26 August, 2005
Where do you wanna go, when you leave your past behind?
When you move yourself in circles
And there's nothing left to find?
Ooh. I'm back again for a recap of the week. It went by quite fast, zoom and all that, so I don't really recall the details. Basically I spent the whole week trying to make our proposed Teacher's Day banner a reality, as well as try not todie be affected too badly by the F Maths lecture test on Thursday. You don't know the relief I felt when the test was over. I'll fail it anyway, it doesn't make a difference.
Anyway, the banner a collaboration between all classes in the Artemis faculty. A sketch of it looks like this:
Click for a bigger version. I hope we can take a photograph of it when it's completed. That'd be cool. As of right now the banner isn't finished though. We currently have yet to sew the bits of cloth each class is supposed to decorate and dedicate (!) to their teachers because not all of them has come in. And we haven't done the stitch pattern. Otherwise, with some touchup left, the banner is more or less ready, in a very broad sense of the word. XD
The banner just rocks, basically because I had a part in conceiving and painting it! I don't think there's much to say about it however, besides that I enjoyed myself very much painting it, and doing all this stuff for Artemis fac comm is perhaps the very thing I'm looking for during my life in JC. I have no regrets joining fac comm. Not ever. It's probably the only thing left in my JC life that's bright and shiny, not when I've tarnished perhaps everything else.
I know this happiness will not last, and the golden rays of this tortured sun will pull away like pools of raindrops evaporating in the dying light. I guess I'll just have to take it as it comes, then writhe in pain and loss and the odd sense of emptiness when it's gone again, an ever-ebbing tide.
A short post today. Or this week, rather. Expect more next week, I hope, seeing as we have a holiday. Yay. It's indeed a fool's garden I live in.
When you move yourself in circles
And there's nothing left to find?
Ooh. I'm back again for a recap of the week. It went by quite fast, zoom and all that, so I don't really recall the details. Basically I spent the whole week trying to make our proposed Teacher's Day banner a reality, as well as try not to
Anyway, the banner a collaboration between all classes in the Artemis faculty. A sketch of it looks like this:
Click for a bigger version. I hope we can take a photograph of it when it's completed. That'd be cool. As of right now the banner isn't finished though. We currently have yet to sew the bits of cloth each class is supposed to decorate and dedicate (!) to their teachers because not all of them has come in. And we haven't done the stitch pattern. Otherwise, with some touchup left, the banner is more or less ready, in a very broad sense of the word. XD
The banner just rocks, basically because I had a part in conceiving and painting it! I don't think there's much to say about it however, besides that I enjoyed myself very much painting it, and doing all this stuff for Artemis fac comm is perhaps the very thing I'm looking for during my life in JC. I have no regrets joining fac comm. Not ever. It's probably the only thing left in my JC life that's bright and shiny, not when I've tarnished perhaps everything else.
I know this happiness will not last, and the golden rays of this tortured sun will pull away like pools of raindrops evaporating in the dying light. I guess I'll just have to take it as it comes, then writhe in pain and loss and the odd sense of emptiness when it's gone again, an ever-ebbing tide.
A short post today. Or this week, rather. Expect more next week, I hope, seeing as we have a holiday. Yay. It's indeed a fool's garden I live in.
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21 August, 2005
I've always wanted to stab myself into oblivion.
I can't remember much about what happened on Monday. All I can recollect is that there wasn't any Chem during our first period so we had two morning periods free. However I spent my time working on my Chem tute, so it didn't make too much a difference anyway.
Went for commserve on Tuesday. Commserve is community service, which is what I do in Interact. It was cool, sort of made a new friend, an adult volunteer. I'm sad to note that I don't know her name, though. Today the other girl didn't come, so I tutored Charlene's two other sisters. Her sisters are both in P3, but they aren't twins, so I'm not sure if they're sisters or not. But they have the same surnames and all, so I assume they are.
Children are so trusting and so genuine. And the best thing is, they don't judge you. It was fun being with them,helping them with their homework and stuff. To tell the truth, I was kind of nervous and jumpy and dreading going for commserve that day, because it was only the second time I went, and I wasn't sure if I remembered the place properly and all that. Turned out I arrived early (and so, made a friend), and I enjoyed myself thoroughly.
During the peer counselling workshop last week, the counsellors told us that we shouldn't be helping people to make ourselves feel better, to make ourselves feel wanted and needed and useful. But I think that's what I'm doing. Helping these kids make me feel better, because I'm in this deep funk I seem to be unable to pull myself out of.
Which brings me to talk about Wednesday, when I went for the final session of that peer counselling workshop. The aim of the workshop is to equip students with the knowledge and skills to handle situations when a friend is having a problem. But the ironic thing is that I found out that I should be the one going for counselling, not giving it. What drove the nail is was how everyone was jokingly asked the be counselled by me after I told them that I went for the workshop. Good Lord, I'm in no position to tell you guys what to do -- I seem to have lost the sense of direction myself.
