28 February, 2005
7 points. A label, an achievement, whatever you want to call it. It's what I've got. Somehow reality hasn't really sunk in yet, considering everything. I can't believe it. It's a good kind of disbelief.
Anyway today went by in a daze. Went to school in the morning and there were like, really few people at the class bench. Chem tutorial was slack, with Esther Tan talking to us and stuff, although we (sadly) did complete the tutorial. Damn. F Maths lecture was worse, especially because Char Kway Teow was our lecturer today... and everyone was cajoling her to release us early. We were doing projections of points and stuff and all that shit I don't understand. Oh dear. I'd better start understanding all of it right now. Yeah, so after F Maths I went to the class bench to slack, sat around and fretted with everyone. Talked to some seniors, didn't feel better at all.
Went back to St Nick's and caught up with everyone. I tell you St Nick's has got to be the most long-winded school ever. To think that I 'got' my results even before they passed out the result slips... shows how slow they are! Valen's sister was looking at the board of names and she saw mine with 8 As... so yeah. I knew my results. Er yes, I got 8 As. Yes, I'm so sorry I had to write that. I know how hard it is to read about other people's accolades because you'll start feeling really shitty yourself, but I'm selfish and I just had to write it down. Ahh.
Hmm, just found out from Timothy that Qi Han and Hua Ming both can't stay 'cos they failed English... I'm sad, now. =( Qi Han is a really fun person with lots of energy... Hua Ming is just like, so cuuute and totally weird. And to be frank, Qi Han is one of the most enthusiastic PRCs in our class... without him to pull the other PRCs along, I guess a lot of things won't be the same any more.
Also, Lay Ning might not be able to stay if her appeal is not successful. I think the best thing I can expect is that she goes to the Arts stream instead. God, all these people leaving. It's almost as painful as if I'm leaving them myself...
Argh. This first three months thing is a double-edged sword. I hate it and love it.
Anyway today went by in a daze. Went to school in the morning and there were like, really few people at the class bench. Chem tutorial was slack, with Esther Tan talking to us and stuff, although we (sadly) did complete the tutorial. Damn. F Maths lecture was worse, especially because Char Kway Teow was our lecturer today... and everyone was cajoling her to release us early. We were doing projections of points and stuff and all that shit I don't understand. Oh dear. I'd better start understanding all of it right now. Yeah, so after F Maths I went to the class bench to slack, sat around and fretted with everyone. Talked to some seniors, didn't feel better at all.
Went back to St Nick's and caught up with everyone. I tell you St Nick's has got to be the most long-winded school ever. To think that I 'got' my results even before they passed out the result slips... shows how slow they are! Valen's sister was looking at the board of names and she saw mine with 8 As... so yeah. I knew my results. Er yes, I got 8 As. Yes, I'm so sorry I had to write that. I know how hard it is to read about other people's accolades because you'll start feeling really shitty yourself, but I'm selfish and I just had to write it down. Ahh.
Hmm, just found out from Timothy that Qi Han and Hua Ming both can't stay 'cos they failed English... I'm sad, now. =( Qi Han is a really fun person with lots of energy... Hua Ming is just like, so cuuute and totally weird. And to be frank, Qi Han is one of the most enthusiastic PRCs in our class... without him to pull the other PRCs along, I guess a lot of things won't be the same any more.
Also, Lay Ning might not be able to stay if her appeal is not successful. I think the best thing I can expect is that she goes to the Arts stream instead. God, all these people leaving. It's almost as painful as if I'm leaving them myself...
Argh. This first three months thing is a double-edged sword. I hate it and love it.
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Hmm, there are so many things to be stored away in this little folder of mine labelled 'astonishing facts', things that I've found out about certain events or people that shock me or surprise me. I guess tomorrow will contain just one more event to file neatly away, to be possibly buried under mental dust bunnies of lost memory.
I'm feeling quite lost now, perhaps only because I'm starting to realise my place in the world, and just how damn big it is. And possibly how very small and ignorant I am too. I'm certain I'm not the only one feeling this way, but it sure feels like it, especially when I can't discuss my fear realistically with my friends. Maybe it's because I'm not articulate with words -- I think this constitutes 90% of the problem, really -- because I tend to go off on tangents that make me seem whiny and insecure (both of which I admittedly am but try not to be), or maybe it's because everyone's feeling so tensed up about the subject and so full of apprehension themselves that they've got no more space to share the burden with me. Of course I shouldn't be selfish to expect others to sacrifice a part of themselves for me, but what harm does it do to hope? Frankly, I can't say I'm prepared to do the same for a friend. It's not that I'm unwilling, but because I don't think I'm able to offer anything to them in return. I don't think I'm prepared to help them lift their burdens, because I don't know how. I've never been the type who knows what to say during a crisis; usually what come out of my mouth is something wrong. I've once said that I never regret anything that I've done so far with my life, and that's largely true, but sometimes I do regret little things that I've said or little things that I've done, like taking a step ahead a little too early, or attempting to wave at an acquaintance who doesn't acknowledge my presence... that kind of thing.
Okay, I think this is enough rambling. Tomorrow's the day, 2pm. I know my limits, I know my abilities. I'm going there with an open mind, and I know I'll be able to take a blow, whether one will be dealt or not. Wish me luck, if you're reading this. I think I'll need it. And here's my good luck to all my friends of 4D04, as well as 05S34... may you guys finally reap the fruits of your labour. =)
I'm feeling quite lost now, perhaps only because I'm starting to realise my place in the world, and just how damn big it is. And possibly how very small and ignorant I am too. I'm certain I'm not the only one feeling this way, but it sure feels like it, especially when I can't discuss my fear realistically with my friends. Maybe it's because I'm not articulate with words -- I think this constitutes 90% of the problem, really -- because I tend to go off on tangents that make me seem whiny and insecure (both of which I admittedly am but try not to be), or maybe it's because everyone's feeling so tensed up about the subject and so full of apprehension themselves that they've got no more space to share the burden with me. Of course I shouldn't be selfish to expect others to sacrifice a part of themselves for me, but what harm does it do to hope? Frankly, I can't say I'm prepared to do the same for a friend. It's not that I'm unwilling, but because I don't think I'm able to offer anything to them in return. I don't think I'm prepared to help them lift their burdens, because I don't know how. I've never been the type who knows what to say during a crisis; usually what come out of my mouth is something wrong. I've once said that I never regret anything that I've done so far with my life, and that's largely true, but sometimes I do regret little things that I've said or little things that I've done, like taking a step ahead a little too early, or attempting to wave at an acquaintance who doesn't acknowledge my presence... that kind of thing.
Okay, I think this is enough rambling. Tomorrow's the day, 2pm. I know my limits, I know my abilities. I'm going there with an open mind, and I know I'll be able to take a blow, whether one will be dealt or not. Wish me luck, if you're reading this. I think I'll need it. And here's my good luck to all my friends of 4D04, as well as 05S34... may you guys finally reap the fruits of your labour. =)
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20 February, 2005
Hmm, taking a break from work. Been working since, what, 12pm?? Ugh. I take really long to do things, okay? Right now I've only completed my Chinese homework. Which is like -.-;; I'm stuck on Chem redox. Chem redox SUCKS. I don't know how to balance the fucking half-equations, okay? I want to just leave it and go on to the next thing (which is trigonometry, WHICH I am also stuck on), but I'm afraid Esther Tan will kill me if she finds out that I did SO LITTLE of the freaking thing. But there's no one to help me with Q3 (which is like, the first practice question) and I'm hopelessly stuck. So I decided to take a break and come online. But I have this horrible gut feeling in my stomach that no matter how hard I try it won't change anything.
Okay. That paragraph up there? It was just for me to whine about. I shall go back to my little hidey hole and try to persuade myself that I am a Chemistry/Maths genius.
Okay. That paragraph up there? It was just for me to whine about. I shall go back to my little hidey hole and try to persuade myself that I am a Chemistry/Maths genius.
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19 February, 2005
Apologies for not posting for so long, have been busy with Dramafeste. Anyway, the past three days have been a blur. Been ending lessons at 2pm for rehearsals before the play. Although Artemis didn't win anything in the end, I guess we entertained the audience, and also enjoyed being part of it. That's the most important thing.
The Artemis Dramafeste people are the best bunch ever, what with our capteh commentaries and karaoke in LT1, plus being quick scene-changers and rowdy 'classmates'. Haha. I've had to sacrifice a lot of time for it, although it is something I will never regret joining. Right now I have to do like, 4 science practicals next week, 2 of which will be TESTS. I'm so going to fail. ><
Anyway today went to school for a choir workshop! Xin Min, Anderson, Nanyang, Fairfield, Ngee Ann Secondary Schools were there, as well as National JC and ourselves. It was quite okay, except that we were terribly unprepared. Seriously, I can't memorise the songs and do the actions yet. Oh well, I had a bit of fun singing again and performing on stage (even if it was the leaky LT3 stage with horrible acoustics).
Er yeah. I'm not in a writing mood right now. Just came to post because I haven't been online for so long. Next week will be a very trying week, both emotionally and physically. Firstly I have quite some lessons to make up for. Next, cross country is next week, and I'm in competitive. I guess I'll be training every day. Ugh. I hate running. And lastly... the O level results are coming out next week. We don't know when and that's what makes it scarier. These first three months in Hwa Chong have been the greatest of my life. I don't want to lose anyone, but I'm sure I will. I'm hoping that if I stay, my friends won't leave. But if I leave, then I can only give them my best wishes in their future endeavours.
The Artemis Dramafeste people are the best bunch ever, what with our capteh commentaries and karaoke in LT1, plus being quick scene-changers and rowdy 'classmates'. Haha. I've had to sacrifice a lot of time for it, although it is something I will never regret joining. Right now I have to do like, 4 science practicals next week, 2 of which will be TESTS. I'm so going to fail. ><
Anyway today went to school for a choir workshop! Xin Min, Anderson, Nanyang, Fairfield, Ngee Ann Secondary Schools were there, as well as National JC and ourselves. It was quite okay, except that we were terribly unprepared. Seriously, I can't memorise the songs and do the actions yet. Oh well, I had a bit of fun singing again and performing on stage (even if it was the leaky LT3 stage with horrible acoustics).
