27 March, 2005
Wasn't going to write. But for some reason, I feel like typing something. So I am.
Homework progress hasn't been very ideal, but I'll live. It's just that I feel so immeasurably stupid whenever I get stuck at a question, because I know everyone else can solve it. And when I see how much damn time I spend on my sums, I feel even worse, because everyone's doing it ten times faster.
Oh yeah. I don't believe I've written about this, but I slipped and fell some time on Tuesday, at the bus interchange. It was damn embarassing, and hurt a lot. So I have come to sustain 2 more bruises, on top of my ice skating ones. And one particularly horrid bruise has been turning a very many colours of late. I wonder when it'll heal. Right now it's like this big purple, red, blue and yellow patch the size of my palm on my left thigh. And it's ugly.
About the happiness thing, I think I'm feeling much better this weekend, mostly because I've been wrapped up about my own problems with homework and stuff. Haha. I just hope to finish half of what I set out to do by tomorrow. Hmm, for some reason, I really do want to go out for lunch with my family tomorrow, or perhaps dinner, but I've been trying not to go out this weekend because I know it'll definitely make me default on my homework again. You see, I have a terrible habit of sleeping after returning home from anything. And it's usually supposed to be a nap, but I can go on for hours and hours and never wake up.
Hmm, tomorrow is Sunday. One more chance to complete my never-ending pile of homework. One more day to catch up with the rest of the class, to try to shift my mind into gear and convince myself that I'm smart. It's not easy. Oh well. And one more thing -- I've decided that I dislike this layout very much. I think I might work on it... damn. I shouldn't distract myself, really. But looking at this ugly... thing, that's supposed to be representative of me? Not my cup of tea, to say the least.
Ah well, if you can't tell, I'm blabbering and going on about nothing in particular, which is a waste of space, so I shall stop here.
Homework progress hasn't been very ideal, but I'll live. It's just that I feel so immeasurably stupid whenever I get stuck at a question, because I know everyone else can solve it. And when I see how much damn time I spend on my sums, I feel even worse, because everyone's doing it ten times faster.
Oh yeah. I don't believe I've written about this, but I slipped and fell some time on Tuesday, at the bus interchange. It was damn embarassing, and hurt a lot. So I have come to sustain 2 more bruises, on top of my ice skating ones. And one particularly horrid bruise has been turning a very many colours of late. I wonder when it'll heal. Right now it's like this big purple, red, blue and yellow patch the size of my palm on my left thigh. And it's ugly.
About the happiness thing, I think I'm feeling much better this weekend, mostly because I've been wrapped up about my own problems with homework and stuff. Haha. I just hope to finish half of what I set out to do by tomorrow. Hmm, for some reason, I really do want to go out for lunch with my family tomorrow, or perhaps dinner, but I've been trying not to go out this weekend because I know it'll definitely make me default on my homework again. You see, I have a terrible habit of sleeping after returning home from anything. And it's usually supposed to be a nap, but I can go on for hours and hours and never wake up.
Hmm, tomorrow is Sunday. One more chance to complete my never-ending pile of homework. One more day to catch up with the rest of the class, to try to shift my mind into gear and convince myself that I'm smart. It's not easy. Oh well. And one more thing -- I've decided that I dislike this layout very much. I think I might work on it... damn. I shouldn't distract myself, really. But looking at this ugly... thing, that's supposed to be representative of me? Not my cup of tea, to say the least.
Ah well, if you can't tell, I'm blabbering and going on about nothing in particular, which is a waste of space, so I shall stop here.
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25 March, 2005
I am Sad, Sad I am.
To tell the truth, the day was quite fine and relatively better compared to the previous two days. In fact I managed to keep sad thoughts out of my mind right up to PE -- or maybe it only lasted till Physics, I'm not sure. But one thing good about PE was that we didn't have soccer today, which rocked. Yay. All hail haze from Indonesia.
Let's see. After discovering that we didn't have soccer for PE, Rachel and I went to the bookshop to get TYS for maths. Then after putting back her books at the class bench (and me paying You Jin for them), I went to do a bit of inclined pull-ups just for the heck of it. Attempted to jump up to the pull-up bar which was really too high, but just made a fool of myself and got laughed at. Yay. I don't know why I put up with it. I guess it's a twisted kind of attention, and I love attention. It's this attention-craving thing that I have that makes me sick. Oh well.
After I got sick of doing exercise, we went back to the class bench where I attempted induction for a while, but gave up soon after. Felt quite sad then, because I was being left alone to think about things. I mean, other people were minding their own business, so essentially it was just me and my thoughts. I felt so lonely, despite everyone around me.
You know they always have those questions about what song most represents your life? Well, I have a song that always accurately describes how I feel...
Mad World - Gary Jules
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early are the daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
Apologies for the long chunk of lyrics. If you're reading this post, I do hope you didn't skip it, because it's so accurate in depicting how I feel and who I am. Believe it or not, I sing it to myself a lot of the time, especially when I'm not feeling particularly good.