Thursday we had the 2nd Artemis faculty committee meeting, but my first. Missed the first one because of choir rehearsals at Esplanade. I enjoyed myself during the meeting, it was fun and enjoyable, but also brought up a lot of deadlines which weren't too fun to meet. But overall it made me optimistic and excited about next year, especially, with all these new juniors coming in and us having a hand in creating a great Hwa Chong experience for them.
Friday -- oddly enough, I can't remember much of it. It's funny how our mind seems to subconsciously block out things you don't want to remember. And Friday wasn't a day I would have chosen to remember.
Finished Iain Bank's Espedair Street. And dear Lord, I loved it. I don't even dare to say why I love it so much; it just won't do justice to it. It's the humour, the self-deprecation, the odd, pathetic strength of hismain character that made me fall in love with his prose. Oh dear, there I go explaining it away and ruining it. So I won't continue. But this makes me want to go buy it. I have way too many books that sit on a pile on my floor because there isn't space on my bookshelf.
Went out for dinner at Bugis with parents today. Bugis, because I wanted to go to the library. Haha. We ate at some Japanese place where the food was quite good but slow to arrive, and I finally bought my jacket (yay!). Also bought a top and a keychain from DCP. They had a 10% discount for students! I was lucky I brought my ezlink card along. Hah!
Borrowed four books, Foundation and The Complete Robot by Issac Asimov, Rewind by Ken Grimwood and Century Rain by Alastiar Reynolds. Century Rain was in Hardback! It's quite humongous, actually, but I don't care. I'm a bookworm and proud of it.
So that's a recap of my week. Until next time...
I can't remember much about what happened on Monday. All I can recollect is that there wasn't any Chem during our first period so we had two morning periods free. However I spent my time working on my Chem tute, so it didn't make too much a difference anyway.
Went for commserve on Tuesday. Commserve is community service, which is what I do in Interact. It was cool, sort of made a new friend, an adult volunteer. I'm sad to note that I don't know her name, though. Today the other girl didn't come, so I tutored Charlene's two other sisters. Her sisters are both in P3, but they aren't twins, so I'm not sure if they're sisters or not. But they have the same surnames and all, so I assume they are.
Children are so trusting and so genuine. And the best thing is, they don't judge you. It was fun being with them,helping them with their homework and stuff. To tell the truth, I was kind of nervous and jumpy and dreading going for commserve that day, because it was only the second time I went, and I wasn't sure if I remembered the place properly and all that. Turned out I arrived early (and so, made a friend), and I enjoyed myself thoroughly.
During the peer counselling workshop last week, the counsellors told us that we shouldn't be helping people to make ourselves feel better, to make ourselves feel wanted and needed and useful. But I think that's what I'm doing. Helping these kids make me feel better, because I'm in this deep funk I seem to be unable to pull myself out of.
Which brings me to talk about Wednesday, when I went for the final session of that peer counselling workshop. The aim of the workshop is to equip students with the knowledge and skills to handle situations when a friend is having a problem. But the ironic thing is that I found out that I should be the one going for counselling, not giving it. What drove the nail is was how everyone was jokingly asked the be counselled by me after I told them that I went for the workshop. Good Lord, I'm in no position to tell you guys what to do -- I seem to have lost the sense of direction myself.
Thursday we had the 2nd Artemis faculty committee meeting, but my first. Missed the first one because of choir rehearsals at Esplanade. I enjoyed myself during the meeting, it was fun and enjoyable, but also brought up a lot of deadlines which weren't too fun to meet. But overall it made me optimistic and excited about next year, especially, with all these new juniors coming in and us having a hand in creating a great Hwa Chong experience for them.
Friday -- oddly enough, I can't remember much of it. It's funny how our mind seems to subconsciously block out things you don't want to remember. And Friday wasn't a day I would have chosen to remember.
Finished Iain Bank's Espedair Street. And dear Lord, I loved it. I don't even dare to say why I love it so much; it just won't do justice to it. It's the humour, the self-deprecation, the odd, pathetic strength of hismain character that made me fall in love with his prose. Oh dear, there I go explaining it away and ruining it. So I won't continue. But this makes me want to go buy it. I have way too many books that sit on a pile on my floor because there isn't space on my bookshelf.
Went out for dinner at Bugis with parents today. Bugis, because I wanted to go to the library. Haha. We ate at some Japanese place where the food was quite good but slow to arrive, and I finally bought my jacket (yay!). Also bought a top and a keychain from DCP. They had a 10% discount for students! I was lucky I brought my ezlink card along. Hah!
