
edit: Oh, and I finally got around to listening to the Chrono Trigger music Timo burned for me and it's fantastic! Thank you a billion. XD It's like all those familiar tunes I've been listening to have sprouted wings and taken flight with full orchestra backing! No more cheesy MIDIs! Haha.
why is it i feel encapsulated in this bubble and so tired at the same time? i can't be bothered to reach out and touch you. but this is not saying i'm content to sit within these walls and look out either. maybe i don't want to look anymore.
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17 February, 2006
Going off to school in two minutes. Gah. For some reason, I hate waiting for 172 in the mornings. Ah well. Haven't been doing anything this week. I have begun to think I have rotted away and died or something. XD School's boring. I spent two and a half hours yesterday accomplishing practically nothing. I find that rather amusing.
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14 February, 2006
I go through phases. Much like a moon I wax and wane.
Sometimes I don't know who I am, or who I've become. You go through the motions of living, of laughing, of life, and then what? Often, when I think of me, of who I am, I see myself sitting alone at the class bench on a cool, sunny day, facing the rock-climbing wall which no one climbs, and just letting the wind blow and blow, sanding away my features and sins and everything that is wrong with me, until I too become the wind that goes on blowing and doesn't know where to end.
Sometimes, the future just seems so bleak. You don't know just how very bland everything seems to me now. It's like having the most fantastic revelation ever that you just have to write down, then realising you only have a sheet of laminated white paper without a marker in hand. It isn't hopelessness, it isn't being resigned, it's just understanding so much that there just doesn't seem to be anything to look forward to anymore, because you know how things will turn out, and you know they aren't going to be full of colour or zest or life or any of all those other nouns laced with happiness. It's just going to be there. Because the future is what it is, inevitable. Sometime later, the future will roll around and become the present. And then what?
So for the first time, I'm not looking forward to school tomorrow, nor am I dreading it. I'm just accepting it. It's not a happy event, nor is it a sad event. It's just an event that has to occur, because it has been written in the scheme of time (or rather, it is more likely protocol, having to go to school as required to by the law). I just happen to be the sad puppet that has been put on God's stage, to go through the motions that I am expected to execute, to recite the lines that have been written since time immemorial, and then take a bow and exit as quietly as I have come.
I had a very odd dream. It involved Thaipusam, which is so totally random I was taken off guard. It also involved a lot of body piercing. And trying to recall the name of a band, which, until now, I am unable to remember. Dreams are so very fleeting. It slips past your hands like silk -- you want to touch it again, because it feels so comforting you would give anything to plunge yourself into it, just to feel that moment of perfection, but before you can get a proper hold, it disappears, but you can't pick it up again, for what was touched once doesn't come back to get touched again.
I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. It feels meaningless to go on like this. I need to find an anchor, but the sea I'm sailing on is an abyss of indecision and I can't find a place to set it down without causing the boat to capsize at the same time. So I go on sailing, on this world where the water doesn't seem to ever end, even when the seagulls begin to land on the railings and rot and die in the unforgiving sun.
Sometimes I don't know who I am, or who I've become. You go through the motions of living, of laughing, of life, and then what? Often, when I think of me, of who I am, I see myself sitting alone at the class bench on a cool, sunny day, facing the rock-climbing wall which no one climbs, and just letting the wind blow and blow, sanding away my features and sins and everything that is wrong with me, until I too become the wind that goes on blowing and doesn't know where to end.
Sometimes, the future just seems so bleak. You don't know just how very bland everything seems to me now. It's like having the most fantastic revelation ever that you just have to write down, then realising you only have a sheet of laminated white paper without a marker in hand. It isn't hopelessness, it isn't being resigned, it's just understanding so much that there just doesn't seem to be anything to look forward to anymore, because you know how things will turn out, and you know they aren't going to be full of colour or zest or life or any of all those other nouns laced with happiness. It's just going to be there. Because the future is what it is, inevitable. Sometime later, the future will roll around and become the present. And then what?
So for the first time, I'm not looking forward to school tomorrow, nor am I dreading it. I'm just accepting it. It's not a happy event, nor is it a sad event. It's just an event that has to occur, because it has been written in the scheme of time (or rather, it is more likely protocol, having to go to school as required to by the law). I just happen to be the sad puppet that has been put on God's stage, to go through the motions that I am expected to execute, to recite the lines that have been written since time immemorial, and then take a bow and exit as quietly as I have come.
I had a very odd dream. It involved Thaipusam, which is so totally random I was taken off guard. It also involved a lot of body piercing. And trying to recall the name of a band, which, until now, I am unable to remember. Dreams are so very fleeting. It slips past your hands like silk -- you want to touch it again, because it feels so comforting you would give anything to plunge yourself into it, just to feel that moment of perfection, but before you can get a proper hold, it disappears, but you can't pick it up again, for what was touched once doesn't come back to get touched again.
I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. It feels meaningless to go on like this. I need to find an anchor, but the sea I'm sailing on is an abyss of indecision and I can't find a place to set it down without causing the boat to capsize at the same time. So I go on sailing, on this world where the water doesn't seem to ever end, even when the seagulls begin to land on the railings and rot and die in the unforgiving sun.
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12 February, 2006
Made mum buy 周传雄's 男人海洋 album. I'm in love with the title track. Heh. Listening to it over and over again. First heard it when that RI guy sang that song on Campus Superstar. Thought he sang well, but he's out of the race for now. Ah well. Anyway, everyone should listen to the song, just because it's so good. Heh. The rest of the album's not bad too. *decides that she likes 周传雄* LOL.
In other news, I have to go to school myself tomorrow. Gah. That means waking up early. O.o; I'd better not be late, since Mondays are days when we have assembly over at Chinese High. Graah.
In other news, I have to go to school myself tomorrow. Gah. That means waking up early. O.o; I'd better not be late, since Mondays are days when we have assembly over at Chinese High. Graah.
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11 February, 2006
Hui Fang: I knew someone would ask sooner or later, haha. XD is a smiley face that is laughing so hard you can't see its eyes. LOL. I also say XDDDDD sometimes for emphasis. Heh.
5TORM: BLAH. Sorry again. I always end up pang seh-ing you all. =( But my mum didn't want me to go out. She claims I am very sick and that my cough is very bad. I don't think my cough is very bad, but my swollen eye is making me a bit concious of myself, and after taking my medicine I was so lethargic I went to sleep straight away.
Yes, I have a swollen eye. More specifically, my left eye. Ugh, why is it when I get sick, I get really sick? Yue Jia just told me the dragons offended a god called "tai sui" this year. I have no idea who that god is, but offending gods are never good. Supposedly we dragons have bad luck in every aspect of our lives, health, money, happiness, jobs, etc. I'm not particularly religious, but being cautious won't hurt, right? Blah. So I went to see the doctor this morning for the swollen eye. It's the same doctor again. Even he couldn't tell what was wrong, because there's nothing wrong with my eye specifically, just that the surrounding areas have swelled up and now I look retarded. He just gave me some expensive medication to bring down the inflammation, but it doesn't seem to have worked yet. And typical me forgot to ask him for excuse for PE. Argh. Have cross country next Wednesday, and I have no idea if I'll get better by then. >.< Oh well.