Er yeah. I'm not in a writing mood right now. Just came to post because I haven't been online for so long. Next week will be a very trying week, both emotionally and physically. Firstly I have quite some lessons to make up for. Next, cross country is next week, and I'm in competitive. I guess I'll be training every day. Ugh. I hate running. And lastly... the O level results are coming out next week. We don't know when and that's what makes it scarier. These first three months in Hwa Chong have been the greatest of my life. I don't want to lose anyone, but I'm sure I will. I'm hoping that if I stay, my friends won't leave. But if I leave, then I can only give them my best wishes in their future endeavours.
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15 February, 2005
Made some new friends today, although it isn't the first time that I've actually seen them. For your information, I'm talking about the Artemis people involved in Dramafeste, whom I just started to speak to and learn names. I feel quite happy that I've made a couple more friends -- isn't this what Dramafeste is all about? =) Well it was quite inevitable that we'd get to know each other eventually, because rehearsals get supremely boring at times and we 'classmates' just slack in the wings and stare at the floor/ceiling/etc. Haha. They're quite a fun bunch, but seriously I think it's because most of them are guys. Oh wait, now that I think about it, all of the 'classmates' are guys, except me and another girl (who wasn't present today anyway). Hmm.
Oh yeah, finally gave my V-Day present to Kai Zhi. Yay! Almost lugged it around school the whole day though, boo. Haha.
After Dramafeste (for us slacker extra people), Wei Jie, Eng Liang and I went to run. Bah, but I didn't run a lot. Just one big round, rest, then another big round. So two big rounds cumulative. >< That's not very good, but I had no willpower to carry on. I am so weak. *sigh*
You know, right now the level of enthusiasm in our class seems to have died down. I think it's partly because we've all got off from our high, and also because we're feeling the pressure from our committments and work. Not to mention the horrible date looming about two weeks away... it's been casting a pall on our spirits. You can see it in everyone's eyes and hear it in everyone's tone, and it's quite sad to watch some people go a little down. Since no one from my class is reading this blog (I hope... but if you are, please keep everything you read to yourself...), I guess there isn't any harm mentioning names. One person quite a few of us are concerned about is Da En. Sometimes he acts fine, but you can see that he feels uncomfortable with everyone around him doing much better than he is. The fact that he thinks that he is unable to cope has resulted in him having a very low self-esteem. I know I shouldn't poke my nose into matters that are not my business. Really. But there's something I've said before that I'll say again, and that it's so hard to stand by and watch a friend go through something alone. Isn't it instinctive to want to help? But sometimes help is not appreciated. Not that I think that I'm qualified to offer it at all... truly I think he's better off without my help because I'm horrible at people-matters and I won't know the right words to say or the right things to do and I'll probably end up making things much worse. Ho hum.
Blah, what I've just said doesn't seem to make sense. Thoughts are hard to put down in words. Tomorrow will be such a blah day. I have to get some shit leave form to excuse my bloody self from choir. I hate doing these things, but it's all part of life, isn't it? All this useless admin stuff that we all know is mandatory yet we all feel is extraneous. And why do I have to go through all this trouble of tracking down people's sorry behinds? All in the good name of Dramafeste. Argh. I love it and hate it. Actually I don't think I have much to say about the topic anyway, because I'm not majorly involved in it. Yet it seems like I am, considering the lessons I'm missing just because of it. BLAH.
Oh yeah, finally gave my V-Day present to Kai Zhi. Yay! Almost lugged it around school the whole day though, boo. Haha.
After Dramafeste (for us slacker extra people), Wei Jie, Eng Liang and I went to run. Bah, but I didn't run a lot. Just one big round, rest, then another big round. So two big rounds cumulative. >< That's not very good, but I had no willpower to carry on. I am so weak. *sigh*
You know, right now the level of enthusiasm in our class seems to have died down. I think it's partly because we've all got off from our high, and also because we're feeling the pressure from our committments and work. Not to mention the horrible date looming about two weeks away... it's been casting a pall on our spirits. You can see it in everyone's eyes and hear it in everyone's tone, and it's quite sad to watch some people go a little down. Since no one from my class is reading this blog (I hope... but if you are, please keep everything you read to yourself...), I guess there isn't any harm mentioning names. One person quite a few of us are concerned about is Da En. Sometimes he acts fine, but you can see that he feels uncomfortable with everyone around him doing much better than he is. The fact that he thinks that he is unable to cope has resulted in him having a very low self-esteem. I know I shouldn't poke my nose into matters that are not my business. Really. But there's something I've said before that I'll say again, and that it's so hard to stand by and watch a friend go through something alone. Isn't it instinctive to want to help? But sometimes help is not appreciated. Not that I think that I'm qualified to offer it at all... truly I think he's better off without my help because I'm horrible at people-matters and I won't know the right words to say or the right things to do and I'll probably end up making things much worse. Ho hum.
Blah, what I've just said doesn't seem to make sense. Thoughts are hard to put down in words. Tomorrow will be such a blah day. I have to get some shit leave form to excuse my bloody self from choir. I hate doing these things, but it's all part of life, isn't it? All this useless admin stuff that we all know is mandatory yet we all feel is extraneous. And why do I have to go through all this trouble of tracking down people's sorry behinds? All in the good name of Dramafeste. Argh. I love it and hate it. Actually I don't think I have much to say about the topic anyway, because I'm not majorly involved in it. Yet it seems like I am, considering the lessons I'm missing just because of it. BLAH.
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14 February, 2005
I'm sorry I couldn't post yesterday because there simply wasn't any time. So here I shall began to embark again on another recount, which might or might not be boring to you, depending on whether you care. =)
Woke up quite early on Sunday, perhaps the earliest in a long time, at 7.30am. Don't know why either, I guess I'm just getting used to getting up early. Took my bike around for a short 10 min spin around the neighbourhood, then slacked around until 10.00am came so that I could leave for school. Reached there just in time and met the choir people. Found out that for our 'CIP', we were going to be singing 2 CNY songs for some Hwa Chong alumni gathering thing. The whole thing lasted for about an hour only, so I had like, a lot of free time after that.
If you read my previous post, I had decided to go shopping for V-Day gifts. I was supposed to meet You Jin, but apparently 11.30am is a bit too early, so I walked around Orchard with some of my choir seniors as well as Shao Ning. I hope I spelled her name right. ^^ Yup, found out that Song Ern lives in Floravale?? Like, that's so near my house! Haha. Actually most of the seniors are very nice people, although they're a bit loud sometimes, especially Yuru whose laughter is like a happy explosion. Went to Lucky Plaza with Shao Ning to pick up some tea light holders that she needed for her V-Day presents, then walked around Takashimaya looking for fabric paint or some sort of paint. Finally found some at Kinokuniya. After that we planned to meet our seniors for lunch and this started us on a tiring wait, until we found out that our seniors were at Wisma Atria's Topshop. -.-; Even when we went to meet them, we didn't end up eating lunch with them anyway because they wanted to shop while we had a time limit to meet, so we ate lunch by ourselves. Haha. What a waste of time.
Met You Jin at City Hall at about 2.30pm. I think. I wasn't looking at the time. So we mooched around the whole stretch of Citylink Mall and the first floor of Suntec City looking for gifts. I wouldn't say I had a lot of fun, because we were sort of mildly distressed with what to buy. Haha. After a lot of walking and some money-spending, we met up with Lay Ning and Jierong to shop some more. Er, we also met Rachel and Wei Jie while shopping. Yup. We people come early. Haha.
In the end I bought a mini football for my mortal Bosen, a box of Merci chocolates for my angel (who I found out is Kai Zhi... hmm, why am I not surprised?), a giant tube of Skittles for my choir angel and a really cool holographic notebook of a stick man walking for my choir mortal, Huiling. Yay.
At about 4.30 or 5pm, we met up with You Cheng and several latecomers *cough* (no lah, just kidding) and went to NYDC at Suntec, where most people already were. The food there is not bad, although a bit expensive, though that's not my concern because it was STJ (Senior Treat Junior)!! Haha. Got to chat to seniors whom I rarely see like Say Kai and Rosemary, who are very very nice people. Yay. =) After we ate dinner, we ordered 3 mudpies, which we shared among about 8 people. The funniest thing was, we nicknamed each of them 'F Maths', 'Fac Dance' and 'Po po' (which is the nickname of our F Maths tutor/lecturer). And imagine 8 people attacking one plate of food... it's quite sad, really. XD We even did in a lo hei fashion: the last bite would be accompanied with wishes like "may Po po become taller than the OHP!" or "let next year's Fac Dance be more funky!" Somehow it evolved into this big toasting session with everyone with a post (read: more than half the class) being toasted to.
Overall the STJ was fun lah. =) Wouldn't have missed it for my life.
Today however, I was damn tired cos I reached home damn late and had to prepare the V-Day gifts summore. Plus, Bosen's football thing was really really hard to pump. I think it's leaking air for some reason. Argh. Nevermind, it's the thought that counts. He gave me a bear Ty beanie baby okay! So sweet. ^^ I didn't receive any other presents, however. Poor me. Haha. Actually our class was the most sian. You just take a look around the class benches and you see people carrying like, tons of things, and only our class was the most sad case with very few items and gifts. Of course there was a notable exception *coughJIERONGcough* who got like, so many admirers. Haha. We were all debating who will be our next da4 sao3 at this rate...
Actually today was supposed to be a happy day, but remember the bit I said about our class being sian... yeah, everyone was feeling quite depressed because of a certain date about two weeks away and the release of certain results... we all badly want to stay, but we're not sure if we can or not. I won't go into this topic, because it's seriously a pessimistic one that I don't want to have to go over again. Oh well.