Okay, apologies. That was a rather large deviation from the topic. Waited at the class bench for Wei Jie, Da En, Poh Wei and Eng Liang to do whatever, then went to Orchard with them. They were going out today, while I was going to meet Kathy at City Hall, so I just went along with them, since clingy me didn't want to go alone. When I met Kathy, saw Yi Hui, Steffi and Cherie there... did some catching up with them, and for some reason, seeing them made me feel even sadder than before. Changed MRT at Tanah Merah and met Weiqi, then proceeded to Changi Airport.
The Changi Airport MRT station looks really good. However the floor made me dizzy, because it was all 3-D circles. Haha. Went to some food place at Terminal 1 and saw a lot of 4D people there! Was quite surprised. Felt a little bit more happy when I started to catch up with them too. Dawn and Yingwan's friends also turned up, and seeing the SA people who were Yingwan's friends made me feel very sad because they made me think of Lay Ning... and I don't want to go there, really. Not now, not yet.
You know what? I didn't think I'd cry. Actually, I didn't, but I did get a bit teary when they left. We did the whole take pictures and stuff thing before they went. I don't really like picture-taking, but oh well. After sending them off, Kathy, Weiqi and I went to Terminal 2 to look for something to eat. Eventually went to Swensen's. Sat and talked about Kathy's experience with... dash2, shall we call him. Don't ask me why, it's an in-joke kind of thing. I don't know the person's name anyway. We left at about 9pm.
The MRT ride back home wasn't as long as I thought it would be. It's not really that long, it took me a little under one and a half hours to get home, which is better than St. Nick's. Was reading The Little Prince, which I asked Kathy to help me buy. It's such a great book, and I read half of it on the MRT. I think I'll finish it tonight. My favourite bits are all at the end anyway.
It's a 3-day weekend. I think I'll go crazy. Have to finish my homework, and try not to mope too much. Really. I'm still sad, and I don't think I'll get over it soon. I thought I did earlier today, but I guess I was wrong. =/
It is such a secret place, the land of tears.
To tell the truth, the day was quite fine and relatively better compared to the previous two days. In fact I managed to keep sad thoughts out of my mind right up to PE -- or maybe it only lasted till Physics, I'm not sure. But one thing good about PE was that we didn't have soccer today, which rocked. Yay. All hail haze from Indonesia.
Let's see. After discovering that we didn't have soccer for PE, Rachel and I went to the bookshop to get TYS for maths. Then after putting back her books at the class bench (and me paying You Jin for them), I went to do a bit of inclined pull-ups just for the heck of it. Attempted to jump up to the pull-up bar which was really too high, but just made a fool of myself and got laughed at. Yay. I don't know why I put up with it. I guess it's a twisted kind of attention, and I love attention. It's this attention-craving thing that I have that makes me sick. Oh well.
After I got sick of doing exercise, we went back to the class bench where I attempted induction for a while, but gave up soon after. Felt quite sad then, because I was being left alone to think about things. I mean, other people were minding their own business, so essentially it was just me and my thoughts. I felt so lonely, despite everyone around me.
You know they always have those questions about what song most represents your life? Well, I have a song that always accurately describes how I feel...
Mad World - Gary Jules
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early are the daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
Apologies for the long chunk of lyrics. If you're reading this post, I do hope you didn't skip it, because it's so accurate in depicting how I feel and who I am. Believe it or not, I sing it to myself a lot of the time, especially when I'm not feeling particularly good.
Okay, apologies. That was a rather large deviation from the topic. Waited at the class bench for Wei Jie, Da En, Poh Wei and Eng Liang to do whatever, then went to Orchard with them. They were going out today, while I was going to meet Kathy at City Hall, so I just went along with them, since clingy me didn't want to go alone. When I met Kathy, saw Yi Hui, Steffi and Cherie there... did some catching up with them, and for some reason, seeing them made me feel even sadder than before. Changed MRT at Tanah Merah and met Weiqi, then proceeded to Changi Airport.
The Changi Airport MRT station looks really good. However the floor made me dizzy, because it was all 3-D circles. Haha. Went to some food place at Terminal 1 and saw a lot of 4D people there! Was quite surprised. Felt a little bit more happy when I started to catch up with them too. Dawn and Yingwan's friends also turned up, and seeing the SA people who were Yingwan's friends made me feel very sad because they made me think of Lay Ning... and I don't want to go there, really. Not now, not yet.
You know what? I didn't think I'd cry. Actually, I didn't, but I did get a bit teary when they left. We did the whole take pictures and stuff thing before they went. I don't really like picture-taking, but oh well. After sending them off, Kathy, Weiqi and I went to Terminal 2 to look for something to eat. Eventually went to Swensen's. Sat and talked about Kathy's experience with... dash2, shall we call him. Don't ask me why, it's an in-joke kind of thing. I don't know the person's name anyway. We left at about 9pm.
