01 April, 2005
Haven't blogged for a while, I realise. It's first of April, by the way, so Happy April Fools' Day! I didn't get pranked, and neither did I prank anyone, so today passed without much incident, actually.
You know what? I'm feeling quite happy. It was choir today, oddly, something that doesn't happen often. What's more, we didn't sound particularly good or anything, and we were freezing our butts off in LT1. However, what we did today was to sit in a circle, turn the lights off, close our eyes and sing. Although this isn't the first time we did this, it felt different, somehow. I felt more in touch with the music, and could almost feel everyone's voices weave in and out of mine.
Going to school tomorrow morning for some Science Research Symposium thing. I do hope it's interesting. Will also be wearing my college uniform tomorrow... the first time I'm doing so. Will miss my St. Nick's pinafore very badly though. The HC skirt is... icky. Meh.
And you know what? I've come to realise that I can never be satisfied... the grass is always greener on the other side. Only recently have I come to realise that that phrase is just... so true. I should really sit down and properly count my blessings one day, and that's something I believe everyone should do, because it reminds us about the little things we tend to forget and take for granted. It reminds us that we aren't as much of a loser as we think we are after all, and that sometimes, we have much more than others that we should be thankful for. So when I start to go down the well-travelled path of self-deprecation in my head, I start thinking about all these things, and what I can do to make the situation better. I think a lot of my sadness comes from inside me, a lot of stray thoughts running amok in my head and wreaking havoc, and so to rectify my problem and make myself happier, I'll have to start with the most basic thing -- amending myself.
You know what? I'm feeling quite happy. It was choir today, oddly, something that doesn't happen often. What's more, we didn't sound particularly good or anything, and we were freezing our butts off in LT1. However, what we did today was to sit in a circle, turn the lights off, close our eyes and sing. Although this isn't the first time we did this, it felt different, somehow. I felt more in touch with the music, and could almost feel everyone's voices weave in and out of mine.
Going to school tomorrow morning for some Science Research Symposium thing. I do hope it's interesting. Will also be wearing my college uniform tomorrow... the first time I'm doing so. Will miss my St. Nick's pinafore very badly though. The HC skirt is... icky. Meh.
And you know what? I've come to realise that I can never be satisfied... the grass is always greener on the other side. Only recently have I come to realise that that phrase is just... so true. I should really sit down and properly count my blessings one day, and that's something I believe everyone should do, because it reminds us about the little things we tend to forget and take for granted. It reminds us that we aren't as much of a loser as we think we are after all, and that sometimes, we have much more than others that we should be thankful for. So when I start to go down the well-travelled path of self-deprecation in my head, I start thinking about all these things, and what I can do to make the situation better. I think a lot of my sadness comes from inside me, a lot of stray thoughts running amok in my head and wreaking havoc, and so to rectify my problem and make myself happier, I'll have to start with the most basic thing -- amending myself.
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