Hrmm, today's post is weird and shall end abruptly here because I'm going to post over at my class blog then go to sleep. Yay.
Woke up quite early on Sunday, perhaps the earliest in a long time, at 7.30am. Don't know why either, I guess I'm just getting used to getting up early. Took my bike around for a short 10 min spin around the neighbourhood, then slacked around until 10.00am came so that I could leave for school. Reached there just in time and met the choir people. Found out that for our 'CIP', we were going to be singing 2 CNY songs for some Hwa Chong alumni gathering thing. The whole thing lasted for about an hour only, so I had like, a lot of free time after that.
If you read my previous post, I had decided to go shopping for V-Day gifts. I was supposed to meet You Jin, but apparently 11.30am is a bit too early, so I walked around Orchard with some of my choir seniors as well as Shao Ning. I hope I spelled her name right. ^^ Yup, found out that Song Ern lives in Floravale?? Like, that's so near my house! Haha. Actually most of the seniors are very nice people, although they're a bit loud sometimes, especially Yuru whose laughter is like a happy explosion. Went to Lucky Plaza with Shao Ning to pick up some tea light holders that she needed for her V-Day presents, then walked around Takashimaya looking for fabric paint or some sort of paint. Finally found some at Kinokuniya. After that we planned to meet our seniors for lunch and this started us on a tiring wait, until we found out that our seniors were at Wisma Atria's Topshop. -.-; Even when we went to meet them, we didn't end up eating lunch with them anyway because they wanted to shop while we had a time limit to meet, so we ate lunch by ourselves. Haha. What a waste of time.
Met You Jin at City Hall at about 2.30pm. I think. I wasn't looking at the time. So we mooched around the whole stretch of Citylink Mall and the first floor of Suntec City looking for gifts. I wouldn't say I had a lot of fun, because we were sort of mildly distressed with what to buy. Haha. After a lot of walking and some money-spending, we met up with Lay Ning and Jierong to shop some more. Er, we also met Rachel and Wei Jie while shopping. Yup. We people come early. Haha.
In the end I bought a mini football for my mortal Bosen, a box of Merci chocolates for my angel (who I found out is Kai Zhi... hmm, why am I not surprised?), a giant tube of Skittles for my choir angel and a really cool holographic notebook of a stick man walking for my choir mortal, Huiling. Yay.
At about 4.30 or 5pm, we met up with You Cheng and several latecomers *cough* (no lah, just kidding) and went to NYDC at Suntec, where most people already were. The food there is not bad, although a bit expensive, though that's not my concern because it was STJ (Senior Treat Junior)!! Haha. Got to chat to seniors whom I rarely see like Say Kai and Rosemary, who are very very nice people. Yay. =) After we ate dinner, we ordered 3 mudpies, which we shared among about 8 people. The funniest thing was, we nicknamed each of them 'F Maths', 'Fac Dance' and 'Po po' (which is the nickname of our F Maths tutor/lecturer). And imagine 8 people attacking one plate of food... it's quite sad, really. XD We even did in a lo hei fashion: the last bite would be accompanied with wishes like "may Po po become taller than the OHP!" or "let next year's Fac Dance be more funky!" Somehow it evolved into this big toasting session with everyone with a post (read: more than half the class) being toasted to.
Overall the STJ was fun lah. =) Wouldn't have missed it for my life.
Today however, I was damn tired cos I reached home damn late and had to prepare the V-Day gifts summore. Plus, Bosen's football thing was really really hard to pump. I think it's leaking air for some reason. Argh. Nevermind, it's the thought that counts. He gave me a bear Ty beanie baby okay! So sweet. ^^ I didn't receive any other presents, however. Poor me. Haha. Actually our class was the most sian. You just take a look around the class benches and you see people carrying like, tons of things, and only our class was the most sad case with very few items and gifts. Of course there was a notable exception *coughJIERONGcough* who got like, so many admirers. Haha. We were all debating who will be our next da4 sao3 at this rate...
Actually today was supposed to be a happy day, but remember the bit I said about our class being sian... yeah, everyone was feeling quite depressed because of a certain date about two weeks away and the release of certain results... we all badly want to stay, but we're not sure if we can or not. I won't go into this topic, because it's seriously a pessimistic one that I don't want to have to go over again. Oh well.
Hrmm, today's post is weird and shall end abruptly here because I'm going to post over at my class blog then go to sleep. Yay.
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12 February, 2005
I did wake up at 2pm in the end. T_T Oh well. Slept for like 10 hours? Haha. But that's partly my fault because I only went to sleep at 2am, talking to Poh Wei again. LOL. Now my arms feel like they're on fire because they hurt so much. I keep on saying I don't burn, but I think that's only half true, because I feel like my skin is burning up. T_T I think the right thing to say would be that I do not PEEL. Yes, I don't. Not easily, anyway. Bwahaha.
Actually today was quite boring. Well, boring in a good way. I should have gone out biking, but I didn't. Anyway I was too tired and my muscles ache. Oh yeah, my right arm feels immensely tired and I can't lift it up properly. Meh. Poor me.
By the way, the whole of today felt like a Sunday! I kept on thinking that there's school tomorrow. Argh, this Chinese New Year holiday is messing with my mind -- not that I mind the holidays at all, of course. You know, I do in fact need to go to school tomorrow, for choir CIP. I hope doesn't end too late tomorrow cos I intend to go shopping for valentine's day gifts for my angel/mortal before meeting the rest of the class for STJ. YAY, STJ rocks. Heehee. ^^ We're supposedly going to NYDC at Suntec for it. Can't wait, free dinner. And I get to see my beloved S34 (04 and 05).
I'm half looking forward to CIP tomorrow, because it's like CIP and I love doing CIP, plus I get to see the choir peeps. However I'm missing a chance to bai4 nian2 at Zhuang's house tomorrow. SADNESS. I don't get to see my teachers! They'll think I'm an ungrateful wench who doesn't yin2 shui3 si1 yuan2... T_T And, I don't know how the choir people will react to me. I bet they really bonded with each other during the orientation, and I'll be so 'extra' amongst them now. =( Really, when I see some people (especially the guys) from choir, I just stare at them, I don't say hello. And sometimes they stare back, and then we stare at each other and then no one says a thing. Hmm, this sounds as if we stare at each other for a long time, but it's not. More like only for a moment. I do say hello to a few close friends though. However if you ask me if I regret going for Dramafeste instead, I'll say I don't because I got to spend time with my classmates. Which rocked.
Blah, I think I'm going to sleep now. Am quite tired.
Actually today was quite boring. Well, boring in a good way. I should have gone out biking, but I didn't. Anyway I was too tired and my muscles ache. Oh yeah, my right arm feels immensely tired and I can't lift it up properly. Meh. Poor me.
By the way, the whole of today felt like a Sunday! I kept on thinking that there's school tomorrow. Argh, this Chinese New Year holiday is messing with my mind -- not that I mind the holidays at all, of course. You know, I do in fact need to go to school tomorrow, for choir CIP. I hope doesn't end too late tomorrow cos I intend to go shopping for valentine's day gifts for my angel/mortal before meeting the rest of the class for STJ. YAY, STJ rocks. Heehee. ^^ We're supposedly going to NYDC at Suntec for it. Can't wait, free dinner. And I get to see my beloved S34 (04 and 05).
I'm half looking forward to CIP tomorrow, because it's like CIP and I love doing CIP, plus I get to see the choir peeps. However I'm missing a chance to bai4 nian2 at Zhuang's house tomorrow. SADNESS. I don't get to see my teachers! They'll think I'm an ungrateful wench who doesn't yin2 shui3 si1 yuan2... T_T And, I don't know how the choir people will react to me. I bet they really bonded with each other during the orientation, and I'll be so 'extra' amongst them now. =( Really, when I see some people (especially the guys) from choir, I just stare at them, I don't say hello. And sometimes they stare back, and then we stare at each other and then no one says a thing. Hmm, this sounds as if we stare at each other for a long time, but it's not. More like only for a moment. I do say hello to a few close friends though. However if you ask me if I regret going for Dramafeste instead, I'll say I don't because I got to spend time with my classmates. Which rocked.
Blah, I think I'm going to sleep now. Am quite tired.
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(... some deleted stuff. I didn't like what I wrote. o.O;)
I'll proceed to describe the day, which was super awesome to no end.
Couldn't sleep at all last night. Tossed and turned from 12am to 3am, then fell asleep for 2 hours before waking up at 5am, then tossed and turned for another hour before I gave up and woke up at 6am. Am I weak? It's just a class outing. I don't understand why I was so keyed up about it. I guess I'm weird like that. Stoned around the house until 7.40am when I left for Boon Lay MRT to meet Lay Ning. It was kind of weird, going out, because there was no one on the streets, except for what looked like poly/uni students and several other random people. Reached the MRT station at about 7.55am and waited for Lay Ning, who only came at 8.15am. Bad girl. T_T Haha. No, just kidding. So we went on the train and picked up You Jin at Clementi (who only found us at Dover?? haha). Reached Harbourfront really early, were one of the first people to reach there, after Irvinna. Waited and waited, stoned and stoned, then finally everyone arrived. Attendance was quite okay, in my opinion, 15 people.