The MRT ride back home wasn't as long as I thought it would be. It's not really that long, it took me a little under one and a half hours to get home, which is better than St. Nick's. Was reading The Little Prince, which I asked Kathy to help me buy. It's such a great book, and I read half of it on the MRT. I think I'll finish it tonight. My favourite bits are all at the end anyway.
It's a 3-day weekend. I think I'll go crazy. Have to finish my homework, and try not to mope too much. Really. I'm still sad, and I don't think I'll get over it soon. I thought I did earlier today, but I guess I was wrong. =/
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23 March, 2005
A lot has happened since the last time I blogged, which was almost a week ago. It's not that surprising, really because a lot can change in a week, which is 7 days, 168 hours, 10080 min, 604800s.
Last Friday I had choir in the morning. Actually, it was afternoon, but sops had extra practice in the morning from about 10am. We ended at 3pm, but I felt that the last bit of practice was redundant, seeing that we weren't really accomplishing much by ourselves. I think we can improve a lot, but we're over-reliant on J2s. Us J1s, especially the sops, need to really improve on our sound. Somehow, I find that we were a bit better notes-wise in our sectionals than when we did combined on that Friday. After choir saw Da En and Jierong at the Amphitheatre painting their banner. Their banner ROX lah. It's really tidy and looks cool. Yeah! All the best to them for Elections 2005! Met Poh Wei after his harmonica practice, which also ended at about 3pm. I decided that I would go home first to change before meeting Wei Jie and him for Huang Cheng, so I took a taxi from school. It's actually quite fast you know, besides bathing, I still had time to slack before I left. I even reached Raffles Place MRT early... takes about 45min. Not bad. Rachel was late in meeting us, so we went to scout for a place to eat. Ended up at some hawker centre eating nasi lemak that Wei Jie's dad said was not bad. It's actually quite nice, you know, considering I'm not a big fan of nasi lemak in the first place. =)
I felt that Huang Cheng was quite nice actually, except for the second play which was draggy. The first was okay, a bit too artsy for my liking, but I liked the last one best. =) After the play waited around with Mong Seng, Poh Wei and Wei Jie along the Singapore River, for Lay Ning to end. However, Wei Jie left before Lay Ning was out. Reached home quite late after that, but was worth it, seeing that I don't have man oppurtunities to do something for Lay Ning.
Last Saturday I had a headache, which I attribute to a packed week and too little sleep. Waited at Orchard MRT for 5TORM, which made my headache worse, because they made me wait for so long! Tsk tsk. Went to Pastamania at Scotts to eat, and we sat there for quite a long time, courtesy of me and my headache because I didn't want to move and made them sit with me too. Haha. Poor 5TORM, because they had to put up with my Fear Factor treatment of Kathy's unfinished pasta. Oops. XD After that went to Far East to take neoprints... yeah, this is the first time I actually took neoprints... quite pathetic, when you think about it. Hmm. But it was fun, despite my headache and sickly state. Weiqi gave us all friendship bands which were really pretty. =)
Yesterday was the release of the JAE posting results... which made it quite a sad day for many of us in class. Well, and me. The only good thing was that we were dismissed at 12pm, so we could slack! Yay. Went for lunch at Golden Chicken @ Coro... highest attendance from the class ever! After that we decided to go to West Coast, but after realising that not many people were going after all, we called it off. Lay Ning and I walked back to school from the bus stop we alighted from and met Huangyu and Jierong at the class bench. We started talking, chatting about stuff, all the way until 5pm. I have no idea what we really talked about because to tell the truth I was rather sleep then, maybe my brain shut off. Went home with Lay Ning after that... it occurs to me that it was one of the last times that I would be taking a bus home with her... =(
Today went to school and sat at the class bench, thinking how different it was without all the people around. It was, all in all, a really dreary day, although we ended early. At about 12+ or 1pm, Lay Ning came back from SA! Was sooo happy to see her. Maybe I'm overreacting (because I'm not used to loss), but I can't help it, okay? You know (digressing a little...), so many people are leaving me lately. Firstly it's the people who can't make it back, and then there's Dawn and Yingwan, who are leaving for the greener (and much wider) pastures of Australia...