I have one more day to hope and pray that the swelling in my eye will go down. As my mum says, by the end of tomorrow I would have taken 5 tablets. It's 3 a day. So.
5TORM: BLAH. Sorry again. I always end up pang seh-ing you all. =( But my mum didn't want me to go out. She claims I am very sick and that my cough is very bad. I don't think my cough is very bad, but my swollen eye is making me a bit concious of myself, and after taking my medicine I was so lethargic I went to sleep straight away.
Yes, I have a swollen eye. More specifically, my left eye. Ugh, why is it when I get sick, I get really sick? Yue Jia just told me the dragons offended a god called "tai sui" this year. I have no idea who that god is, but offending gods are never good. Supposedly we dragons have bad luck in every aspect of our lives, health, money, happiness, jobs, etc. I'm not particularly religious, but being cautious won't hurt, right? Blah. So I went to see the doctor this morning for the swollen eye. It's the same doctor again. Even he couldn't tell what was wrong, because there's nothing wrong with my eye specifically, just that the surrounding areas have swelled up and now I look retarded. He just gave me some expensive medication to bring down the inflammation, but it doesn't seem to have worked yet. And typical me forgot to ask him for excuse for PE. Argh. Have cross country next Wednesday, and I have no idea if I'll get better by then. >.< Oh well.
I have one more day to hope and pray that the swelling in my eye will go down. As my mum says, by the end of tomorrow I would have taken 5 tablets. It's 3 a day. So.
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10 February, 2006
Am coughing like a hag. People turn and stare at me when I cough. It happened in school and on the bus. Makes me angry. Like hello, I'm sick okay, so screw you healthy buggers. Stop looking. *hates being stared at* It's not like I want to spread my "disease" to you anyway. Hmph. And my cough medicine bottle leaked. Argh. How annoying.
Juniors got back their O level results today. I'm worried for them. I wonder who can't stay. =( This period had me thinking of last year's first three months too... *sigh* Took out Qi Han's letter to me after he left... read it and cried. Argh. I'm so weak. I was depressed after the first intakers left last year. Took me a lot of time to piece myself back together again. See? Qian always forms these bonds so quickly, but as always, they're so easily broken, but Qian's never ready to let go.
Have decided to gamble and go for the Kbox outing with 5TORM tomorrow. Shall try not to cough my way through the songs. Haha. Ooh, congrats to Weiqi for B4 in English. YAY. Now I'm waiting for my PW and CLAO results. BLAH. Hope I don't do too suckily. Just a band 2 will do, okay? I'm not asking for too much. But you know, a band 1 would be SUPER and I'll treat my whole group again. I'm SERIOUS. And I'm just hoping for a C5 or B4 in Chinese. Hehe. I'm really not asking for too much. (actually I'm just hoping I don't fail CLAO, eep)
Juniors got back their O level results today. I'm worried for them. I wonder who can't stay. =( This period had me thinking of last year's first three months too... *sigh* Took out Qi Han's letter to me after he left... read it and cried. Argh. I'm so weak. I was depressed after the first intakers left last year. Took me a lot of time to piece myself back together again. See? Qian always forms these bonds so quickly, but as always, they're so easily broken, but Qian's never ready to let go.
Have decided to gamble and go for the Kbox outing with 5TORM tomorrow. Shall try not to cough my way through the songs. Haha. Ooh, congrats to Weiqi for B4 in English. YAY. Now I'm waiting for my PW and CLAO results. BLAH. Hope I don't do too suckily. Just a band 2 will do, okay? I'm not asking for too much. But you know, a band 1 would be SUPER and I'll treat my whole group again. I'm SERIOUS. And I'm just hoping for a C5 or B4 in Chinese. Hehe. I'm really not asking for too much. (actually I'm just hoping I don't fail CLAO, eep)
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09 February, 2006
I went to the doctor for the first time in three years yesterday. I think. Or so my "information card" thingy said, you know the one where the doctor writes down what's wrong with you, etc.? Yeah. Last time I went was in 2003, and I wasn't even sick. I had acne and my mum wanted to see the doctor, I think, so she made me tag along. This time she made me see the doctor alone. I left the house at about 8.10pm++, but only got to see that doctor at 8.50pm++. Hah. When I arrived they were serving number 2. I was 19. *dies* They were showing some crappy channel 8 show on TV, and in the clinic opposite (haha, yes, rivals) they were showing channel U. Thought that was interesting, LOL. But the clinic on the opposite side was slower, methinks.
Anyway, found out that my doctor was from Hwa Chong too! '81 batch. My God. Haha. So old. XD So we talked a bit about Hwa Chong. Felt quite bad because I was holding up the last person, so I made a hasty exit. The medicine he gave me was quite expensive, although it's the usual phlegm, lozenge, cough medicine and antibiotics. $30+. Blah. Made me broke after I bought Pi Pa Gao for my mum. Of course she compensated me. LOL. If not I'll go hungry for the rest of the week.
Have been sick for a week I think, that's why my mother made me go. Blah. Hope I get well soon. It sucks being sick. The pain! The pain! But truth be told, I have a high threshold for pain. Then again, I wouldn't know. Hmm.
Oh yeah. About the unearthly hour again, I woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep. I was so afraid I'll cough until I vomited or something. Haven't been sleeping well at all these few days. Bahhh.
Anyway, found out that my doctor was from Hwa Chong too! '81 batch. My God. Haha. So old. XD So we talked a bit about Hwa Chong. Felt quite bad because I was holding up the last person, so I made a hasty exit. The medicine he gave me was quite expensive, although it's the usual phlegm, lozenge, cough medicine and antibiotics. $30+. Blah. Made me broke after I bought Pi Pa Gao for my mum. Of course she compensated me. LOL. If not I'll go hungry for the rest of the week.
Have been sick for a week I think, that's why my mother made me go. Blah. Hope I get well soon. It sucks being sick. The pain! The pain! But truth be told, I have a high threshold for pain. Then again, I wouldn't know. Hmm.
Oh yeah. About the unearthly hour again, I woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep. I was so afraid I'll cough until I vomited or something. Haven't been sleeping well at all these few days. Bahhh.
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08 February, 2006
I'm a pig. Ugh. Went home yesterday and fell asleep at about 5pm, then woke up at 4+am today. =.=; I hate wasting time like that, sleeping it away, all the hours falling into unconciousness.
Anyway, today at school will be super slack. It's usually already kind of empty, with me having 1 period of PE, 2 periods of Phyiscs lecture and 2 periods of Maths tutorial, but because we were supposed to run at MacRitchie this Monday (but didn't because it rained), our 1 period PE this morning is canceled. And our Maths tutor will not be coming to school today, meaning that we don't have Maths tutorial either. So all I have is 1 hour of Physics lecture. Like okay. I still have to go to school though, not only because it's a school day, but also because I have choir in the afternoon anyway. Dunno what I'm going to do. People would advise me to do work/study in school, but I'm not that kind of person. I can't just plop myself down at the class bench or library and study or do work and wish to be anywhere near productive. I need the comfort of having bathed and wearing clean clothes and sitting down at my lovely table and THEN do work. Haha.