Went to Palawan Beach first and put down our things, then a few of us, namely Rachel, Wei Jie, Da En, Xing Ying, Jiao Yu and I decided that we were going to go biking. After some searching and direction-asking, we discovered the location of the bike kiosk. You know, the bikes there are damn expensive, $5 for an hour. But the bike was damn pro can. ^^ The bike ride for me was very exhausting. I think I did too much in too short a time, on an empty stomach. We biked up a total of 4 steep hills and I was over-exerting myself. When we reached Delifrance, I was really feeling like puking. Oh yeah, somewhere along the way, we were joined by Qi Han. I can't remember when. Anyway both of us traded our bikes with Xing Ying and Jiao Yu's double bike so that I didn't need to cycle. I was feeling positively HORRIBLE by then, all queasy and stuff. The double-bike experience was novel, but quite scary at first. The pedals move in sync with the person in front -- I was just slacking behind. After I got off at the bike kiosk 'cos I wanted to return my bike, we (Jiao Yu, Xing Ying and I) decided that we would walk back. I certainly felt absolutely disgusting by then, and not too far from the bike kiosk, I did actually throw up. Ugh. It was quite a horrible experience. I guess that taught me that exercising on an empty stomach is never a good idea. Well, on the bright side, I did feel VERY MUCH better after throwing up. ^^ This though, brought on the problem of me having a headache for the rest of the day. =(
After I returned to the "main camp" of S34 who were gambling (...), we went for lunch. The non-bikers (everyone other than Wei Jie, Rachel and Da En) went on the monorail to Burger King. Yay. Food! I was actually getting quite hungry despite my previously churning stomach. The monorail ride was long and hot. Said goodbye to most of the PRCs before we could even reach Burger King. Bah. =/ After having lunch, we went to Siloso Beach, where we spent most of the day at.
We were playing Monkey with our volleyball at first. Boy is that beach sucky, fake and hot. Anyway I can't say that I had a lot of fun playing Monkey because I just never seemed to like the game in the first place. But it was fun in it's own twisted little way. Eventually we got sick (or maybe it was just me) of that and we went into the water. Bah. I tell you I am a lousy swimmer. I spent most of my time just sitting in the water and sort of tanning myself. I would say my tanning was quite successful though I do need another more thorough round after I've cooled down a bit. Am quite red and swollen from the sun. T_T At one point everyone except Lay Ning and I swam out to the little island in front of us. They stayed there for a very very long time. So Lay Ning and I kind of stoned at the main beach. Ho hum. That part was kind of boring. And for some reason I was getting a bit seasick (sitting still!) because of my aforementioned headache. Played a bit of water volleyball/polo-hybrid-weird-throwing-ball-around thing when the group of abled swimmers came back from their excursion, then decided to leave at 6.
Went to Cathay Cineleisure after that. Had dinner at Pastamania. Yay! Great food. (Please note lack of description as I proceed! Fatigue... fatigue...) Wanted to watch a movie, but it would end too late. Ended up going to the arcade. Played a bit of Daytona and table soccer. Woohoo! It rocked. Yay. After that we went to Paragon cos Wei Jie wanted to go to Marks & Spencer. But it was sadly closed. So we went to the supermarket downstairs and shopped for a bit. Of course I didn't buy anything. Yup, after that we went home lah. Too late liao.
When I got off at Boon Lay MRT and entered the bus interchange, I was shocked. Why? Because my bus 181 wasn't in it's usual berth. Instead, I found out that it got shifted to the LAST BERTH THAT IS THE FARTHEST IN THE WHOLE INTERCHANGE. So I dragged my sorry ass there to wait. And wait. AND WAIT SOME MORE. God the bus took so long to come. When it finally did, I plonked gratefully down onto the seat. Halfway through the trip, I felt something brush against my leg. When I shifted to take a look, I caught a small cockroach scuttling away. EEK. That freaked me out. I didn't scream or anything, but I siam-ed (moved away) as quickly as I could. O.O
Yeah, that's the description of the day. I think I'll sleep till tomorrow afternoon. I think I'm going to dao3. Haha. Ho hum. I feel a bit better now, not yi1 du4 zhi3 qi4. Shall not think about it any longer. Think about the good things, the good memories, the good times.
I'll proceed to describe the day, which was super awesome to no end.
Couldn't sleep at all last night. Tossed and turned from 12am to 3am, then fell asleep for 2 hours before waking up at 5am, then tossed and turned for another hour before I gave up and woke up at 6am. Am I weak? It's just a class outing. I don't understand why I was so keyed up about it. I guess I'm weird like that. Stoned around the house until 7.40am when I left for Boon Lay MRT to meet Lay Ning. It was kind of weird, going out, because there was no one on the streets, except for what looked like poly/uni students and several other random people. Reached the MRT station at about 7.55am and waited for Lay Ning, who only came at 8.15am. Bad girl. T_T Haha. No, just kidding. So we went on the train and picked up You Jin at Clementi (who only found us at Dover?? haha). Reached Harbourfront really early, were one of the first people to reach there, after Irvinna. Waited and waited, stoned and stoned, then finally everyone arrived. Attendance was quite okay, in my opinion, 15 people.
Went to Palawan Beach first and put down our things, then a few of us, namely Rachel, Wei Jie, Da En, Xing Ying, Jiao Yu and I decided that we were going to go biking. After some searching and direction-asking, we discovered the location of the bike kiosk. You know, the bikes there are damn expensive, $5 for an hour. But the bike was damn pro can. ^^ The bike ride for me was very exhausting. I think I did too much in too short a time, on an empty stomach. We biked up a total of 4 steep hills and I was over-exerting myself. When we reached Delifrance, I was really feeling like puking. Oh yeah, somewhere along the way, we were joined by Qi Han. I can't remember when. Anyway both of us traded our bikes with Xing Ying and Jiao Yu's double bike so that I didn't need to cycle. I was feeling positively HORRIBLE by then, all queasy and stuff. The double-bike experience was novel, but quite scary at first. The pedals move in sync with the person in front -- I was just slacking behind. After I got off at the bike kiosk 'cos I wanted to return my bike, we (Jiao Yu, Xing Ying and I) decided that we would walk back. I certainly felt absolutely disgusting by then, and not too far from the bike kiosk, I did actually throw up. Ugh. It was quite a horrible experience. I guess that taught me that exercising on an empty stomach is never a good idea. Well, on the bright side, I did feel VERY MUCH better after throwing up. ^^ This though, brought on the problem of me having a headache for the rest of the day. =(
After I returned to the "main camp" of S34 who were gambling (...), we went for lunch. The non-bikers (everyone other than Wei Jie, Rachel and Da En) went on the monorail to Burger King. Yay. Food! I was actually getting quite hungry despite my previously churning stomach. The monorail ride was long and hot. Said goodbye to most of the PRCs before we could even reach Burger King. Bah. =/ After having lunch, we went to Siloso Beach, where we spent most of the day at.
We were playing Monkey with our volleyball at first. Boy is that beach sucky, fake and hot. Anyway I can't say that I had a lot of fun playing Monkey because I just never seemed to like the game in the first place. But it was fun in it's own twisted little way. Eventually we got sick (or maybe it was just me) of that and we went into the water. Bah. I tell you I am a lousy swimmer. I spent most of my time just sitting in the water and sort of tanning myself. I would say my tanning was quite successful though I do need another more thorough round after I've cooled down a bit. Am quite red and swollen from the sun. T_T At one point everyone except Lay Ning and I swam out to the little island in front of us. They stayed there for a very very long time. So Lay Ning and I kind of stoned at the main beach. Ho hum. That part was kind of boring. And for some reason I was getting a bit seasick (sitting still!) because of my aforementioned headache. Played a bit of water volleyball/polo-hybrid-weird-throwing-ball-around thing when the group of abled swimmers came back from their excursion, then decided to leave at 6.
Went to Cathay Cineleisure after that. Had dinner at Pastamania. Yay! Great food. (Please note lack of description as I proceed! Fatigue... fatigue...) Wanted to watch a movie, but it would end too late. Ended up going to the arcade. Played a bit of Daytona and table soccer. Woohoo! It rocked. Yay. After that we went to Paragon cos Wei Jie wanted to go to Marks & Spencer. But it was sadly closed. So we went to the supermarket downstairs and shopped for a bit. Of course I didn't buy anything. Yup, after that we went home lah. Too late liao.
When I got off at Boon Lay MRT and entered the bus interchange, I was shocked. Why? Because my bus 181 wasn't in it's usual berth. Instead, I found out that it got shifted to the LAST BERTH THAT IS THE FARTHEST IN THE WHOLE INTERCHANGE. So I dragged my sorry ass there to wait. And wait. AND WAIT SOME MORE. God the bus took so long to come. When it finally did, I plonked gratefully down onto the seat. Halfway through the trip, I felt something brush against my leg. When I shifted to take a look, I caught a small cockroach scuttling away. EEK. That freaked me out. I didn't scream or anything, but I siam-ed (moved away) as quickly as I could. O.O
Yeah, that's the description of the day. I think I'll sleep till tomorrow afternoon. I think I'm going to dao3. Haha. Ho hum. I feel a bit better now, not yi1 du4 zhi3 qi4. Shall not think about it any longer. Think about the good things, the good memories, the good times.
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09 February, 2005
Today was a quiet day. Visited my uncle first, and had brunch at his house. Didn't do much, just slept a bit, watched TV and played Diablo on my cousin's Playstation. After that we left for my paternal grandmother's house in Bedok. When we reached there quite a few people had already arrived. Shook hands and wished everyone 'Happy New Year'. Everyone decided we were bored, so we got out the mahjong table and played until dinner. I wasn't having much luck, although I did win twice overall. Must thank my uncle who played for me after I got sick of it, who helped me recoup my losses, so in the end I kind of broke even and didn't win or lose any money! After dinner, we went home. Yup. When I said 'quiet', I meant it.
Anyway, I shall talk about yesterday because it was more exciting. Actually, anything is more exciting than today. I have tomorrow free, mostly, except the bit when my cousins, uncle and auntie are coming over for a bit. I guess I'll have to resign myself to doing homework tomorrow. That's sad. I feel depressed just thinking about it, because I have so much due. Let's see. 1) partial fractions tutorial, 2) binomial theorem tutorial, 3) the rest of chemistry mole concept tutorial, 3) trigonometry tutorial, 4) physics vectors and scalars tutorial, 5) physics errors and uncertainties tutorial, 5) chinese comprehension... and a lot of these (#2 and 3) are very long and painstakingly difficult to do (for me). Okay, I shall not depress myself. It's the new year, after all!