Choir, I felt, was enjoyable today. Was about to write 'good', but decided against it because nothing was 'good', in terms of technique, sound or whatever. It was enjoyable because I wasn't tired. Oh wait, I thought of one reason why today's choir practice was good: because I actually learned something, and I think I improved. And that's GREAT. Miss Lim was doing vocal training today, and she actually praised the sops a bit. Wow. We were quite shocked. Haha. =)
Tomorrow I'll be going directly to Changi Airport after school, to send off Dawn and Yingwan... ahhhh. Will miss them so damn much. =/
Last Friday I had choir in the morning. Actually, it was afternoon, but sops had extra practice in the morning from about 10am. We ended at 3pm, but I felt that the last bit of practice was redundant, seeing that we weren't really accomplishing much by ourselves. I think we can improve a lot, but we're over-reliant on J2s. Us J1s, especially the sops, need to really improve on our sound. Somehow, I find that we were a bit better notes-wise in our sectionals than when we did combined on that Friday. After choir saw Da En and Jierong at the Amphitheatre painting their banner. Their banner ROX lah. It's really tidy and looks cool. Yeah! All the best to them for Elections 2005! Met Poh Wei after his harmonica practice, which also ended at about 3pm. I decided that I would go home first to change before meeting Wei Jie and him for Huang Cheng, so I took a taxi from school. It's actually quite fast you know, besides bathing, I still had time to slack before I left. I even reached Raffles Place MRT early... takes about 45min. Not bad. Rachel was late in meeting us, so we went to scout for a place to eat. Ended up at some hawker centre eating nasi lemak that Wei Jie's dad said was not bad. It's actually quite nice, you know, considering I'm not a big fan of nasi lemak in the first place. =)
I felt that Huang Cheng was quite nice actually, except for the second play which was draggy. The first was okay, a bit too artsy for my liking, but I liked the last one best. =) After the play waited around with Mong Seng, Poh Wei and Wei Jie along the Singapore River, for Lay Ning to end. However, Wei Jie left before Lay Ning was out. Reached home quite late after that, but was worth it, seeing that I don't have man oppurtunities to do something for Lay Ning.
Last Saturday I had a headache, which I attribute to a packed week and too little sleep. Waited at Orchard MRT for 5TORM, which made my headache worse, because they made me wait for so long! Tsk tsk. Went to Pastamania at Scotts to eat, and we sat there for quite a long time, courtesy of me and my headache because I didn't want to move and made them sit with me too. Haha. Poor 5TORM, because they had to put up with my Fear Factor treatment of Kathy's unfinished pasta. Oops. XD After that went to Far East to take neoprints... yeah, this is the first time I actually took neoprints... quite pathetic, when you think about it. Hmm. But it was fun, despite my headache and sickly state. Weiqi gave us all friendship bands which were really pretty. =)
Yesterday was the release of the JAE posting results... which made it quite a sad day for many of us in class. Well, and me. The only good thing was that we were dismissed at 12pm, so we could slack! Yay. Went for lunch at Golden Chicken @ Coro... highest attendance from the class ever! After that we decided to go to West Coast, but after realising that not many people were going after all, we called it off. Lay Ning and I walked back to school from the bus stop we alighted from and met Huangyu and Jierong at the class bench. We started talking, chatting about stuff, all the way until 5pm. I have no idea what we really talked about because to tell the truth I was rather sleep then, maybe my brain shut off. Went home with Lay Ning after that... it occurs to me that it was one of the last times that I would be taking a bus home with her... =(
Today went to school and sat at the class bench, thinking how different it was without all the people around. It was, all in all, a really dreary day, although we ended early. At about 12+ or 1pm, Lay Ning came back from SA! Was sooo happy to see her. Maybe I'm overreacting (because I'm not used to loss), but I can't help it, okay? You know (digressing a little...), so many people are leaving me lately. Firstly it's the people who can't make it back, and then there's Dawn and Yingwan, who are leaving for the greener (and much wider) pastures of Australia...
Choir, I felt, was enjoyable today. Was about to write 'good', but decided against it because nothing was 'good', in terms of technique, sound or whatever. It was enjoyable because I wasn't tired. Oh wait, I thought of one reason why today's choir practice was good: because I actually learned something, and I think I improved. And that's GREAT. Miss Lim was doing vocal training today, and she actually praised the sops a bit. Wow. We were quite shocked. Haha. =)
Tomorrow I'll be going directly to Changi Airport after school, to send off Dawn and Yingwan... ahhhh. Will miss them so damn much. =/
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17 March, 2005
(... I wrote a lame poem I don't want to share. XD It's about falling from a ladder though, hence the subject.)
Today we had a class outing. I was hesitating before I wrote that... 'class'. Is it really a class outing? Let's see who went: Qi Han, Rachel, Poh Wei, Xiao Ni, Wei Jie, You Jin, Eng Liang, Jierong, Da En and I. That's 10 people, out of a class of 26 people. Rocks.
We went to ice skate first, and it was my first ever experience doing so, as it was for many other. To me it was quite easy to pick up, because I can rollerblade a bit, but what I found the hardest to get used to was the slippery ice. However I began to fall quite a bit because I was trying to go fast, and fall I did. What can I say? I left the place bruised and sopping wet.
After ice skating, we went to watch the movie Hitch. I didn't find it particularly impressionable, although it made for good, mindless entertainment. I think I would have enjoyed Robots more, seeing how those little animated characters seem more human than any of us. Really.
Took quite a while to decided where to go for dinner, but eventually went to S-11 in the J.East neighbourhood. The kway chap I had was not bad, actually. The only problem was that the food disappeared kind of fast, seeing that I was sharing with 3 other guys. Haha.