I realise I haven't been very productive academically lately. Or with regards to my duties as a publicity I/C. Hah. So I did up the poster for Jaq Yeo to "advertise" their presence and availability for people to confide in. I kind of like it, but can see why people might not. Hmm. Got the inspiration while humming Green Day's Boulevard of Broken Dreams. As you can guess, the lyrics feature prominently on the poster. Used an old picture I used to make inspirational posters in sec 3 I think, for some time management workshop. I still have them all and looking back, they weren't badly made. Heh.
Listening to Chrono Trigger's soundtrack. It's an unearthly hour. But seriously, if I just close my eyes and imagine a bit, it feels like it's midnight.
Anyway, today at school will be super slack. It's usually already kind of empty, with me having 1 period of PE, 2 periods of Phyiscs lecture and 2 periods of Maths tutorial, but because we were supposed to run at MacRitchie this Monday (but didn't because it rained), our 1 period PE this morning is canceled. And our Maths tutor will not be coming to school today, meaning that we don't have Maths tutorial either. So all I have is 1 hour of Physics lecture. Like okay. I still have to go to school though, not only because it's a school day, but also because I have choir in the afternoon anyway. Dunno what I'm going to do. People would advise me to do work/study in school, but I'm not that kind of person. I can't just plop myself down at the class bench or library and study or do work and wish to be anywhere near productive. I need the comfort of having bathed and wearing clean clothes and sitting down at my lovely table and THEN do work. Haha.
I realise I haven't been very productive academically lately. Or with regards to my duties as a publicity I/C. Hah. So I did up the poster for Jaq Yeo to "advertise" their presence and availability for people to confide in. I kind of like it, but can see why people might not. Hmm. Got the inspiration while humming Green Day's Boulevard of Broken Dreams. As you can guess, the lyrics feature prominently on the poster. Used an old picture I used to make inspirational posters in sec 3 I think, for some time management workshop. I still have them all and looking back, they weren't badly made. Heh.
Listening to Chrono Trigger's soundtrack. It's an unearthly hour. But seriously, if I just close my eyes and imagine a bit, it feels like it's midnight.
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05 February, 2006
Shall post, just because. Even though this makes for the third post today. Went to Jurong Point to eat dinner with parents today. Was kind of dragged there, actually, because I didn't want to go out today at all. *is tired* But I'm glad I went in the end, because we passed by this stall, one of those temporary ones, which made customisable aluminium car plates where you can have any kind of text you want on it. So guess what I got? I got one that says "GREYPRISM". OMG! Merchandise! Haha. Shall find someplace to hang it in my room. And it's one of the cooler ones, not the stupid pink shit that you see idiots getting (and writing "I M COOL" or "XX LOVES XX"). Mine will be reverse embossed, meaning it will look correct on the "wrong" side, with no font colour, because I wanted silver to represent grey. The "correct" side will show a relief mirror image of "GREYPRISM" instead, and will be matte black. This is too cool for words. Will be getting it at the end of the week. Heh.
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OH MY GOD. I accidentally loaded a page in this window and my half-typed post was GONE! *cries bitterly*
But anyway.
Nat: *squee* Thanks for the link! I love poems.
Yesterday I was really out for the whole day, and then some. Heh. Had choir orientation in the morning, which I thought was a success, and I personally feel it's all thanks to Guo Wei, our welfare person, that it turned out so well. Was a stationmaster, so didn't get to play, but it seemed that everyone had fun overall. I was stoning at my station for most of the time though, because the groups liked to come altogether at once. =.=; So I ended up eavesdropping on the Artemis dramafeste rehearsals, which were conducted nearby. At first I didn't know it was them, because I don't recognise the juniors who are acting, but I heard their lines and I was like, isthatartemis? *goes look* kind of thing. Heh. Was supposed to join them after my choir orientation, but when I called Xue Hui she didn't pick up. So I tagged along with some of the choir people who were going for lunch instead, cos I was going to meet some of the class (and junior class) people after they finished Kbox-ing.
We went to Orchard Cineleisure, which incidentally, was where my class was too, making things easier for me to meet them. We didn't actually do much there, except take neoprints, which forgetful me has forgot to take downstairs to scan, so I'll have to do that later. There was also a lion dance troupe there, which was so loud I could feel everything around me vibrating. O.o; They did the usual cool stuff like peel oranges and throw vegetables everywhere. LOL Quite entertaining. Haven't been involved in such a performance up close before.
After that, we left Cine and walked s-l-o-w-l-y to Plaza Singapura. It wasn't actually intentional, because we were just chatting and whatnot, but Jason and Yanxia were extremely far in front, and when we realised that they were not going to stop and wait for us, we gave up trying to catch up. In the end, we (which actually consisted of Yue Jia, You Jin, Anne and me) stopped at random places and took random photos, which I think You Jin will upload on his blog sometime today or tomorrow or whenever. Haha. When we finally reached PS, we went to this shop called Bloomington Greetings (I think) which is near Swensen's and looked around. You Jin and Anne were extremely interested in the adult board games they sold there, which, to put it mildly, was highly disturbing, and Yue Jia and I were looking on, a horrified look on our faces. After, er, entertaining ourselves at the shop, we left to look for Jason and Yanxia, who had successfully reserved seats for us at Fish n Co. at Park Mall. Yay! So we spent the next hour (or so?) picking up people at various places like MRT stations and whatnot before our motley crew went to Fish n Co. for dinner.
I've always liked the food at Fish n Co., but rarely go there because it's a little on the expensive side. Not to mention that I've been spending like crazy this week. Was a bit hungry and tired at first, because I skipped lunch, so I didn't really involve myself in whatever was going on. But of course, when I filled my stomach, things become very different. I'm grumpy when I'm hungry. ^^; We played so many lame games I'm sure I froze to death in the restaurant. Learned most of the tricks behind them, which gave me great satisfaction because I'm the kind of person who is terrible at picking up subtle clues. I think the game that amused me the most was the bus driver game. Haha. XD
After dinner we went to play pool at this place near Paradiz Centre. Not sure what it's called. It's an ulu place (to me), very old-looking and run down, but of course bustling with activity 'cos of the arcade and pool facilities. I don't like pool personally, so when people went to the arcade I tagged along. Anne and Qi Quan were playing the drum simulation game which we were so addicted to the other day (read) so we just stood around and watched. I would have had a go, but I didn't really want to spend the money. Heh. The game wasn't quite as fun as it would have been, because the left "cymbal" pad was a bit screwy, so they ended up missing beats that they would not have otherwise. After playing, we went to join the rest at the pool table. Didn't do much. Watched people play and got into the way of many cues, but luckily wasn't poked too hard.
At about 9+pm, Yue Jia, You Jin and I decided to leave because we were afraid we would miss the last train (how wrong we were, LOL). We weren't playing much anyway. Went out and met Zi Rui and Yvette eating at Mac's, who eventually decided to go home with us too. So we walked out, towards Plaza Singapura, and someone (I truthfully, don't know who, LOL) suggested we go look at Chingay, and since it was super near, everyone agreed. Took some photos with people dressed up as clowns and also the 花车 with bright flashing lights that were stopped at the end of the parade road place for people to admire. LOL. Again, photos are with You Jin. Because it was 9+, the parade was long over, and there were many other kinds of "花车" with flashing lights going around the roads. LOL. I'm talking about the cleaning up crew, those big vans with sweepers (I have no idea what they're called) that clean the streets. We also decided to walk down to Orchard instead of catching the train at Dhoby Ghaut, since we were walking in the direction. Initially we thought the parade was still going on, so we were walking down to take a look, but apparently it was over long ago. There were still a lot of people though, and we were walking against the general flow, so you can imagine. However as I was telling Yue Jia, we have a lot of practice walking through crowds because every morning for assembly we have to part the brown sea (haha) to reach the other side of the central plaza where our class has to line up.