Oh yeah, before I begin on my recount of yesterday, I counted all my hong1 bao1 money already. ^^ I have collected a total of $244, but $100 came from my parents, so I only have $144 from my relatives. I don't know if that's a lot or very little, because I usually don't coun the money myself, but it's quite a great sum nonetheless and I'm happy. ^^
Yesterday was a tiring day! Woke up at about 5.20am. My dad was chauffeur in the morning, so went to Lay Ning's house to help her the tang1 yuan2 stuff to school. Reached at 6.30am! So early. Was the earliest! After that people started coming, so we begin to chuo1 tang1 yuan2. After working our way through the dough and washing up, it was time to go for morning assembly at the Chinese High track. It was quite a lame/crappy assembly, because we get the usual CNY talk from the principal, etc. After that, went back to our class bench and slacked for quite a long time while waiting for the CNY performance to begin. When the performance began, our class actually tried going to the fourth floor of the left wing to catch it, but we were stopped by the councillors. We wanted to try the other floors, but visibility wasn't good as they were filled up already. So we eventually went down to the central plaza itself to watch. The wushu was damn good, and had some funny bits in their performance. We were happily watching, when we saw this guy in black who looked DAMN FAMILIAR. Then I heard someone say, 'Isn't that Timothy?' and when I looked closer, it WAS. Wow, he was SUPER pro with this long pointy thing I don't know the name of. Yay! We applauded as loud as we could.
After the CNY performance, we had our little street market thing. To tell the truth, I wasn't very happy with the whole thing, because I didn't like my own attitude. Well we had some problems with our electricity and couldn't get the cooker to work, so we couldn't sell the tang1 yuan2 properly. Ended up relying on the stuff that Da En brought. I feel very sorry for Lay Ning because she went through so much trouble to help the class make it a success, and I feel so guilty because I think I didn't do very much to contribute. All I did was stand at the stall and try to keep a low profile, because I hate selling things. I don't like going up to people and asking them to buy something, because I'm not pro-active like that. I know I should be, but at that time, I simply couldn't bring myself to walk forward and do something. So all I did was stand at the stall and pretend to look very busy. Yes, that's why I said earlier that I didn't like my attitude. My cowardice.
Was quite relieved when the street market thing was over, because all I wanted to do was to shove it to the back of my mind and not think about it again. Does that sound like a negative statement? Because I'm afraid it is. I was kind of down the whole of yesterday, although I'm proud to say that yes, I forced myself through the mass dances. I wanted to take part to give something of myself to the class, even if only about 8 of us did really take part in the dances at all. It was a hot day and the morning sun was burning everything up, but we still did it. I must say, Apollo's faculty dance just about rocked the house down because it was just so cool. I screwed up the couple part for the Artemis faculty dance, really sorry to say. Not that anyone cared, really. I think it was a good thing that there were even PEOPLE dancing the Artemis faculty dance because 1) Artemis is one of the smallest faculties and 2) Artemis is not known for it's enthusiasm *coughS3cough*.
After the dances I helped Lay Ning move the leftover tang yuan2 and associated stuff to the canteen so that her dad could pick them up. When I came back, most of the people in my class were gone. It was already almost 12 and I had to go back to St. Nick's, yet the thought that I had to go all alone made me even more weary than before. Wei Jie and Da En were left at the class bench, and I found out they were going to town, which meant that the would take a bus on the same side as me. So I tagged along like a little lost puppy. Not like they took any notice of me at all, of course. When we reached the overhead bridge I made a call to Dawn just to make sure that they were in school waiting for me and that I wasn't making a wasted trip to see nobody. When I did so, they just went ahead, leaving me behind. I hate being left behind. But to tell the truth, they weren't really talking to me when I was 'walking' with them either. I guess I have to stop with thie I-have-to-be-included-in-everything mentality and get used to having guy friends around. They probably just want some time together, you know? Not to have an annoying girl yapping at their heels every other second. I think it gets annoying when you have people hanging around you all the time. Okay, okay. I'm digressing. So while waiting at the bus stop (I lamely stopped in front of the two of them because I walked slower and they were already chatting away) I met Lay Ning and her RV friend who was with her. Shortly after that, my bus came, and I boarded it with a heavy heart.
Fell asleep on the bus. When I woke up, I thought I had missed my stop, but luckily I realised that I hadn't. Deciding that it'd be quicker to alight at the stop before AMK MRT station, I did so, and found out that I had no more money in my ez-link card. So I had to walk all the way to AMK station and top-up my card there before I took a bus to school. Blah. How troublesome. While walking to school, saw quite a few choir people like Pong and Beatrice. They all said that they couldn't recognise me! Must have been the glasses. Anyway, while making my way down to the canteen, met Shu Hui, Cherie and Steffi who took pictures with me, before I actually got down to meet 5TORM.
Umm, I'm getting quite sick of writing, because truly, nothing happened. What do friends do when they meet? Chat a lot. So we talked and talked. Had orange bowl for lunch but it was so spicy and the auntie was chasing us away because she wanted to lock the gate, so I didn't get to finish it. Wanted to see if there was anyone left in the staff room, but it was locked. So went to Chinatown with Weiqi and Dawn. Slacked at the Chinatown stall with them, and my mood lifted considerably, except that we were supremely bored. Bought some stuff for my mortal and choir angel. Yay! I bought them very pretty bookmark things made like a giant paperclip.
At about 4.40pm I left and went to my grandma's at Bedok, and was the earliest to arive. How sian. Talked to my cousin about Hwa Chong and found out that she was in 03S63. Yay! However I don't remember much because I know I spent a lot of my time sleeping. In fact the moment I reached home, I went straight to sleep.
Okay! I think that was a long post that nobody will ever read. I might as well be talking to myself. There are no new posts on my class blog or Yahoo! group. I am bored. It's 11pm. I need to sleep. I HAVE HOMEWORK TO DO TOMORROW. Goddamnit, I can't wait for Friday because I'll see my friends and they'll lift my mood. Am I suffering from 05S34 withdrawal?? I don't dare to admit it to anyone because it's quite lame. But I really really want to see them. Ho hum. Friday... Sentosa... I will wait one more day! I think I am too pathetic. I've spent this whole week waiting for Friday to come. It'll really come as a disappointment if it sucks. Then again, it'll suck because I"ll be disappointed of my OWN attitude. I'll try, I swear, my best to be enthusiastic. If I act happy, I'll be happy, and everyone will be happy, and then it'll be fun. Yay.
Anyway, I shall talk about yesterday because it was more exciting. Actually, anything is more exciting than today. I have tomorrow free, mostly, except the bit when my cousins, uncle and auntie are coming over for a bit. I guess I'll have to resign myself to doing homework tomorrow. That's sad. I feel depressed just thinking about it, because I have so much due. Let's see. 1) partial fractions tutorial, 2) binomial theorem tutorial, 3) the rest of chemistry mole concept tutorial, 3) trigonometry tutorial, 4) physics vectors and scalars tutorial, 5) physics errors and uncertainties tutorial, 5) chinese comprehension... and a lot of these (#2 and 3) are very long and painstakingly difficult to do (for me). Okay, I shall not depress myself. It's the new year, after all!
Oh yeah, before I begin on my recount of yesterday, I counted all my hong1 bao1 money already. ^^ I have collected a total of $244, but $100 came from my parents, so I only have $144 from my relatives. I don't know if that's a lot or very little, because I usually don't coun the money myself, but it's quite a great sum nonetheless and I'm happy. ^^
Yesterday was a tiring day! Woke up at about 5.20am. My dad was chauffeur in the morning, so went to Lay Ning's house to help her the tang1 yuan2 stuff to school. Reached at 6.30am! So early. Was the earliest! After that people started coming, so we begin to chuo1 tang1 yuan2. After working our way through the dough and washing up, it was time to go for morning assembly at the Chinese High track. It was quite a lame/crappy assembly, because we get the usual CNY talk from the principal, etc. After that, went back to our class bench and slacked for quite a long time while waiting for the CNY performance to begin. When the performance began, our class actually tried going to the fourth floor of the left wing to catch it, but we were stopped by the councillors. We wanted to try the other floors, but visibility wasn't good as they were filled up already. So we eventually went down to the central plaza itself to watch. The wushu was damn good, and had some funny bits in their performance. We were happily watching, when we saw this guy in black who looked DAMN FAMILIAR. Then I heard someone say, 'Isn't that Timothy?' and when I looked closer, it WAS. Wow, he was SUPER pro with this long pointy thing I don't know the name of. Yay! We applauded as loud as we could.
After the CNY performance, we had our little street market thing. To tell the truth, I wasn't very happy with the whole thing, because I didn't like my own attitude. Well we had some problems with our electricity and couldn't get the cooker to work, so we couldn't sell the tang1 yuan2 properly. Ended up relying on the stuff that Da En brought. I feel very sorry for Lay Ning because she went through so much trouble to help the class make it a success, and I feel so guilty because I think I didn't do very much to contribute. All I did was stand at the stall and try to keep a low profile, because I hate selling things. I don't like going up to people and asking them to buy something, because I'm not pro-active like that. I know I should be, but at that time, I simply couldn't bring myself to walk forward and do something. So all I did was stand at the stall and pretend to look very busy. Yes, that's why I said earlier that I didn't like my attitude. My cowardice.
Was quite relieved when the street market thing was over, because all I wanted to do was to shove it to the back of my mind and not think about it again. Does that sound like a negative statement? Because I'm afraid it is. I was kind of down the whole of yesterday, although I'm proud to say that yes, I forced myself through the mass dances. I wanted to take part to give something of myself to the class, even if only about 8 of us did really take part in the dances at all. It was a hot day and the morning sun was burning everything up, but we still did it. I must say, Apollo's faculty dance just about rocked the house down because it was just so cool. I screwed up the couple part for the Artemis faculty dance, really sorry to say. Not that anyone cared, really. I think it was a good thing that there were even PEOPLE dancing the Artemis faculty dance because 1) Artemis is one of the smallest faculties and 2) Artemis is not known for it's enthusiasm *coughS3cough*.