After dinner we went to Popular to pick up the mounting board and motivational poster thing, which we are intending to make into a sort of 'good-luck' card from the juniors to the seniors. See? We are such nice people. ^^ I volunteered to bring it home, because I live quite near J.East. See? I'm nice too. XD
I guess there wasn't much to do after that, so everyone kind of decided to leave for home. I don't blame them, seeing that some of them lived quite a bit away, like in Hougang, Lavender and Yishun, but I felt that we should have done something more together. I don't know what, but I didn't want the day to just end there. It seemed too abrupt. Then again, maybe it's just me. Maybe I got too high, having fun and all, and then when it all ended, reality just came crashing down. So I admit, one reason I don't want to go home is because the threat of homework haunts my shadow. Yes, I dislike it a whole lot. It comes with being the queen of procrastination I guess; an occupational hazard as some call it. I also find that I tend to fall asleep the moment I get home from something, whether it's school or just an outing. Is there something wrong with me, or am I just plain lazy? I tend to think it's because of the latter.
So right now, I'm sitting here, typing this, admiring the beautiful bruises that have collected on my knees. They really look quite marvellous, and it's a pity you can't see them. Hmm. Talking about random things isn't good. I have school tomorrow. Argh. I mean, choir, and that's double-argh. From 10am to 3pm. Of course there's a lunch break, but still. It's kind of hard to act enthusiastic and all that. Maybe I'm not feeling it deeply enough. Hmm. Food for thought. I shall ruminate over this while I take my long overdue bath. Yes. Catch you guys later.
Today we had a class outing. I was hesitating before I wrote that... 'class'. Is it really a class outing? Let's see who went: Qi Han, Rachel, Poh Wei, Xiao Ni, Wei Jie, You Jin, Eng Liang, Jierong, Da En and I. That's 10 people, out of a class of 26 people. Rocks.
We went to ice skate first, and it was my first ever experience doing so, as it was for many other. To me it was quite easy to pick up, because I can rollerblade a bit, but what I found the hardest to get used to was the slippery ice. However I began to fall quite a bit because I was trying to go fast, and fall I did. What can I say? I left the place bruised and sopping wet.
After ice skating, we went to watch the movie Hitch. I didn't find it particularly impressionable, although it made for good, mindless entertainment. I think I would have enjoyed Robots more, seeing how those little animated characters seem more human than any of us. Really.
Took quite a while to decided where to go for dinner, but eventually went to S-11 in the J.East neighbourhood. The kway chap I had was not bad, actually. The only problem was that the food disappeared kind of fast, seeing that I was sharing with 3 other guys. Haha.
After dinner we went to Popular to pick up the mounting board and motivational poster thing, which we are intending to make into a sort of 'good-luck' card from the juniors to the seniors. See? We are such nice people. ^^ I volunteered to bring it home, because I live quite near J.East. See? I'm nice too. XD
I guess there wasn't much to do after that, so everyone kind of decided to leave for home. I don't blame them, seeing that some of them lived quite a bit away, like in Hougang, Lavender and Yishun, but I felt that we should have done something more together. I don't know what, but I didn't want the day to just end there. It seemed too abrupt. Then again, maybe it's just me. Maybe I got too high, having fun and all, and then when it all ended, reality just came crashing down. So I admit, one reason I don't want to go home is because the threat of homework haunts my shadow. Yes, I dislike it a whole lot. It comes with being the queen of procrastination I guess; an occupational hazard as some call it. I also find that I tend to fall asleep the moment I get home from something, whether it's school or just an outing. Is there something wrong with me, or am I just plain lazy? I tend to think it's because of the latter.
So right now, I'm sitting here, typing this, admiring the beautiful bruises that have collected on my knees. They really look quite marvellous, and it's a pity you can't see them. Hmm. Talking about random things isn't good. I have school tomorrow. Argh. I mean, choir, and that's double-argh. From 10am to 3pm. Of course there's a lunch break, but still. It's kind of hard to act enthusiastic and all that. Maybe I'm not feeling it deeply enough. Hmm. Food for thought. I shall ruminate over this while I take my long overdue bath. Yes. Catch you guys later.
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15 March, 2005
I've decided that Greyprism needed a remodel rather badly. So yes, here it is. You'll also notice that I've greatly reduced the content on the domain. There are several reasons for this, which include restricted domain space, and of course, time restraints. Perhaps I'm becoming less committed to Greyprism as real life washes over me, but I'll never let it go, not in the near future, that I promise you. Greyprism has evolved over the year to become a part of me, although it's level of priority has wavered over time.
Yeah. So it's the holidays. It doesn't rock because the shadow of homework looms ahead of me and I'm not feeling particularly motivated to do anything right now. Rocks indeed.
I'm off now to tweak this layout, so I'll catch you guys later. Please leave a comment because I love them. Yay. =)
Yeah. So it's the holidays. It doesn't rock because the shadow of homework looms ahead of me and I'm not feeling particularly motivated to do anything right now. Rocks indeed.
I'm off now to tweak this layout, so I'll catch you guys later. Please leave a comment because I love them. Yay. =)
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I enjoyed it, despite everything. Despite how they all said that they wouldn't. I give it that it was boring in itself, especially if I went with a different group of people, so I have come back to the same point again, that it's the people that matters most.