We were walking past The Coffee Connoiseur next to Centrepoint when someone (again, I don't know who! might have been 'Vette) suggested that we go in and have a cuppa. I was tired and wanted to sit down, so I agreed. Plus, I've always wanted to go in, but never found any excuse to. We squeezed into a table of four (in case I lost you somewhere, "we" now consists of Yue Jia, You Jin, 'Vette, Zi Rui and me), which wasn't very difficult actually. Ordered some good stuff, then started gossiping and doing stupid things. Like demonstrating stationary waves by blowing over a straw with a decreasing column of water in it to make a note descending in tone. And blowing bubbles into our water and making it murky in the process to see who has the longest breath (I won, because CHOIR ROCKS!!!). By the time we left the café, it was midnight. Ehh. That's what I meant by MISSING THE LAST TRAIN. But actually, we didn't miss it. We took the second last, I think. Because we needed to go pee. T_T That's what drinking too much water does to you. Haha. I convinced Yue Jia and You Jin to take the train to Jurong East instead of taking a bus home, because they both live in Clementi. LOL. I am evil. The train trip was really, really, long. Somerset to Jurong East on the north south line (red) is a bit crazy.
So we just chatted on the train, and eventually it reached Jurong East. Took a taxi home, like what I did during campfire night this year. Heh. Was quite tired by then. Took out my phone to check the time, and realised I had some messages. Read them, and found out that Nicholas, a choir friend, was admitted to hospital on Saturday morning because his lung collpased. I was stunned. It's scary, when someone close to you has to go to the hospital. I know the feeling all too well. I'm too shagged to go anywhere today though, so I'm not visiting him. Feel a bit bad, but yeah, I'm hoping with all my heart that he gets well soon. =(
"The collapse or caving-in of all or part of a lung occurs when air gets into the area between the lung and the chest wall. If this happens, the lung cannot fill up with air as you take a breath. It may occur spontaneously without a known cause, often in healthy people." And he probably won't be able to sing for quite a while after he's discharged. T_T (information from Health Square)
Reached home at around 1+ AM. Mum was awake, LOL. So she opened the door for me and I didn't need to get my keys. If there's one thing I dislike, it's getting my keys, especially when they're in my backpack, because my backpack doesn't have small pockets, and the front pocket is very deep. I end up digging for a few seconds or so before fishing it out from the detritus of my bag. XD
Have to study for Physics test tomorrow on Waves. Gah. Have next to no idea on most of the shit that's being taught. Ah well. It's... just a test, right? But I want to do well. Hmm. Have to do maths tutorial too. Shall... go do something productive now. Long post, anyway.
This is an interesting post to read. It's my post about STJ last year. It's always nice to read your old posts. Brings back memories.
But anyway.
Nat: *squee* Thanks for the link! I love poems.
Yesterday I was really out for the whole day, and then some. Heh. Had choir orientation in the morning, which I thought was a success, and I personally feel it's all thanks to Guo Wei, our welfare person, that it turned out so well. Was a stationmaster, so didn't get to play, but it seemed that everyone had fun overall. I was stoning at my station for most of the time though, because the groups liked to come altogether at once. =.=; So I ended up eavesdropping on the Artemis dramafeste rehearsals, which were conducted nearby. At first I didn't know it was them, because I don't recognise the juniors who are acting, but I heard their lines and I was like, isthatartemis? *goes look* kind of thing. Heh. Was supposed to join them after my choir orientation, but when I called Xue Hui she didn't pick up. So I tagged along with some of the choir people who were going for lunch instead, cos I was going to meet some of the class (and junior class) people after they finished Kbox-ing.
We went to Orchard Cineleisure, which incidentally, was where my class was too, making things easier for me to meet them. We didn't actually do much there, except take neoprints, which forgetful me has forgot to take downstairs to scan, so I'll have to do that later. There was also a lion dance troupe there, which was so loud I could feel everything around me vibrating. O.o; They did the usual cool stuff like peel oranges and throw vegetables everywhere. LOL Quite entertaining. Haven't been involved in such a performance up close before.
After that, we left Cine and walked s-l-o-w-l-y to Plaza Singapura. It wasn't actually intentional, because we were just chatting and whatnot, but Jason and Yanxia were extremely far in front, and when we realised that they were not going to stop and wait for us, we gave up trying to catch up. In the end, we (which actually consisted of Yue Jia, You Jin, Anne and me) stopped at random places and took random photos, which I think You Jin will upload on his blog sometime today or tomorrow or whenever. Haha. When we finally reached PS, we went to this shop called Bloomington Greetings (I think) which is near Swensen's and looked around. You Jin and Anne were extremely interested in the adult board games they sold there, which, to put it mildly, was highly disturbing, and Yue Jia and I were looking on, a horrified look on our faces. After, er, entertaining ourselves at the shop, we left to look for Jason and Yanxia, who had successfully reserved seats for us at Fish n Co. at Park Mall. Yay! So we spent the next hour (or so?) picking up people at various places like MRT stations and whatnot before our motley crew went to Fish n Co. for dinner.
I've always liked the food at Fish n Co., but rarely go there because it's a little on the expensive side. Not to mention that I've been spending like crazy this week. Was a bit hungry and tired at first, because I skipped lunch, so I didn't really involve myself in whatever was going on. But of course, when I filled my stomach, things become very different. I'm grumpy when I'm hungry. ^^; We played so many lame games I'm sure I froze to death in the restaurant. Learned most of the tricks behind them, which gave me great satisfaction because I'm the kind of person who is terrible at picking up subtle clues. I think the game that amused me the most was the bus driver game. Haha. XD
After dinner we went to play pool at this place near Paradiz Centre. Not sure what it's called. It's an ulu place (to me), very old-looking and run down, but of course bustling with activity 'cos of the arcade and pool facilities. I don't like pool personally, so when people went to the arcade I tagged along. Anne and Qi Quan were playing the drum simulation game which we were so addicted to the other day (read) so we just stood around and watched. I would have had a go, but I didn't really want to spend the money. Heh. The game wasn't quite as fun as it would have been, because the left "cymbal" pad was a bit screwy, so they ended up missing beats that they would not have otherwise. After playing, we went to join the rest at the pool table. Didn't do much. Watched people play and got into the way of many cues, but luckily wasn't poked too hard.