After the dances I helped Lay Ning move the leftover tang yuan2 and associated stuff to the canteen so that her dad could pick them up. When I came back, most of the people in my class were gone. It was already almost 12 and I had to go back to St. Nick's, yet the thought that I had to go all alone made me even more weary than before. Wei Jie and Da En were left at the class bench, and I found out they were going to town, which meant that the would take a bus on the same side as me. So I tagged along like a little lost puppy. Not like they took any notice of me at all, of course. When we reached the overhead bridge I made a call to Dawn just to make sure that they were in school waiting for me and that I wasn't making a wasted trip to see nobody. When I did so, they just went ahead, leaving me behind. I hate being left behind. But to tell the truth, they weren't really talking to me when I was 'walking' with them either. I guess I have to stop with thie I-have-to-be-included-in-everything mentality and get used to having guy friends around. They probably just want some time together, you know? Not to have an annoying girl yapping at their heels every other second. I think it gets annoying when you have people hanging around you all the time. Okay, okay. I'm digressing. So while waiting at the bus stop (I lamely stopped in front of the two of them because I walked slower and they were already chatting away) I met Lay Ning and her RV friend who was with her. Shortly after that, my bus came, and I boarded it with a heavy heart.
Fell asleep on the bus. When I woke up, I thought I had missed my stop, but luckily I realised that I hadn't. Deciding that it'd be quicker to alight at the stop before AMK MRT station, I did so, and found out that I had no more money in my ez-link card. So I had to walk all the way to AMK station and top-up my card there before I took a bus to school. Blah. How troublesome. While walking to school, saw quite a few choir people like Pong and Beatrice. They all said that they couldn't recognise me! Must have been the glasses. Anyway, while making my way down to the canteen, met Shu Hui, Cherie and Steffi who took pictures with me, before I actually got down to meet 5TORM.
Umm, I'm getting quite sick of writing, because truly, nothing happened. What do friends do when they meet? Chat a lot. So we talked and talked. Had orange bowl for lunch but it was so spicy and the auntie was chasing us away because she wanted to lock the gate, so I didn't get to finish it. Wanted to see if there was anyone left in the staff room, but it was locked. So went to Chinatown with Weiqi and Dawn. Slacked at the Chinatown stall with them, and my mood lifted considerably, except that we were supremely bored. Bought some stuff for my mortal and choir angel. Yay! I bought them very pretty bookmark things made like a giant paperclip.
At about 4.40pm I left and went to my grandma's at Bedok, and was the earliest to arive. How sian. Talked to my cousin about Hwa Chong and found out that she was in 03S63. Yay! However I don't remember much because I know I spent a lot of my time sleeping. In fact the moment I reached home, I went straight to sleep.
Okay! I think that was a long post that nobody will ever read. I might as well be talking to myself. There are no new posts on my class blog or Yahoo! group. I am bored. It's 11pm. I need to sleep. I HAVE HOMEWORK TO DO TOMORROW. Goddamnit, I can't wait for Friday because I'll see my friends and they'll lift my mood. Am I suffering from 05S34 withdrawal?? I don't dare to admit it to anyone because it's quite lame. But I really really want to see them. Ho hum. Friday... Sentosa... I will wait one more day! I think I am too pathetic. I've spent this whole week waiting for Friday to come. It'll really come as a disappointment if it sucks. Then again, it'll suck because I"ll be disappointed of my OWN attitude. I'll try, I swear, my best to be enthusiastic. If I act happy, I'll be happy, and everyone will be happy, and then it'll be fun. Yay.
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07 February, 2005
Since I didn't blog yesterday, I shall do a quick sum-up.
Went to school at 9am for Choir orientation! Arrived a bit late. Was sorted into Group 1, which consisted of Shu Ping, Kenneth, Amanda, Kar Leong (I think that's his name), Yuru and me. First we played wacko in the AVT, which was quite fun for some reason, until I became the person in the middle. T_T After ice breakers, we went to the field for captain's ball. My group started with a BANANA. Yes. We played captain's ball with a BANANA. It was disgusting, smelly, muddy and horrible. Okay, it wasn't that bad, but my hands got really dirty. I was careful with my shirt though, because it was a shirt that I had to walk around the whole day with.
Left after the first round of captain's ball for Dramafeste at LT3. Actually only a few of us turned up lah, like Rachel, You Jin, Wei Jie, Poh Wei, and of course the lead actor Jierong and Da En lor. When I first entered LT3 I was momentarily blinded because it was SO dark. Then spotted You Jin and Rachel waving, so stumbled up the steps to sit. Dramafeste was kind of slack. Went on stage, moved chairs about, acted like a slacker, pretended to throw things, and got off the stage again. We (the Scene 3 people, You Jin, Rachel, Poh Wei, Wei Jie and I) left halfway to mooch around and look at our pathetic CNY banner. Went upstairs again to take our stuff and was about to leave when Rachel got a call saying we were needed back at LT3! So we headed allll the way back, and listened to the announcement. Apparently because we're involved in Dramafeste, we're going to have to miss quite a lot of lessons. I'm not too happy about that because I'm already so behind in my schoolwork that missing them will only make me lag even more. Besides, I'll have to find time to replace all the periods I missed, and that means unhappy/overworked teachers, which means unlucky me. =(
After Dramafeste, us Scene 3 people went to eat lunch at Coronation Plaza. We ate at Golden Rooster, I think that's what it's called, but I didn't like it one bit. The chicken I ordered was so oily and salty. >< After lunch, I found out that Rachel and Wei Jie were going to East Coast! I was like !!!! because I didn't know about their secret little rendevous. Haha. And Poh Wei was going too, to act as a DIAN4 DENG1 PAO4!!! Tsk tsk, why must he act extra?? Must talk to him tomorrow (Monday) morning to find out what they exactly did. XD
After going our separate ways after lunch, You Jin and I went for CIP. Because we were clueless about how to get to Yio Chu Kang MRT by bus (I know you have to take 852, but I only just discovered that), so we took 74 to Ang Mo Kio MRT station. On the way there, this stranger came up to us and asked us to give him $2.40 because, according to him, he was on his way to collect his paycheck when his boss called him to say that it wasn't ready yet. So he had only 40c on him and thus wasn't able to return home. The two of us sat and stared for a long time, but we eventually gave him the $2.40 just to shut him up. You Jin said that he was probably begging for money to by cigarettes or something, but I don't know, really, although I don't believe what the stranger said either. For one thing, when we got down at Ang Mo Kio, the stranger did not get down, even though he said he was going to Clementi. But now when I think about it, 74 goes to Buona Vista, so he can take an MRT from there, perhaps. So why does he need $2.40? There are only 2 stops between Buona Vista and Clementi, after all. Hmm, curiouser and curiouser.
The Ang Mo Kio MRT station was so familiar, and brought back so many memories. So did Yio Chu Kang MRT station, which we stopped at. I wanted to hop on a 76 and go back to St. Nick's, but it was Saturday and we had to go for CIP anyway. So I curbed my sad thoughts and went on my way. =(
We reached The Hiding place at 2.30pm, and found out that only Qi Han and Lay Ning were there! All the people that promised to go DIDN'T. Some of them had valid reasons, but some others did NOT. *cough* I am going to school tomorrow to investigate. >:| Did something different today, at THP: was tasked to grate pineapples! It was a really taxing job, because I had to use quite some strength. And after that, my hands took a lot of abuse because the gloves I wore were ill-fitting. Add this to constant exposure to the acid of the pineapples, my palms became horribly wrinkly after that. Plus, I was tired. So. We four (Lay Ning, You Jin, Qi Han and I) left at about 5.30pm because we were super tired. Went to Compasspoint again as usual for dinner, then went home.
YES, that was yesterday. Not much of a summary, I'm afraid, but the description of today will be shorter because NOTHING happened. Woke up at 11am because I was dead tired. Haha. Went out for lunch with my parents, to The Oaks Grill & Bar at Tanglin Mall. Great food! After that, went to OG at Orchardpoint to shop! Bought lots of stuff. Wee! Shopping rocks, sometimes, when I need to get stuff. Yeah, that ends the exciting part of today. The rest of the day just details "homework" and "dinner". Oh, after dinner, my neighbours came over for a while to wish us an early Happy CNY and to give us some things, as well as take a look at our house, because for some reason, they've been wanting to forever. So after they feasted their eyes, I went back to slogging. And I'm here now! Yay. This is called "slacking".
Hmm, kind of looking forward to next week, actually, because of Friday's class outing to Sentosa! However I'm not exactly looking forward to tomorrow because of something called "CLAO" and "Choir". It's not that I don't enjoy Choir because I do, but the song that we're doing right now is very hard, and I'm very stupid, so there are no real values of x that satisfy that equation. Ho hum. Sad case. And the fact that choir makes me end really really late tomorrow. Not that I always go home early, but still. OH YEAH. Can't forget that there's Chemistry tutorial tomorrow! Nooo... I must present my crappy answers! YARGH!!
Went to school at 9am for Choir orientation! Arrived a bit late. Was sorted into Group 1, which consisted of Shu Ping, Kenneth, Amanda, Kar Leong (I think that's his name), Yuru and me. First we played wacko in the AVT, which was quite fun for some reason, until I became the person in the middle. T_T After ice breakers, we went to the field for captain's ball. My group started with a BANANA. Yes. We played captain's ball with a BANANA. It was disgusting, smelly, muddy and horrible. Okay, it wasn't that bad, but my hands got really dirty. I was careful with my shirt though, because it was a shirt that I had to walk around the whole day with.