Borrowed four books, Foundation and The Complete Robot by Issac Asimov, Rewind by Ken Grimwood and Century Rain by Alastiar Reynolds. Century Rain was in Hardback! It's quite humongous, actually, but I don't care. I'm a bookworm and proud of it.
So that's a recap of my week. Until next time...
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13 August, 2005
Ooee. It's Saturday again. This has got to be my favourite week, tests aside. I mean, Weekend, then National Day celebrations, a two day break, two days of school, then it's the weekend again!
Finished A Scanner Darkly. I thought I wouldn't like it, but suprisingly, I did. It isn't my all-time favourite book or anything, but I did enjoy it. Philip K. Dick is an author you either love or hate, I guess. I personally don't like his prose, though his plots are always one of the most interesting. Oh, and I especially like the title, and how closely related it is to the phrase 'through a glass darkly'. XD
Anyway, now I'm reading Blink by Ted Dekker, another library book. It sounds interesting so far. It's about a genius who develops the ability to see multiple futures. And if you're asking, no this isn't sci-fi. Haha. For once. And it's not only about the genius. It's also about a Saudi Arabian princess on the run. Cool or what?
On Maple news, I'm level 26 now, haha. Trying to complete the quests I've started. Dear Lord, getting Evil Eye's Tail is a big pain in the arse because the Deep Ant Tunnel is... really really deep in the dungeon. T_T I was so afraid I'd die or something, then I'd have to start all over. Now my next task is to get 100 Pig's Ribbons. Not easy, but not too difficult either, except that archers don't attack well on close range, which is the case on Pig Beach. Blah. YAY! Got my 100 Octopus Legs and Pure Water. Now I can get a glove and sell it. *glee*
Finished A Scanner Darkly. I thought I wouldn't like it, but suprisingly, I did. It isn't my all-time favourite book or anything, but I did enjoy it. Philip K. Dick is an author you either love or hate, I guess. I personally don't like his prose, though his plots are always one of the most interesting. Oh, and I especially like the title, and how closely related it is to the phrase 'through a glass darkly'. XD
Anyway, now I'm reading Blink by Ted Dekker, another library book. It sounds interesting so far. It's about a genius who develops the ability to see multiple futures. And if you're asking, no this isn't sci-fi. Haha. For once. And it's not only about the genius. It's also about a Saudi Arabian princess on the run. Cool or what?
On Maple news, I'm level 26 now, haha. Trying to complete the quests I've started. Dear Lord, getting Evil Eye's Tail is a big pain in the arse because the Deep Ant Tunnel is... really really deep in the dungeon. T_T I was so afraid I'd die or something, then I'd have to start all over. Now my next task is to get 100 Pig's Ribbons. Not easy, but not too difficult either, except that archers don't attack well on close range, which is the case on Pig Beach. Blah. YAY! Got my 100 Octopus Legs and Pure Water. Now I can get a glove and sell it. *glee*
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11 August, 2005
It is upon this land which we all stand.
Went out on National Day with parents! Got to buy books at Kinokuniya, which was having a 20% discount. BWEEE. Bought George Orwell's 1984 and We Need To Talk About Kevin by Lionel Shriver. XD
Oh yeah, and I got a haircut. People always say I'm ugly when I cut my hair. I'll just have to live with it, then? I don't really care what other people think about how I freaking LOOK, but at some level deep inside me, it hurts. It hurts even worse than when my friends don't talk to me, or when I don't do well at school or when I'm disappointed with myself. Yes, it hurts that bad.
On another note, I don't believe I've mentioned it here, but I play MapleStory, that 2D MMORPG for pre-teens? Okay, that was mean, seeing that I'm playing it too, and that a substantial amount of people about 16 play it. But still. Anyway my archer's level 25! YAY! Finally. And she gets to wave about a really cool looking War Bow with fantastic damage. Currently I'm training her at Over The Wall, a hidden street in Perion. Lovely place to train because there's virtually no one there most of the time, and you get good stuff like gold from Dark Axe Stumps. And it's quite fast. In half an hour I earned about 7+% of my exp. Hehe.
Okay, enough crap about MapleStory. Need to go to school tomorrow. I WANT MY NATIONAL DAY HOLIDAY BACKKKK. Oh yeah, wishing Singapore a happy happy birthday. 4 decades old, is she experiencing a mid-life crisis yet?
Went out on National Day with parents! Got to buy books at Kinokuniya, which was having a 20% discount. BWEEE. Bought George Orwell's 1984 and We Need To Talk About Kevin by Lionel Shriver. XD
Oh yeah, and I got a haircut. People always say I'm ugly when I cut my hair. I'll just have to live with it, then? I don't really care what other people think about how I freaking LOOK, but at some level deep inside me, it hurts. It hurts even worse than when my friends don't talk to me, or when I don't do well at school or when I'm disappointed with myself. Yes, it hurts that bad.