At about 9+pm, Yue Jia, You Jin and I decided to leave because we were afraid we would miss the last train (how wrong we were, LOL). We weren't playing much anyway. Went out and met Zi Rui and Yvette eating at Mac's, who eventually decided to go home with us too. So we walked out, towards Plaza Singapura, and someone (I truthfully, don't know who, LOL) suggested we go look at Chingay, and since it was super near, everyone agreed. Took some photos with people dressed up as clowns and also the 花车 with bright flashing lights that were stopped at the end of the parade road place for people to admire. LOL. Again, photos are with You Jin. Because it was 9+, the parade was long over, and there were many other kinds of "花车" with flashing lights going around the roads. LOL. I'm talking about the cleaning up crew, those big vans with sweepers (I have no idea what they're called) that clean the streets. We also decided to walk down to Orchard instead of catching the train at Dhoby Ghaut, since we were walking in the direction. Initially we thought the parade was still going on, so we were walking down to take a look, but apparently it was over long ago. There were still a lot of people though, and we were walking against the general flow, so you can imagine. However as I was telling Yue Jia, we have a lot of practice walking through crowds because every morning for assembly we have to part the brown sea (haha) to reach the other side of the central plaza where our class has to line up.
We were walking past The Coffee Connoiseur next to Centrepoint when someone (again, I don't know who! might have been 'Vette) suggested that we go in and have a cuppa. I was tired and wanted to sit down, so I agreed. Plus, I've always wanted to go in, but never found any excuse to. We squeezed into a table of four (in case I lost you somewhere, "we" now consists of Yue Jia, You Jin, 'Vette, Zi Rui and me), which wasn't very difficult actually. Ordered some good stuff, then started gossiping and doing stupid things. Like demonstrating stationary waves by blowing over a straw with a decreasing column of water in it to make a note descending in tone. And blowing bubbles into our water and making it murky in the process to see who has the longest breath (I won, because CHOIR ROCKS!!!). By the time we left the café, it was midnight. Ehh. That's what I meant by MISSING THE LAST TRAIN. But actually, we didn't miss it. We took the second last, I think. Because we needed to go pee. T_T That's what drinking too much water does to you. Haha. I convinced Yue Jia and You Jin to take the train to Jurong East instead of taking a bus home, because they both live in Clementi. LOL. I am evil. The train trip was really, really, long. Somerset to Jurong East on the north south line (red) is a bit crazy.
So we just chatted on the train, and eventually it reached Jurong East. Took a taxi home, like what I did during campfire night this year. Heh. Was quite tired by then. Took out my phone to check the time, and realised I had some messages. Read them, and found out that Nicholas, a choir friend, was admitted to hospital on Saturday morning because his lung collpased. I was stunned. It's scary, when someone close to you has to go to the hospital. I know the feeling all too well. I'm too shagged to go anywhere today though, so I'm not visiting him. Feel a bit bad, but yeah, I'm hoping with all my heart that he gets well soon. =(
"The collapse or caving-in of all or part of a lung occurs when air gets into the area between the lung and the chest wall. If this happens, the lung cannot fill up with air as you take a breath. It may occur spontaneously without a known cause, often in healthy people." And he probably won't be able to sing for quite a while after he's discharged. T_T (information from Health Square)
Reached home at around 1+ AM. Mum was awake, LOL. So she opened the door for me and I didn't need to get my keys. If there's one thing I dislike, it's getting my keys, especially when they're in my backpack, because my backpack doesn't have small pockets, and the front pocket is very deep. I end up digging for a few seconds or so before fishing it out from the detritus of my bag. XD
Have to study for Physics test tomorrow on Waves. Gah. Have next to no idea on most of the shit that's being taught. Ah well. It's... just a test, right? But I want to do well. Hmm. Have to do maths tutorial too. Shall... go do something productive now. Long post, anyway.
This is an interesting post to read. It's my post about STJ last year. It's always nice to read your old posts. Brings back memories.
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03 February, 2006
Yingwan: What's huo yuan jia? The Jet Li movie? If I'm free I'll watch with you. Heh. Been spending a lot of money/going out a lot lately though. Nevermind! It's new year. I'll make time.
I think I'm sobering up. The past few days were spent on a permanent high. Are you sure no one slipped drugs in my food? But regardless, I think I'm back to the old me, the me I kind of liked, the me I was in sec 4. God, I laughed so much then. I'm laughing more, now. Laughing is good. It makes me happy. Or is it the other way round, and I laugh because I'm happy? I can't tell which way it is.
Am tired from yesterday, still. Haha. Skipped PT today, but for a valid reason: was preparing stations (actually, only one...) for choir orientation tomorrow! It's going to be fun (I hope). Which reminds me that I've got to grab the idiom list after I'm done with this post. Heh. I'm a bit nervous, because part of me's afraid that it will screw up, or more specifically, I will screw up. I don't believe I've facilitated before. Oh well. Blah blah. I think tomorrow will be quite sian. I end at 12.30pm, and STJ's at 4pm. Maybe I'll go to the library. Have to return books/pay fines anyway. Received an overdue notice from NLB. Oops. ^^; But which one? I was thinking Jurong Regional, because it rocks and all, but it's a bit far from Dhoby Ghaut (sp). Staying in a library will only make me want to borrow more books. Maybe I'll go there and study. Waves test on Monday you know. Heh. Rather, I'll try and do my differential tutorial. Our maths tutorial class is super slow can. People are starting differential II and we haven't even begun on differential I yet. =.=; Not. That I've done it. Hmm.
Today, I will say something: I hate Chingay. I've never watched it. Parades are just not my thing. But today was going to town to buy Gong Yue and Mel's present with Karen and Jia Jing. Took 174. And it went on and on and on and never stopped. Until we reached Plaza Singapura. We wanted to go to Takashimaya, because Jia Jing saw something at Kinokuniya which would have made a great present for Yue, but 174 didn't stop at the usual places because the road was closed due to the Chingay parade. It was only when we were nearing the barricaded area of the road did I remember that I saw the notice this morning on the expressway when my dad was driving me to school. By then, of course, it was too late. We ended up sitting on the bus, listening to 珊瑚海, and me saying amusing things. The lady sitting behind Jia Jing was obviously entertained by our conversation. I was amused by the fact that she was amused. LOL.
Thank God we reached PS. I thought 174 would have gone all the way to Chinatown. I would have freaked out. I was quite pissed by the time we got off the bus, heh. Maybe I didn't look close enough at the notices at the bus stop. Oh well. What an exciting trip. *sarcasm* So we walked around PS trying to find presents, and stuff. It's not the easiest thing in the world, and we were tired and grumpy and hungry. Eventually had dinner at this crappy place with the most horrible tom yam soup ever. Will never go there again. The shop people were rude, too. >.< Oh, Anderson Ice Cream (I really dunno what's the name of the shop... that Denmark ice cream place) had a 10% off for students! Bought ice cream from them. Cookies and cream! Mmmm, my favourite. After that took MRT home. I have a slight temporary phobia of buses now. Was feeling good on the MRT. I usually dislike taking the train. However it could be due to the fact that I found a seat quite early on. *smirk*
The moon was nice tonight. Couldn't see Jupiter (I really have no idea what planet it is...) in the morning because cloud cover was too thick. But there were scudding clouds tonight. The wind was kind of strong, and I could see the clouds streaming past the moon. Pretty. I want to join the astronomy club! But I'm a bit lazy. And it's on Thursdays. If I join I'll have CCA everyday. How fun.