Left after the first round of captain's ball for Dramafeste at LT3. Actually only a few of us turned up lah, like Rachel, You Jin, Wei Jie, Poh Wei, and of course the lead actor Jierong and Da En lor. When I first entered LT3 I was momentarily blinded because it was SO dark. Then spotted You Jin and Rachel waving, so stumbled up the steps to sit. Dramafeste was kind of slack. Went on stage, moved chairs about, acted like a slacker, pretended to throw things, and got off the stage again. We (the Scene 3 people, You Jin, Rachel, Poh Wei, Wei Jie and I) left halfway to mooch around and look at our pathetic CNY banner. Went upstairs again to take our stuff and was about to leave when Rachel got a call saying we were needed back at LT3! So we headed allll the way back, and listened to the announcement. Apparently because we're involved in Dramafeste, we're going to have to miss quite a lot of lessons. I'm not too happy about that because I'm already so behind in my schoolwork that missing them will only make me lag even more. Besides, I'll have to find time to replace all the periods I missed, and that means unhappy/overworked teachers, which means unlucky me. =(
After Dramafeste, us Scene 3 people went to eat lunch at Coronation Plaza. We ate at Golden Rooster, I think that's what it's called, but I didn't like it one bit. The chicken I ordered was so oily and salty. >< After lunch, I found out that Rachel and Wei Jie were going to East Coast! I was like !!!! because I didn't know about their secret little rendevous. Haha. And Poh Wei was going too, to act as a DIAN4 DENG1 PAO4!!! Tsk tsk, why must he act extra?? Must talk to him tomorrow (Monday) morning to find out what they exactly did. XD
After going our separate ways after lunch, You Jin and I went for CIP. Because we were clueless about how to get to Yio Chu Kang MRT by bus (I know you have to take 852, but I only just discovered that), so we took 74 to Ang Mo Kio MRT station. On the way there, this stranger came up to us and asked us to give him $2.40 because, according to him, he was on his way to collect his paycheck when his boss called him to say that it wasn't ready yet. So he had only 40c on him and thus wasn't able to return home. The two of us sat and stared for a long time, but we eventually gave him the $2.40 just to shut him up. You Jin said that he was probably begging for money to by cigarettes or something, but I don't know, really, although I don't believe what the stranger said either. For one thing, when we got down at Ang Mo Kio, the stranger did not get down, even though he said he was going to Clementi. But now when I think about it, 74 goes to Buona Vista, so he can take an MRT from there, perhaps. So why does he need $2.40? There are only 2 stops between Buona Vista and Clementi, after all. Hmm, curiouser and curiouser.
The Ang Mo Kio MRT station was so familiar, and brought back so many memories. So did Yio Chu Kang MRT station, which we stopped at. I wanted to hop on a 76 and go back to St. Nick's, but it was Saturday and we had to go for CIP anyway. So I curbed my sad thoughts and went on my way. =(
We reached The Hiding place at 2.30pm, and found out that only Qi Han and Lay Ning were there! All the people that promised to go DIDN'T. Some of them had valid reasons, but some others did NOT. *cough* I am going to school tomorrow to investigate. >:| Did something different today, at THP: was tasked to grate pineapples! It was a really taxing job, because I had to use quite some strength. And after that, my hands took a lot of abuse because the gloves I wore were ill-fitting. Add this to constant exposure to the acid of the pineapples, my palms became horribly wrinkly after that. Plus, I was tired. So. We four (Lay Ning, You Jin, Qi Han and I) left at about 5.30pm because we were super tired. Went to Compasspoint again as usual for dinner, then went home.
YES, that was yesterday. Not much of a summary, I'm afraid, but the description of today will be shorter because NOTHING happened. Woke up at 11am because I was dead tired. Haha. Went out for lunch with my parents, to The Oaks Grill & Bar at Tanglin Mall. Great food! After that, went to OG at Orchardpoint to shop! Bought lots of stuff. Wee! Shopping rocks, sometimes, when I need to get stuff. Yeah, that ends the exciting part of today. The rest of the day just details "homework" and "dinner". Oh, after dinner, my neighbours came over for a while to wish us an early Happy CNY and to give us some things, as well as take a look at our house, because for some reason, they've been wanting to forever. So after they feasted their eyes, I went back to slogging. And I'm here now! Yay. This is called "slacking".
Hmm, kind of looking forward to next week, actually, because of Friday's class outing to Sentosa! However I'm not exactly looking forward to tomorrow because of something called "CLAO" and "Choir". It's not that I don't enjoy Choir because I do, but the song that we're doing right now is very hard, and I'm very stupid, so there are no real values of x that satisfy that equation. Ho hum. Sad case. And the fact that choir makes me end really really late tomorrow. Not that I always go home early, but still. OH YEAH. Can't forget that there's Chemistry tutorial tomorrow! Nooo... I must present my crappy answers! YARGH!!
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04 February, 2005
Wow, this is the third post in a row. Hehe. I'm slacking 'cos it's CNY! Happy CNY everyone, gong1 xi3 fa1 cai2, wan4 shi4 ru2 yi4!
As for the "situation" that I was in, I lied my way out of it. Evil, yes. Harhar.
Anyway, today was a Full Of Crap day! Had FMaths in the morning and we were doing binomial theorem. At one point Mr Koh was demonstrating how the Pascal's triangle was symmetrical, and drew a line down the middle of it. Thus the S34 Christmas tree was born! Haha. With numerical tree ornaments in the shape and order of a Pascal's triangle. XD So FOC, full-of-crap.
After FMaths we went for Chem tutorial for our dun-dun-dun... Chem class test! It was quite easy lah, although I was stumped for a moment at first. LOL. So was happy. However, I zhong4 have to present 2 questions for our next Chem tutorial. Ho hum. At least I not so suay zhong4 the Challenging questions, haha!
During break we were chiong-ing to eat 'cos Chem ended a bit late and we only had 1 period (40 min) for break. So with 25 min, we went to TCHS to gobble down food. Haha. Actually wanted to follow the class and eat at HC canteen, but a look at the queue and the thought that the food won't be good anyway, some of us turned tail and zao4 to TCHS. Heh. Wasn't late for Physics anyway.
Oh yeah. Physics lecture. I think I kinda like this Mrs Irene Tan, even though she came across as terribly bimbotic yesterday. Maybe she was trying too hard to tune into our frequency, but it seems like she succeeded today because I actually UNDERSTAND what was going on during Physics lecture! Or it could be because the chapter was easy. >< But I like to think that I understood, haha.
Project Work was CRAP. Seriously. Blah. Then came Physics practical, which was very slack... as in like, most of the time I'm hanging out with people who don't even sit near my bench. Oh yeah, I'm like, on the last bench at the back of the room, and my bench always has missing materials! It's not fair. So I always have to join other people. Anyway we did stuff like calculating the gsm (grams per square metre) of paper and measuring the thickness of a layer of oil. Yay.
During choir we J1s learned a new song, Bin-nam-ma. God it's hard. It's really really really super duper hard. X.x And I have choir orientation tomorrow, which is from 9am-12pm. Also, Dramafeste rehearsals from 10am-12pm. Then CIP at 12pm-8pm. Erm. My schedule's a bit packed, no? So I'm going for choir orientation for an hour, then disappearing for Dramafeste, then travelling to Yio Chu Kang for CIP. Arr. Haha, actually I suspect that I would be slacking for most of the Dramafeste rehearsal because I'm just an extra in Scene 3. Plus a backstage person lah, but I think my cameo in Scene 3 is more important. XD Haha. So stupid right.
After choir I went to help paint our CNY banner! We had quite a lot of problems to start with because of colour combination and all that. Like, we had a lot of gold and stuff. And the gold didn't match and etc. Finally we sort of fixed everything up, but it's still quite... amature-ish and admittedly, a bit ugly. Haha. But its ugly in a good way because it looks like we put effort in it, but it's just too bad that we have no artistic talent. XD They can excuse us anyway, because we're the S3 people. S3! FMaths!
So by the time we decided to give up on the banner (we were painting it from 3.30pm-9pm! of course different ppl... I only joined in at 6.00pm), it was super dark. And we were telling ghost stories! So we had a mini-excursion to TCHS while the TCHS people were telling us all about the ghost stories. And believe me, TCHS has A LOT of ghost stories. I was really quite freaked out. I shall not think about them or write about them now because if I do, I'll never get to sleep. Seriously. Maybe I'll type them out in the day or something.
Yeah. That was basically my day. Tomorrow my day is so packed too. =( Wonder how I'm going to complete my huge huge pile of homework. I owe too much for it to be legal. Haha.
As for the "situation" that I was in, I lied my way out of it. Evil, yes. Harhar.
Anyway, today was a Full Of Crap day! Had FMaths in the morning and we were doing binomial theorem. At one point Mr Koh was demonstrating how the Pascal's triangle was symmetrical, and drew a line down the middle of it. Thus the S34 Christmas tree was born! Haha. With numerical tree ornaments in the shape and order of a Pascal's triangle. XD So FOC, full-of-crap.
After FMaths we went for Chem tutorial for our dun-dun-dun... Chem class test! It was quite easy lah, although I was stumped for a moment at first. LOL. So was happy. However, I zhong4 have to present 2 questions for our next Chem tutorial. Ho hum. At least I not so suay zhong4 the Challenging questions, haha!
During break we were chiong-ing to eat 'cos Chem ended a bit late and we only had 1 period (40 min) for break. So with 25 min, we went to TCHS to gobble down food. Haha. Actually wanted to follow the class and eat at HC canteen, but a look at the queue and the thought that the food won't be good anyway, some of us turned tail and zao4 to TCHS. Heh. Wasn't late for Physics anyway.
Oh yeah. Physics lecture. I think I kinda like this Mrs Irene Tan, even though she came across as terribly bimbotic yesterday. Maybe she was trying too hard to tune into our frequency, but it seems like she succeeded today because I actually UNDERSTAND what was going on during Physics lecture! Or it could be because the chapter was easy. >< But I like to think that I understood, haha.
