20 May, 2006
(0 ) 10:07 Greyprism needs a remodel.
And more posts, of course.
A short update on me is due, I guess. Having choir concert this Sunday. This whole week has been rather crazy, actually, what with practices every day of the week except on Wednesday. Our practice yesterday was tiring. Everyone was kind of dying halfway through already, because we practiced until 9+pm on Thursday (from 4pm!). I haven't exactly been in a good mood these past few days either, and being on the bus yesterday made me even more pissed off because the top deck of the bus was crowded and I had to sit next to this guy who simply couldn't sit properly, forcing half my butt of the seat.
Generally I've been going home and falling asleep immediately. Haven't had much time to do work, except during the long, interminable breaks I have in school, which I loathe. Most of the time, I think I'm the one falling through the cracks. There is rarely anyone around during my breaks, and even when there are, we are usually so bored we don't do anything except sit and stare into space. Somehow, people either have lessons during my breaks, CCA, or simply disappear into thin air.
I guess I crave some girl friends. I only have a few in my class, and we're not the best of buddies who hang around each other 24/7. So it's usually me and the guys, and it gets a bit tiring after a while, no offense to anyone. I mean, the stuff they talk about and the stuff I want to talk about are different. And frankly, I'm not 100% comfortable around them anyway.
You know what? I think my life is sad. Lately I've been feeling empty, like a vessel that has been poured out too many times without being filled. And I seem to have stopped caring what happens around me, and all I've been doing is simply going through the motions of school, waking up in the morning, taking the bus, sitting at the class bench until the assembly bell rings, going to line up, trudging back to the class bench after assembly, going for lessons, shuffling up and down corridors, eating half-heartedly, laughing emptily, sleeping on the bus, going home.
Ah well. I have to find something to pull me out of this hole I've created while pacing round and round.
But all it does is get deeper. And soon, the walls will get too high for me to scale, and then I'll be trapped, forever, until the clouds shroud my vision when the sky falls.
And more posts, of course.
A short update on me is due, I guess. Having choir concert this Sunday. This whole week has been rather crazy, actually, what with practices every day of the week except on Wednesday. Our practice yesterday was tiring. Everyone was kind of dying halfway through already, because we practiced until 9+pm on Thursday (from 4pm!). I haven't exactly been in a good mood these past few days either, and being on the bus yesterday made me even more pissed off because the top deck of the bus was crowded and I had to sit next to this guy who simply couldn't sit properly, forcing half my butt of the seat.
Generally I've been going home and falling asleep immediately. Haven't had much time to do work, except during the long, interminable breaks I have in school, which I loathe. Most of the time, I think I'm the one falling through the cracks. There is rarely anyone around during my breaks, and even when there are, we are usually so bored we don't do anything except sit and stare into space. Somehow, people either have lessons during my breaks, CCA, or simply disappear into thin air.
I guess I crave some girl friends. I only have a few in my class, and we're not the best of buddies who hang around each other 24/7. So it's usually me and the guys, and it gets a bit tiring after a while, no offense to anyone. I mean, the stuff they talk about and the stuff I want to talk about are different. And frankly, I'm not 100% comfortable around them anyway.
You know what? I think my life is sad. Lately I've been feeling empty, like a vessel that has been poured out too many times without being filled. And I seem to have stopped caring what happens around me, and all I've been doing is simply going through the motions of school, waking up in the morning, taking the bus, sitting at the class bench until the assembly bell rings, going to line up, trudging back to the class bench after assembly, going for lessons, shuffling up and down corridors, eating half-heartedly, laughing emptily, sleeping on the bus, going home.
Ah well. I have to find something to pull me out of this hole I've created while pacing round and round.
But all it does is get deeper. And soon, the walls will get too high for me to scale, and then I'll be trapped, forever, until the clouds shroud my vision when the sky falls.