彩虹下有一棵大树 大树上有一个苹果
咬下一口我就全明白 可不可以让我再
让我再一次 回到那个美丽世界里找自己
- 陶喆
I think I'm sobering up. The past few days were spent on a permanent high. Are you sure no one slipped drugs in my food? But regardless, I think I'm back to the old me, the me I kind of liked, the me I was in sec 4. God, I laughed so much then. I'm laughing more, now. Laughing is good. It makes me happy. Or is it the other way round, and I laugh because I'm happy? I can't tell which way it is.
Am tired from yesterday, still. Haha. Skipped PT today, but for a valid reason: was preparing stations (actually, only one...) for choir orientation tomorrow! It's going to be fun (I hope). Which reminds me that I've got to grab the idiom list after I'm done with this post. Heh. I'm a bit nervous, because part of me's afraid that it will screw up, or more specifically, I will screw up. I don't believe I've facilitated before. Oh well. Blah blah. I think tomorrow will be quite sian. I end at 12.30pm, and STJ's at 4pm. Maybe I'll go to the library. Have to return books/pay fines anyway. Received an overdue notice from NLB. Oops. ^^; But which one? I was thinking Jurong Regional, because it rocks and all, but it's a bit far from Dhoby Ghaut (sp). Staying in a library will only make me want to borrow more books. Maybe I'll go there and study. Waves test on Monday you know. Heh. Rather, I'll try and do my differential tutorial. Our maths tutorial class is super slow can. People are starting differential II and we haven't even begun on differential I yet. =.=; Not. That I've done it. Hmm.
Today, I will say something: I hate Chingay. I've never watched it. Parades are just not my thing. But today was going to town to buy Gong Yue and Mel's present with Karen and Jia Jing. Took 174. And it went on and on and on and never stopped. Until we reached Plaza Singapura. We wanted to go to Takashimaya, because Jia Jing saw something at Kinokuniya which would have made a great present for Yue, but 174 didn't stop at the usual places because the road was closed due to the Chingay parade. It was only when we were nearing the barricaded area of the road did I remember that I saw the notice this morning on the expressway when my dad was driving me to school. By then, of course, it was too late. We ended up sitting on the bus, listening to 珊瑚海, and me saying amusing things. The lady sitting behind Jia Jing was obviously entertained by our conversation. I was amused by the fact that she was amused. LOL.
Thank God we reached PS. I thought 174 would have gone all the way to Chinatown. I would have freaked out. I was quite pissed by the time we got off the bus, heh. Maybe I didn't look close enough at the notices at the bus stop. Oh well. What an exciting trip. *sarcasm* So we walked around PS trying to find presents, and stuff. It's not the easiest thing in the world, and we were tired and grumpy and hungry. Eventually had dinner at this crappy place with the most horrible tom yam soup ever. Will never go there again. The shop people were rude, too. >.< Oh, Anderson Ice Cream (I really dunno what's the name of the shop... that Denmark ice cream place) had a 10% off for students! Bought ice cream from them. Cookies and cream! Mmmm, my favourite. After that took MRT home. I have a slight temporary phobia of buses now. Was feeling good on the MRT. I usually dislike taking the train. However it could be due to the fact that I found a seat quite early on. *smirk*
The moon was nice tonight. Couldn't see Jupiter (I really have no idea what planet it is...) in the morning because cloud cover was too thick. But there were scudding clouds tonight. The wind was kind of strong, and I could see the clouds streaming past the moon. Pretty. I want to join the astronomy club! But I'm a bit lazy. And it's on Thursdays. If I join I'll have CCA everyday. How fun.
彩虹下有一棵大树 大树上有一个苹果
咬下一口我就全明白 可不可以让我再
让我再一次 回到那个美丽世界里找自己
- 陶喆
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02 February, 2006
edited at 10.43pm
(appended at bottom of post)
My heart is so full it feels like it could burst.
I was scribbling in my notebook throughout the entire trip home. Heh.
Have been happy the past few days. I think I've mentioned this. I'm happy today too! Yay. But I was kinda melancholic on the bus, because I know this happiness won't last. I know it'll be taken away from me, sooner or later. Happy endings are for other people. But I'm selfish and I don't want to give up this happiness. I think I've been in a funk long enough to deserve to be happy. Yes, I deserve to be happy. Everyone does, at some point in their lives. I hope my "point" isn't actually one, because that's too short. I want my happiness to last a lifetime. But that's too big a wish, isn't it? I'd say, let my happiness last till at least the end of this month. Yes, one more month. That isn't too much to ask for, is it? I've never asked for anything much, really. Just to be happy. And now that I am, please don't take it away.
Today was a tiring day. I'm physically exhausted. Did a lot of exercise today, so much so that my thighs actually ache. I usually don't ache after running or anything. That isn't good, you know, but anyway. I think it's because I ran yesterday, then ran today again. I have to run tomorrow too. Oh no... I ran 2 and a half big rounds today. Theoretically, it's more like 2 and a quarter, and I walked up all the slopes and then some. But I went to run one round around the track with Yue Jia after PE, so I think it evens out. I even finished the round in under 2 and half minutes, which is the minimum I give myself.
After that Yue Jia and I went back to the class bench, and met Wei Jie and Eng Liang who just came back from the canteen (I presume), and asked us if we wanted to do situps or something. We agreed, and went to the place outside the audi, nearest our class bench. I did 35 situps at a go, but without timing, and Yue Jia did 40 in a minute. I ended up adding a few more here and there, and our cumulative score was 100 situps. Hehe. Not bad right. Wei Jie and Eng Liang matched our situps 2 for 1. I think they did 210 or something. Can't remember. After that, Yvette, Zi Rui, You Jin and Jason came to join us, and after some random things like situps and pushups and whatnot, we played stupid games that involve people sitting around a circle. First we played 7-up, that game where you can't say numbers with a 7 in it, or is a multiple of 7. I think I messed up the rules a little, because we ended up going to 110+. We played it such that if it's your turn to say a number which has a 7 in it or is a multiple or 7, you have to remain silent, upon which the game switches directions. I hope that was understandable. *is too lazy to explain further* I remember in secondary school we always couldn't get past 30 or 40+. After that, we played the "默契" game. I don't know what to call it. It's this game I played during CTSS, where without looking or signalling or having any order of any sort, you have to say the numbers 1, 2, 3, ... until someone screws up. Okay. That's VERY vague. Everyone takes a turn to say a number. However it is spontaneous. You don't know who's going to say the number next. I could say "1", and the next person will say "2" of his own accord, without any prompting whatsoever. You "lose" when two people say a number at the same time. We weren't very good, and were constantly stuck at 12. 6 people were playing. Not too difficult what!
After that we went back to class bench and dug around the angel/mortal box, to find that Yue Jia's angel gave her a CD. SO COOL. So we (Jason, You Jin, Yue Jia and I) went to the café to check out the contents of the CD. OMG her angel is soooo good. He gave her lots and lots of funny short videos, which we watched. They were super entertaining. Haha. Watched until 6+pm. After that was convinced (forced?) by Jason to go to the LD room to play... you-know-what. He sponsored my first two round okay! But I lost anyway. My luck is really sucky this year. Will definitely play next year. Hope to win back the money I lost to him. Haha.