Project Work was CRAP. Seriously. Blah. Then came Physics practical, which was very slack... as in like, most of the time I'm hanging out with people who don't even sit near my bench. Oh yeah, I'm like, on the last bench at the back of the room, and my bench always has missing materials! It's not fair. So I always have to join other people. Anyway we did stuff like calculating the gsm (grams per square metre) of paper and measuring the thickness of a layer of oil. Yay.
During choir we J1s learned a new song, Bin-nam-ma. God it's hard. It's really really really super duper hard. X.x And I have choir orientation tomorrow, which is from 9am-12pm. Also, Dramafeste rehearsals from 10am-12pm. Then CIP at 12pm-8pm. Erm. My schedule's a bit packed, no? So I'm going for choir orientation for an hour, then disappearing for Dramafeste, then travelling to Yio Chu Kang for CIP. Arr. Haha, actually I suspect that I would be slacking for most of the Dramafeste rehearsal because I'm just an extra in Scene 3. Plus a backstage person lah, but I think my cameo in Scene 3 is more important. XD Haha. So stupid right.
After choir I went to help paint our CNY banner! We had quite a lot of problems to start with because of colour combination and all that. Like, we had a lot of gold and stuff. And the gold didn't match and etc. Finally we sort of fixed everything up, but it's still quite... amature-ish and admittedly, a bit ugly. Haha. But its ugly in a good way because it looks like we put effort in it, but it's just too bad that we have no artistic talent. XD They can excuse us anyway, because we're the S3 people. S3! FMaths!
So by the time we decided to give up on the banner (we were painting it from 3.30pm-9pm! of course different ppl... I only joined in at 6.00pm), it was super dark. And we were telling ghost stories! So we had a mini-excursion to TCHS while the TCHS people were telling us all about the ghost stories. And believe me, TCHS has A LOT of ghost stories. I was really quite freaked out. I shall not think about them or write about them now because if I do, I'll never get to sleep. Seriously. Maybe I'll type them out in the day or something.
Yeah. That was basically my day. Tomorrow my day is so packed too. =( Wonder how I'm going to complete my huge huge pile of homework. I owe too much for it to be legal. Haha.
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02 February, 2005
I am back!! Did anyone miss me? I really don't think so. After all Greyprism is a small site with only 5TORM reading it. Haha.
Here's a quick update for you guys. Greyprism went down on 25 December (what a fitting Christmas gift, *cough*) because my host decided to shut down, leaving me with no webserver. After spending the first half of January ruminating over what will happen to Greyprism, my host finally came up with a solution. What you are viewing now is, of course, the solution. Yeah. Took me a month to get back on my feet. T_T
To anyone wondering, I'll continue finishing up the pages on this site. Do not expect a remodel anytime soon -- possibly the best I can do will be to modify the header image up there and change the colour scheme. I'm not in a position now to do anything major. Besides, I did spend a damn lot of time fixing up this layout. XD
Right now I'm no longer a secondary school student! I'm spending my first three months in Hwa Chong Institution (College!), rocking in the class of 05S34! Yeah! I'm taking double maths and double science, which is like, a mugger combi. Haha. Sort of. All the smart people in my class. Oh well, I'm not that smart. T_T Anyway, the time I spent so far in Hwa Chong has been the best time of my life. Even though I have a few problems here and there, the overall picture is a good one.
So now, since Greyprism is back up, I'm wondering if I should give the address to my classmates. But there really isn't any point, really, because firstly, I don't think they have blogs themselves. And besides, by not giving them the address to Greyprism, I can talk about them and they wouldn't know! Isn't that like, GREAT? 'Cos you can read all about what I think about them too. Haha. XD Evil me.
I won't bother with recounts of previous days, so I shall begin with today. Had FMaths lecture first thing in the morning and we were covering partial fractions. I feel very stupid, you know, because I don't understand a lot of things going on, while everyone else is. The worst thing is Mr Koh kept on saying how very easy it was. Ugh. That only brought my morale down lower. Then I found out (I'm S-L-O-W, okay?) that You Jin finished ALL his freaking tutorials. T_T That should explain why his functions tutorial is being held captive by me right now.
After FMaths lecture we had GP... and Rachel pointed out that Miss Gan seems very exasperated with us. I have never noticed this previously, and since she said it, the fact suddenly became really obvious. I think she hates us. T_T I'm not used to teachers disliking me.
One thing I dislike about JC is that it's very hard for students to form bonds with teachers. Of course it's possible, but in the Hwa Chong environment, people like me are very very easy to overlook. Off the cuff, I can't think of any teacher who knows me by name, except for Miss Gan, whom we have already established hates us all.
After GP we had break! Ate at the boring canteen. After that was FM1 and FM2 tutorial. Blah. I was sitting next to Poh Wei, and I was feeling SO STUPID next to him. To tell the truth (this is something I've never told anyone), he scares me a lot. There isn't much to fear about him (compared to Huangyu with his scary eyes), except that he is just so SMART in every way. And the reputation he has... he's just someone who's very respected. And I feel so small next to him. I could feel myself conciously edging away from him. Blah. I feel wimpy now, admitting that. Physics tutorial was absolutely slack after that.
Wednesday is the best day ever, because we only have 5 periods of lessons! Yay! Slacked from 12.40pm till 2pm, until the Econs people ended their day, then went for the faculty dance session! It's so pathetic, we renamed it S34 dance session. Haha. Because we're like, the only class that goes down for dance session. T_T It's so sad.
Tomorrow sucks because there is PE (running 3 x 1.2km... 3.6km! oh no...). And each new day brings more feelings of inferiority. Actually you see me belittling myself a lot. It IS true that that's the way I feel, but I don't think it's as serious so as to marr the enjoyability of life in Hwa Chong, generally.
I think that ends my kind-of-long post. I won't be able to post regularly, I'm afraid, probably once a week. Getting very busy. Hopefully, this post will last you a long time!
Oh yeah, there was something I wanted to post up at Greyprism on Christmas day as a present to visitors. I'm on my dad's laptop now so I can't post, but when I do get on my own computer, I'll upload the opening and ending theme songs to Six Weeks. =) They're hauntingly sad. And beautiful. Ahh, just melancholic.
Here's a quick update for you guys. Greyprism went down on 25 December (what a fitting Christmas gift, *cough*) because my host decided to shut down, leaving me with no webserver. After spending the first half of January ruminating over what will happen to Greyprism, my host finally came up with a solution. What you are viewing now is, of course, the solution. Yeah. Took me a month to get back on my feet. T_T
To anyone wondering, I'll continue finishing up the pages on this site. Do not expect a remodel anytime soon -- possibly the best I can do will be to modify the header image up there and change the colour scheme. I'm not in a position now to do anything major. Besides, I did spend a damn lot of time fixing up this layout. XD
Right now I'm no longer a secondary school student! I'm spending my first three months in Hwa Chong Institution (College!), rocking in the class of 05S34! Yeah! I'm taking double maths and double science, which is like, a mugger combi. Haha. Sort of. All the smart people in my class. Oh well, I'm not that smart. T_T Anyway, the time I spent so far in Hwa Chong has been the best time of my life. Even though I have a few problems here and there, the overall picture is a good one.
So now, since Greyprism is back up, I'm wondering if I should give the address to my classmates. But there really isn't any point, really, because firstly, I don't think they have blogs themselves. And besides, by not giving them the address to Greyprism, I can talk about them and they wouldn't know! Isn't that like, GREAT? 'Cos you can read all about what I think about them too. Haha. XD Evil me.
I won't bother with recounts of previous days, so I shall begin with today. Had FMaths lecture first thing in the morning and we were covering partial fractions. I feel very stupid, you know, because I don't understand a lot of things going on, while everyone else is. The worst thing is Mr Koh kept on saying how very easy it was. Ugh. That only brought my morale down lower. Then I found out (I'm S-L-O-W, okay?) that You Jin finished ALL his freaking tutorials. T_T That should explain why his functions tutorial is being held captive by me right now.
After FMaths lecture we had GP... and Rachel pointed out that Miss Gan seems very exasperated with us. I have never noticed this previously, and since she said it, the fact suddenly became really obvious. I think she hates us. T_T I'm not used to teachers disliking me.
One thing I dislike about JC is that it's very hard for students to form bonds with teachers. Of course it's possible, but in the Hwa Chong environment, people like me are very very easy to overlook. Off the cuff, I can't think of any teacher who knows me by name, except for Miss Gan, whom we have already established hates us all.
After GP we had break! Ate at the boring canteen. After that was FM1 and FM2 tutorial. Blah. I was sitting next to Poh Wei, and I was feeling SO STUPID next to him. To tell the truth (this is something I've never told anyone), he scares me a lot. There isn't much to fear about him (compared to Huangyu with his scary eyes), except that he is just so SMART in every way. And the reputation he has... he's just someone who's very respected. And I feel so small next to him. I could feel myself conciously edging away from him. Blah. I feel wimpy now, admitting that. Physics tutorial was absolutely slack after that.
Wednesday is the best day ever, because we only have 5 periods of lessons! Yay! Slacked from 12.40pm till 2pm, until the Econs people ended their day, then went for the faculty dance session! It's so pathetic, we renamed it S34 dance session. Haha. Because we're like, the only class that goes down for dance session. T_T It's so sad.
Tomorrow sucks because there is PE (running 3 x 1.2km... 3.6km! oh no...). And each new day brings more feelings of inferiority. Actually you see me belittling myself a lot. It IS true that that's the way I feel, but I don't think it's as serious so as to marr the enjoyability of life in Hwa Chong, generally.
I think that ends my kind-of-long post. I won't be able to post regularly, I'm afraid, probably once a week. Getting very busy. Hopefully, this post will last you a long time!
Oh yeah, there was something I wanted to post up at Greyprism on Christmas day as a present to visitors. I'm on my dad's laptop now so I can't post, but when I do get on my own computer, I'll upload the opening and ending theme songs to Six Weeks. =) They're hauntingly sad. And beautiful. Ahh, just melancholic.
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