On another note, I don't believe I've mentioned it here, but I play MapleStory, that 2D MMORPG for pre-teens? Okay, that was mean, seeing that I'm playing it too, and that a substantial amount of people about 16 play it. But still. Anyway my archer's level 25! YAY! Finally. And she gets to wave about a really cool looking War Bow with fantastic damage. Currently I'm training her at Over The Wall, a hidden street in Perion. Lovely place to train because there's virtually no one there most of the time, and you get good stuff like gold from Dark Axe Stumps. And it's quite fast. In half an hour I earned about 7+% of my exp. Hehe.
Okay, enough crap about MapleStory. Need to go to school tomorrow. I WANT MY NATIONAL DAY HOLIDAY BACKKKK. Oh yeah, wishing Singapore a happy happy birthday. 4 decades old, is she experiencing a mid-life crisis yet?
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06 August, 2005
Yes I realise an update on my (non-existant) life is sorely needed. And also that there's something fundamentally wrong with me. It's about making friends and keeping them. But let's not elaborate on that, shall we?
Went to the National Library today! It was superhuge. Met Yvette at Bugis (we were both late, haha) and navigated our way there. It was quite easy, because NLB is really very, very visible. Met Xing Ying at the counter and took a lift up to the 14th floor. We discovered that there was absolutely nothing there, but it had a good view anyway. Sort of good view, 'cos you're high up and can see lotsa stuff, but ugly because lots of construction work is going on in the city and all that.
Anyway, after that we decided we shouldn't loiter around too much, so we we went to the 7th floor reference library and started looking for stuff. For PW, naturally. Meh. We did find some relevant material, but not a lot. But something's better than nothing, right? Went to photocopy the stuff after that. My, the queue was long, but it eventually got to us, so all's well. Oh, the group of people queueing in front of us were also doing the PW apparently, haha. Overheard them talking.
Yup, after we photocopied the stuff, Xing Ying and Yanxia (who met us a bit later) left, and I went to the Central Lending Library at B1. I was shocked, to say the least, when I reached there, because the place was positively SWARMING with people.
By the way, I have to mention this: the Central Lending Library has the BIGGEST IAIN M. BANKS collection I've seen in any library!! Borrowed Espedair Street. Also picked up A Scanner Darkly by Philip K. Dick, which I'm 60+ pages into. It's a bit boring though; his prose doesn't really appeal to me, but his plots are intriguing. I hope I finish it, although I don't think I've got that kind of determination... *cough*
Yeah, that's it for this entry, as well as for my day. Nothing much happened after that. Joined the superlong queue to check out books, then went to Bugis to take MRT, cutting through the shopping centre and buying myself a chocolate ice blend from Coffee Bean as a treat.
Oh yeah, forgot to mention, I was surveyed at the library. One of the staff approached me and I answered her questions. Quite fun. XD
Went to the National Library today! It was superhuge. Met Yvette at Bugis (we were both late, haha) and navigated our way there. It was quite easy, because NLB is really very, very visible. Met Xing Ying at the counter and took a lift up to the 14th floor. We discovered that there was absolutely nothing there, but it had a good view anyway. Sort of good view, 'cos you're high up and can see lotsa stuff, but ugly because lots of construction work is going on in the city and all that.
Anyway, after that we decided we shouldn't loiter around too much, so we we went to the 7th floor reference library and started looking for stuff. For PW, naturally. Meh. We did find some relevant material, but not a lot. But something's better than nothing, right? Went to photocopy the stuff after that. My, the queue was long, but it eventually got to us, so all's well. Oh, the group of people queueing in front of us were also doing the PW apparently, haha. Overheard them talking.
Yup, after we photocopied the stuff, Xing Ying and Yanxia (who met us a bit later) left, and I went to the Central Lending Library at B1. I was shocked, to say the least, when I reached there, because the place was positively SWARMING with people.
By the way, I have to mention this: the Central Lending Library has the BIGGEST IAIN M. BANKS collection I've seen in any library!! Borrowed Espedair Street. Also picked up A Scanner Darkly by Philip K. Dick, which I'm 60+ pages into. It's a bit boring though; his prose doesn't really appeal to me, but his plots are intriguing. I hope I finish it, although I don't think I've got that kind of determination... *cough*
Yeah, that's it for this entry, as well as for my day. Nothing much happened after that. Joined the superlong queue to check out books, then went to Bugis to take MRT, cutting through the shopping centre and buying myself a chocolate ice blend from Coffee Bean as a treat.
Oh yeah, forgot to mention, I was surveyed at the library. One of the staff approached me and I answered her questions. Quite fun. XD
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