Oh yeah, crashed F Maths 1 tutorial today. Mdm Yeo went, "Today we have a guest!" Haha. I was amused. They were doing P&C, and had a horribly difficult assignment. Gah. I sat there reading You Jin's vector space notes (which I have no idea what is about anyway, except that it has something to do with constantly proving whether something is valid in vector space or not. I got lost at the last part, with Linear Independent and Linear Dependent shit, because I stopped listening at Matrices last year), trying to do the assignment, and generally just stoning. Heh.
I'm also addicted to Jay Chou's 珊瑚海!!!! It's soooo good and I love the 合音 part. I'm trying to learn it so I can go Kbox to sing. Supposedly am going next week with 5TORM. Hopefully nothing crops up.
Is the post quite long yet? I have no idea. One can never tell with these small boxes they give you to type your posts in. However I'm sure with a bit of tweaking I can modify the textarea height. Still, Qian is lazy. I probably won't do it at all. *is just complaining* Oh well. Choir orientation on Saturday. I feel... not very good about it. I mean, everything's so bloody last minute. Argh. I know I should do something, but I'm a "passive leader". I'm sick of taking the initiative. That's why I'm not going to initiate anything for International Friendship Day (V-day!) either. I'm just going to wait until the rest of the comm wakes up. I'm not sure they even realise how "important" it is for our image. It's a whole school event after all.
Wanted to take a picture of the gorgeous crescent moon today, but my phone camera is too crappy. =( If you're out any time this few days, do glance up at the sky once in a while and appreciate the celestial beauty of the world. It touches you right to the core. It reminds you how very big the universe is, and how you're just a small part of the human collective. I love the stars.
I drew that a while back. Click to see what it actually is. I coloured it in the end, which made it a bit uglier, and have it in my file. Heh. I like this version better, but what's done is done.
Sometimes I feel like a fool, because it looks like I'm alone in all of this.
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edit: Am in a VERY write-y mood today. This post is already 1200+ words long, and I'm working on a letter to my choir mortal, which currently stands at 1000 words and counting. Oh dear. But yeah, since I feel like writing (and I hope you really like reading), I shall. No point wasting all this creative juice (more like verbal diarrhea).
To Nat, hey, that's a good idea, but the detail in the picture is very bad. And the original is done on drawing block. Yeah. So I'm not going to print it out. Thanks for the suggestion, though! Dunno if you'll think of reading this, however. Haha. Hope you do.
I've been typing nonstop since about 9pm. Typing is therapeutic. These words, they flow like river waters in the spring (this feels like an RP post! oh no!), and no matter how many times I've said that it doesn't help, it actually does. It satisfies the exhibitionist part of me, this craving to let everyone know what's going on in my (sad) life, what I'm thinking, how I feel.
Maybe this is because my wounds don't get noticed very often. All these scars, they criss-cross my heart like railway tracks, hidden, but there, as always, reminding me with every beat. Take a very literal example for instance. I bruised my elbow today while doing situps, but it's hard to tell it's bruised at all, because there aren't many blood vessels there (I think?). But it still hurts like hell. And the other time when I had a fever. People just thought I was immensely tired. Woohoo and all that. And then there are the deeper, darker things which even I won't write here. I don't think I'll even tell it to you, if I know you personally. Maybe that's why people don't know. And I don't want them to know. Hmm. It's kind of ironic, really. I'm hurt inside, and part of me wants people to know so that they can show me some kind of sympathy and make concessions for me because I am hurt inside, but part of me doesn't want them to know because it's so... personal and embarassing? No, embarassing's not the word. More like private. And I'll have to trust you A LOT to tell you. A LOT.
Am I whetting your appetite with this "secret" of mine? It's not even a secret. It's something I find quite obvious, but needs certain kinds of people to be able to spot or notice. But oh well. *shrug*
I'm sick again. Not seriously this time. I have a persistent cough. I like having a cough, you know. That's so odd. Ehh. But it's like, I'm sick, but well enough to function as per normal. Hehe.
Okay man, this is really really enough. I'm sure no one's read so far.
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My heart is so full it feels like it could burst.
I was scribbling in my notebook throughout the entire trip home. Heh.
Have been happy the past few days. I think I've mentioned this. I'm happy today too! Yay. But I was kinda melancholic on the bus, because I know this happiness won't last. I know it'll be taken away from me, sooner or later. Happy endings are for other people. But I'm selfish and I don't want to give up this happiness. I think I've been in a funk long enough to deserve to be happy. Yes, I deserve to be happy. Everyone does, at some point in their lives. I hope my "point" isn't actually one, because that's too short. I want my happiness to last a lifetime. But that's too big a wish, isn't it? I'd say, let my happiness last till at least the end of this month. Yes, one more month. That isn't too much to ask for, is it? I've never asked for anything much, really. Just to be happy. And now that I am, please don't take it away.
Today was a tiring day. I'm physically exhausted. Did a lot of exercise today, so much so that my thighs actually ache. I usually don't ache after running or anything. That isn't good, you know, but anyway. I think it's because I ran yesterday, then ran today again. I have to run tomorrow too. Oh no... I ran 2 and a half big rounds today. Theoretically, it's more like 2 and a quarter, and I walked up all the slopes and then some. But I went to run one round around the track with Yue Jia after PE, so I think it evens out. I even finished the round in under 2 and half minutes, which is the minimum I give myself.
After that Yue Jia and I went back to the class bench, and met Wei Jie and Eng Liang who just came back from the canteen (I presume), and asked us if we wanted to do situps or something. We agreed, and went to the place outside the audi, nearest our class bench. I did 35 situps at a go, but without timing, and Yue Jia did 40 in a minute. I ended up adding a few more here and there, and our cumulative score was 100 situps. Hehe. Not bad right. Wei Jie and Eng Liang matched our situps 2 for 1. I think they did 210 or something. Can't remember. After that, Yvette, Zi Rui, You Jin and Jason came to join us, and after some random things like situps and pushups and whatnot, we played stupid games that involve people sitting around a circle. First we played 7-up, that game where you can't say numbers with a 7 in it, or is a multiple of 7. I think I messed up the rules a little, because we ended up going to 110+. We played it such that if it's your turn to say a number which has a 7 in it or is a multiple or 7, you have to remain silent, upon which the game switches directions. I hope that was understandable. *is too lazy to explain further* I remember in secondary school we always couldn't get past 30 or 40+. After that, we played the "默契" game. I don't know what to call it. It's this game I played during CTSS, where without looking or signalling or having any order of any sort, you have to say the numbers 1, 2, 3, ... until someone screws up. Okay. That's VERY vague. Everyone takes a turn to say a number. However it is spontaneous. You don't know who's going to say the number next. I could say "1", and the next person will say "2" of his own accord, without any prompting whatsoever. You "lose" when two people say a number at the same time. We weren't very good, and were constantly stuck at 12. 6 people were playing. Not too difficult what!
After that we went back to class bench and dug around the angel/mortal box, to find that Yue Jia's angel gave her a CD. SO COOL. So we (Jason, You Jin, Yue Jia and I) went to the café to check out the contents of the CD. OMG her angel is soooo good. He gave her lots and lots of funny short videos, which we watched. They were super entertaining. Haha. Watched until 6+pm. After that was convinced (forced?) by Jason to go to the LD room to play... you-know-what. He sponsored my first two round okay! But I lost anyway. My luck is really sucky this year. Will definitely play next year. Hope to win back the money I lost to him. Haha.