Met up with Lay Ning at Boon Lay MRT, then Poh Wei at Jurong East. Went to Queenstown to meet Wei Jie, then took a bus to Queensway Shopping Centre. Walked around, then had lunch at Mac's, and met up with You Jin. After that walked around some more, then found this shop. Spent like, a LOT of time there because Wei Jie as getting ALL his stuff at one shot in that shop and he was bargaining like mad. Haha. Bought a shoe bag for myself, yay. However I was very broke after that.
After an exhausting round of shopping we went to Anchorpoint next door to stock up on snacks/food from Cold Storage, then went to Tanah Merah MRT. We didn't reach there late, but somehow *coughPEOPLEPLAYINGCARDScough* we didn't catch the shuttle bus, so we had to take taxis. Incidentally, none of the taxis we took knew the way, and we ended up going one big loop and paying exorbitant taxi fares. Boohoo. However, I must say that the route we took was very scenic -- passed by Changi Airport and saw jets take off at close range. It rocked.
Anyway upon reaching the chalet we dumped our stuff and went to amuse ourselves... ate dinner, played a bit of badminton, that kind of thing. So yeah, it began in a boring fashion. Then they had their games session involving everyone who came, and we played some lame games that didn't amuse me very much. After the games, our class decided to go bowling, so off they went. However I was broke and wasn't in the mood for bowling. Luckily Eng Liang thought the same, and Poh Wei was as broke as I was (maybe even moreso, seeing that I got back $15 today), so we went to play badminton again! in the night.
I think I spent more time looking at the stars than playing badminton. Our games were kind of lame anyway because it was dark and we couldn't see very well, plus there was a wind, and we weren't very good players. So we ended up just serving, picking, serving and picking again. Haha. After a while we got bored and joined the bowling people who were finishing up. At that point of time, the people who weren't staying over had to leave to catch the last shuttle bus, so we all went back to the chalet to bid people goodbye.
After that Wei Jie, Lay Ning, You Jin, Poh Wei and I were left, and we decided to walk out to the beach. So we walked and sat on the breakwater and talked and listened to the sound of the waves and looked at the stars... at about 11 or 12 we went back to the resort and started playing that Blind Mice game on the playgrounds... haha. Second childhood. It was damn fun and damn tiring and I'm still aching from it. However I always got caught very easily because I can't move around quietly. =( Oh well. Haha.
At about 3am Kai Zhi came out and talked to us for a bit, then made us go back inside the chalet because they wanted to lock up. We took turns to bathe, and played on a senior's PS2. I tell you, Need for Speed 2 Underground (or whatever it's called) rocks. Haha. Even though I totally suck at it, it's damn fun. Stayed up until 5am to play okay, so what do you think? Drag was damn fun. Hmm, didn't sleep much, dozed till 5.30am, woke up, then slept again until 6am, then decided that I couldn't fall asleep anymore. There wasn't place for me to sleep anyway, so I was like, sleeping at the stairwell... but I tell you it's a MUCH MUCH better place than where the others were sleeping because downstairs was SO COLD and upstairs was much better. Yay.
Woke up, breakfasted on instant noodles with everyone, and it was, to me, one of the more memorable things we did. Haha. It was quite funny, because I was figuring out how to boil water (so I don't know how, okay?), and then there was the case of the missing fork (which turned out to be inside one of the bowls and we forgot to take it out), as well as how we missed pouring water into one bowl altogher. That's what happens when you make people who didn't sleep prepare breakfast.
Caught a cab to school with Wei Jie after like a million tries. We were trying not to fall asleep because we knew that we'd be 10 times more tired when we reached school. Amazingly, I wasn't late for choir.
Choir was a tiring affair for me, because I was so terribly tired. Somehow, I pulled through. However there's still choir tomorrow. Arghness.
Hmm, I'm tired. It's 9.30pm, and I need to bathe and sleep. SLEEEEEP.
Met up with Lay Ning at Boon Lay MRT, then Poh Wei at Jurong East. Went to Queenstown to meet Wei Jie, then took a bus to Queensway Shopping Centre. Walked around, then had lunch at Mac's, and met up with You Jin. After that walked around some more, then found this shop. Spent like, a LOT of time there because Wei Jie as getting ALL his stuff at one shot in that shop and he was bargaining like mad. Haha. Bought a shoe bag for myself, yay. However I was very broke after that.
After an exhausting round of shopping we went to Anchorpoint next door to stock up on snacks/food from Cold Storage, then went to Tanah Merah MRT. We didn't reach there late, but somehow *coughPEOPLEPLAYINGCARDScough* we didn't catch the shuttle bus, so we had to take taxis. Incidentally, none of the taxis we took knew the way, and we ended up going one big loop and paying exorbitant taxi fares. Boohoo. However, I must say that the route we took was very scenic -- passed by Changi Airport and saw jets take off at close range. It rocked.