Oh yeah, crashed F Maths 1 tutorial today. Mdm Yeo went, "Today we have a guest!" Haha. I was amused. They were doing P&C, and had a horribly difficult assignment. Gah. I sat there reading You Jin's vector space notes (which I have no idea what is about anyway, except that it has something to do with constantly proving whether something is valid in vector space or not. I got lost at the last part, with Linear Independent and Linear Dependent shit, because I stopped listening at Matrices last year), trying to do the assignment, and generally just stoning. Heh.
I'm also addicted to Jay Chou's 珊瑚海!!!! It's soooo good and I love the 合音 part. I'm trying to learn it so I can go Kbox to sing. Supposedly am going next week with 5TORM. Hopefully nothing crops up.
Is the post quite long yet? I have no idea. One can never tell with these small boxes they give you to type your posts in. However I'm sure with a bit of tweaking I can modify the textarea height. Still, Qian is lazy. I probably won't do it at all. *is just complaining* Oh well. Choir orientation on Saturday. I feel... not very good about it. I mean, everything's so bloody last minute. Argh. I know I should do something, but I'm a "passive leader". I'm sick of taking the initiative. That's why I'm not going to initiate anything for International Friendship Day (V-day!) either. I'm just going to wait until the rest of the comm wakes up. I'm not sure they even realise how "important" it is for our image. It's a whole school event after all.
Wanted to take a picture of the gorgeous crescent moon today, but my phone camera is too crappy. =( If you're out any time this few days, do glance up at the sky once in a while and appreciate the celestial beauty of the world. It touches you right to the core. It reminds you how very big the universe is, and how you're just a small part of the human collective. I love the stars.
I drew that a while back. Click to see what it actually is. I coloured it in the end, which made it a bit uglier, and have it in my file. Heh. I like this version better, but what's done is done.
Sometimes I feel like a fool, because it looks like I'm alone in all of this.
edit: Am in a VERY write-y mood today. This post is already 1200+ words long, and I'm working on a letter to my choir mortal, which currently stands at 1000 words and counting. Oh dear. But yeah, since I feel like writing (and I hope you really like reading), I shall. No point wasting all this creative juice (more like verbal diarrhea).
To Nat, hey, that's a good idea, but the detail in the picture is very bad. And the original is done on drawing block. Yeah. So I'm not going to print it out. Thanks for the suggestion, though! Dunno if you'll think of reading this, however. Haha. Hope you do.
I've been typing nonstop since about 9pm. Typing is therapeutic. These words, they flow like river waters in the spring (this feels like an RP post! oh no!), and no matter how many times I've said that it doesn't help, it actually does. It satisfies the exhibitionist part of me, this craving to let everyone know what's going on in my (sad) life, what I'm thinking, how I feel.
Maybe this is because my wounds don't get noticed very often. All these scars, they criss-cross my heart like railway tracks, hidden, but there, as always, reminding me with every beat. Take a very literal example for instance. I bruised my elbow today while doing situps, but it's hard to tell it's bruised at all, because there aren't many blood vessels there (I think?). But it still hurts like hell. And the other time when I had a fever. People just thought I was immensely tired. Woohoo and all that. And then there are the deeper, darker things which even I won't write here. I don't think I'll even tell it to you, if I know you personally. Maybe that's why people don't know. And I don't want them to know. Hmm. It's kind of ironic, really. I'm hurt inside, and part of me wants people to know so that they can show me some kind of sympathy and make concessions for me because I am hurt inside, but part of me doesn't want them to know because it's so... personal and embarassing? No, embarassing's not the word. More like private. And I'll have to trust you A LOT to tell you. A LOT.
Am I whetting your appetite with this "secret" of mine? It's not even a secret. It's something I find quite obvious, but needs certain kinds of people to be able to spot or notice. But oh well. *shrug*
I'm sick again. Not seriously this time. I have a persistent cough. I like having a cough, you know. That's so odd. Ehh. But it's like, I'm sick, but well enough to function as per normal. Hehe.
Okay man, this is really really enough. I'm sure no one's read so far.
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01 February, 2006
It's the days when there isn't much on that tires me out the most. It's like, if you keep your mind working at something that you're comfortable with, you feel more alive, but letting it wander on a free reign expends a lot of unwanted energy and leaves you mentally drained.
Then again, my tiredness could be due to the fact that I ran three rounds around the track this morning. But I can't be that weak, can I? It's already been a whole day since I ran that measley 1.2km. I didn't time myself though, pity, because I think I ran quite fast. Heh. S'why I'm proud of myself. Plus, I ran out of my own free will. See? I'm keeping fit!
Anyway, having STJ and choir orientation on the SAME DAY. *dies* I hope I can persuade people to go ice skating in the afternoon? Blah. I'm not in charge of the "programme", so I shan't fret too much over things. I'll just take whatever that comes. Yes. I haven't ice skated for a year. So I hope I get to go this Saturday. I'll be disappointed if I can't though, but I don't think I can do much about it. *needs people to go with her* Haha.
Oh yeah. Lost $24 today playing Blackjack. DAMNIT. Argh. That's a LOT of money. *cries* T_T Lady Luck isn't smiling at me right now. *surrounds self with good luck charms*
I am being very random and brief today. I feel like RPing, but I just can't summon up the energy to type up a post without it being too fragmented. Meh. I wonder how Kathy's presentation went. Helped her with the powerpoint last night. ^^ I'm so helpful. Hehe.
edit: oh yeah, felt a need to say that the new moon you can see in the sky right now is absolutely beautiful. and so is jupiter. at least, the effing bright star i see in the morning toward the sort-of east should be jupiter. wild guess.
Then again, my tiredness could be due to the fact that I ran three rounds around the track this morning. But I can't be that weak, can I? It's already been a whole day since I ran that measley 1.2km. I didn't time myself though, pity, because I think I ran quite fast. Heh. S'why I'm proud of myself. Plus, I ran out of my own free will. See? I'm keeping fit!
Anyway, having STJ and choir orientation on the SAME DAY. *dies* I hope I can persuade people to go ice skating in the afternoon? Blah. I'm not in charge of the "programme", so I shan't fret too much over things. I'll just take whatever that comes. Yes. I haven't ice skated for a year. So I hope I get to go this Saturday. I'll be disappointed if I can't though, but I don't think I can do much about it. *needs people to go with her* Haha.
Oh yeah. Lost $24 today playing Blackjack. DAMNIT. Argh. That's a LOT of money. *cries* T_T Lady Luck isn't smiling at me right now. *surrounds self with good luck charms*
I am being very random and brief today. I feel like RPing, but I just can't summon up the energy to type up a post without it being too fragmented. Meh. I wonder how Kathy's presentation went. Helped her with the powerpoint last night. ^^ I'm so helpful. Hehe.
edit: oh yeah, felt a need to say that the new moon you can see in the sky right now is absolutely beautiful. and so is jupiter. at least, the effing bright star i see in the morning toward the sort-of east should be jupiter. wild guess.
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