Anyway upon reaching the chalet we dumped our stuff and went to amuse ourselves... ate dinner, played a bit of badminton, that kind of thing. So yeah, it began in a boring fashion. Then they had their games session involving everyone who came, and we played some lame games that didn't amuse me very much. After the games, our class decided to go bowling, so off they went. However I was broke and wasn't in the mood for bowling. Luckily Eng Liang thought the same, and Poh Wei was as broke as I was (maybe even moreso, seeing that I got back $15 today), so we went to play badminton again! in the night.
I think I spent more time looking at the stars than playing badminton. Our games were kind of lame anyway because it was dark and we couldn't see very well, plus there was a wind, and we weren't very good players. So we ended up just serving, picking, serving and picking again. Haha. After a while we got bored and joined the bowling people who were finishing up. At that point of time, the people who weren't staying over had to leave to catch the last shuttle bus, so we all went back to the chalet to bid people goodbye.
After that Wei Jie, Lay Ning, You Jin, Poh Wei and I were left, and we decided to walk out to the beach. So we walked and sat on the breakwater and talked and listened to the sound of the waves and looked at the stars... at about 11 or 12 we went back to the resort and started playing that Blind Mice game on the playgrounds... haha. Second childhood. It was damn fun and damn tiring and I'm still aching from it. However I always got caught very easily because I can't move around quietly. =( Oh well. Haha.
At about 3am Kai Zhi came out and talked to us for a bit, then made us go back inside the chalet because they wanted to lock up. We took turns to bathe, and played on a senior's PS2. I tell you, Need for Speed 2 Underground (or whatever it's called) rocks. Haha. Even though I totally suck at it, it's damn fun. Stayed up until 5am to play okay, so what do you think? Drag was damn fun. Hmm, didn't sleep much, dozed till 5.30am, woke up, then slept again until 6am, then decided that I couldn't fall asleep anymore. There wasn't place for me to sleep anyway, so I was like, sleeping at the stairwell... but I tell you it's a MUCH MUCH better place than where the others were sleeping because downstairs was SO COLD and upstairs was much better. Yay.
Woke up, breakfasted on instant noodles with everyone, and it was, to me, one of the more memorable things we did. Haha. It was quite funny, because I was figuring out how to boil water (so I don't know how, okay?), and then there was the case of the missing fork (which turned out to be inside one of the bowls and we forgot to take it out), as well as how we missed pouring water into one bowl altogher. That's what happens when you make people who didn't sleep prepare breakfast.
Caught a cab to school with Wei Jie after like a million tries. We were trying not to fall asleep because we knew that we'd be 10 times more tired when we reached school. Amazingly, I wasn't late for choir.
Choir was a tiring affair for me, because I was so terribly tired. Somehow, I pulled through. However there's still choir tomorrow. Arghness.
Hmm, I'm tired. It's 9.30pm, and I need to bathe and sleep. SLEEEEEP.
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14 March, 2005
Okay, I owe everyone a post, seeing that today is the first day of the March holidays, and that I haven't posted in aeons.
Went for the Capriccio band concert today. =) It was fun because of the people who went. I enjoy hanging around with them. Yay. Before that met Rachel, Poh Wei and Wei Jie at the Swensen's in Plaza Singapura for dinner. This caused us to arrive late for the concert. Oh well. We were lucky to find 4 seats that were together. They initially weren't, but we eventually ended up together anyway. Yay.
After the concert we went to KAP for supper (dinner for Lay Ning). Fun. We sat and talked and ruminated about Fac Night.
You know, we eventually decided to go for Fac Night, and I'm even staying over. Yay. Fun fun. It's only fun because of the certain people who are going. And that's the truth.
Went for the Capriccio band concert today. =) It was fun because of the people who went. I enjoy hanging around with them. Yay. Before that met Rachel, Poh Wei and Wei Jie at the Swensen's in Plaza Singapura for dinner. This caused us to arrive late for the concert. Oh well. We were lucky to find 4 seats that were together. They initially weren't, but we eventually ended up together anyway. Yay.
After the concert we went to KAP for supper (dinner for Lay Ning). Fun. We sat and talked and ruminated about Fac Night.
You know, we eventually decided to go for Fac Night, and I'm even staying over. Yay. Fun fun. It's only fun because of the certain people who are going. And that's the truth.
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08 March, 2005
I'm looking forward to Friday. =) Don't ask me why because I won't say so, not even to myself. I'm in denial because I know it can't happen, but I wish it would. I haven't said it, not out loud, at least, but I've already repeated it a dozen times in my head. I don't know. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that it will destroy me. This is the worst kind. I knew I would receive it. It's a happy and sad thing.
Wake Me Up When September Ends
- American Idiot, Green Day
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memories rest
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memories rest
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake Me Up When September Ends
- American Idiot, Green Day
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memories rest
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memories rest
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
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05 March, 2005
Haven't blogged for almost a week, apologies. I won't do a recap of the week because right now I'm kind of tired and I don't remember. Hmm, played badminton after school on Wednesday, squash on Thursday, and had a 34 outing today. Yup. Today was a good day, and also a bad one too.
Choir today sucked to high hell. I don't know what to say, and I wouldn't say anything about it anyway, because I don't think it'd be appropriate. It sucked because of internal (i.e. myself, us J1s, etc.) reasons, and not because of anything else. *sigh* All I can say, is that it was a really terrifically demoralising session. We ended really late, and everyone's emotions were running astray. Felt kind of guilty to the 34 people 'cos they had to wait for me. Terribly sorry to everyone. It was 7.45pm when I finally went to meet them, I think.
Anyway, went to Pastamania at Cineleisure (again!) to have dinner. Everyone was starving like mad, because for most of us, lunch was an event that figured rather early in our timetables (read: 11.40am), and haven't eaten since. After eating, we walked around a bit. When we were at Wisma, about to go to Orchard MRT, Wei Jie was buying some bread at BreadTalk. But the cashier took so long to serve him that the security guard closed the entrance to the MRT station! Everyone was quite pissed, haha, seeing that we had to walk aboveground and one whole big round just to get to the damn MRT station.
The 34 outing didn't sound like much, but I enjoyed myself immensely. I swear, it's the people that make Hwa Chong worth staying on. For a lot of us, what is tying us down is the class, and most importantly, the people in it. If I had to leave the class, I'd most certainly not mind going to another JC altogether. It's true though, that the class is obviously splintered, and cliques are beginning to form. This is inevitable, but not a good sign. Perhaps if we handle it right, it'd be advantageous to the class, but these things are delicate and it's easy to go wrong. Already I am beginning to think that we (Jierong, Da En, Poh Wei, You Jin, Rachel, Wei Jie, Lay Ning and I, plus a few more occasional people like Eng Liang and Qi Han) are beginning to form a little 'clique' ourselves. I can try to defend ourselves by saying that we are the only locals who bother about the class at all, but isn't that reiterating the divide between locals and PRCs? At the same time, I'm wondering: are we making ourselves too inaccessible to the rest of the class? Are we isolating ourselves by building this image of a picture-perfect relationship between ourselves? Is our apparent 'exclusiveness' the reason why sometimes it seems that other people find it hard to approach us? I don't know how true my statements are, or what others feel, and so I don't dare to post this on the class blog. I guess I'll keep my musings to myself.
Talking about the class blog, I find myself hesitating a lot of the time before I actually post something up on it. I fear what others think of what I write. Sometimes I think I read too much into things. Hmm.
Okay, I really lost my stamina while thinking about the situation in our class right now. I guess I'll call it a day (night). Haha.
Choir today sucked to high hell. I don't know what to say, and I wouldn't say anything about it anyway, because I don't think it'd be appropriate. It sucked because of internal (i.e. myself, us J1s, etc.) reasons, and not because of anything else. *sigh* All I can say, is that it was a really terrifically demoralising session. We ended really late, and everyone's emotions were running astray. Felt kind of guilty to the 34 people 'cos they had to wait for me. Terribly sorry to everyone. It was 7.45pm when I finally went to meet them, I think.
Anyway, went to Pastamania at Cineleisure (again!) to have dinner. Everyone was starving like mad, because for most of us, lunch was an event that figured rather early in our timetables (read: 11.40am), and haven't eaten since. After eating, we walked around a bit. When we were at Wisma, about to go to Orchard MRT, Wei Jie was buying some bread at BreadTalk. But the cashier took so long to serve him that the security guard closed the entrance to the MRT station! Everyone was quite pissed, haha, seeing that we had to walk aboveground and one whole big round just to get to the damn MRT station.
The 34 outing didn't sound like much, but I enjoyed myself immensely. I swear, it's the people that make Hwa Chong worth staying on. For a lot of us, what is tying us down is the class, and most importantly, the people in it. If I had to leave the class, I'd most certainly not mind going to another JC altogether. It's true though, that the class is obviously splintered, and cliques are beginning to form. This is inevitable, but not a good sign. Perhaps if we handle it right, it'd be advantageous to the class, but these things are delicate and it's easy to go wrong. Already I am beginning to think that we (Jierong, Da En, Poh Wei, You Jin, Rachel, Wei Jie, Lay Ning and I, plus a few more occasional people like Eng Liang and Qi Han) are beginning to form a little 'clique' ourselves. I can try to defend ourselves by saying that we are the only locals who bother about the class at all, but isn't that reiterating the divide between locals and PRCs? At the same time, I'm wondering: are we making ourselves too inaccessible to the rest of the class? Are we isolating ourselves by building this image of a picture-perfect relationship between ourselves? Is our apparent 'exclusiveness' the reason why sometimes it seems that other people find it hard to approach us? I don't know how true my statements are, or what others feel, and so I don't dare to post this on the class blog. I guess I'll keep my musings to myself.
Talking about the class blog, I find myself hesitating a lot of the time before I actually post something up on it. I fear what others think of what I write. Sometimes I think I read too much into things. Hmm.
Okay, I really lost my stamina while thinking about the situation in our class right now. I guess I'll call it a day (night). Haha.
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