05 March, 2005
(0 ) 00:46 Haven't blogged for almost a week, apologies. I won't do a recap of the week because right now I'm kind of tired and I don't remember. Hmm, played badminton after school on Wednesday, squash on Thursday, and had a 34 outing today. Yup. Today was a good day, and also a bad one too.
Choir today sucked to high hell. I don't know what to say, and I wouldn't say anything about it anyway, because I don't think it'd be appropriate. It sucked because of internal (i.e. myself, us J1s, etc.) reasons, and not because of anything else. *sigh* All I can say, is that it was a really terrifically demoralising session. We ended really late, and everyone's emotions were running astray. Felt kind of guilty to the 34 people 'cos they had to wait for me. Terribly sorry to everyone. It was 7.45pm when I finally went to meet them, I think.
Anyway, went to Pastamania at Cineleisure (again!) to have dinner. Everyone was starving like mad, because for most of us, lunch was an event that figured rather early in our timetables (read: 11.40am), and haven't eaten since. After eating, we walked around a bit. When we were at Wisma, about to go to Orchard MRT, Wei Jie was buying some bread at BreadTalk. But the cashier took so long to serve him that the security guard closed the entrance to the MRT station! Everyone was quite pissed, haha, seeing that we had to walk aboveground and one whole big round just to get to the damn MRT station.
The 34 outing didn't sound like much, but I enjoyed myself immensely. I swear, it's the people that make Hwa Chong worth staying on. For a lot of us, what is tying us down is the class, and most importantly, the people in it. If I had to leave the class, I'd most certainly not mind going to another JC altogether. It's true though, that the class is obviously splintered, and cliques are beginning to form. This is inevitable, but not a good sign. Perhaps if we handle it right, it'd be advantageous to the class, but these things are delicate and it's easy to go wrong. Already I am beginning to think that we (Jierong, Da En, Poh Wei, You Jin, Rachel, Wei Jie, Lay Ning and I, plus a few more occasional people like Eng Liang and Qi Han) are beginning to form a little 'clique' ourselves. I can try to defend ourselves by saying that we are the only locals who bother about the class at all, but isn't that reiterating the divide between locals and PRCs? At the same time, I'm wondering: are we making ourselves too inaccessible to the rest of the class? Are we isolating ourselves by building this image of a picture-perfect relationship between ourselves? Is our apparent 'exclusiveness' the reason why sometimes it seems that other people find it hard to approach us? I don't know how true my statements are, or what others feel, and so I don't dare to post this on the class blog. I guess I'll keep my musings to myself.
Talking about the class blog, I find myself hesitating a lot of the time before I actually post something up on it. I fear what others think of what I write. Sometimes I think I read too much into things. Hmm.
Okay, I really lost my stamina while thinking about the situation in our class right now. I guess I'll call it a day (night). Haha.
Choir today sucked to high hell. I don't know what to say, and I wouldn't say anything about it anyway, because I don't think it'd be appropriate. It sucked because of internal (i.e. myself, us J1s, etc.) reasons, and not because of anything else. *sigh* All I can say, is that it was a really terrifically demoralising session. We ended really late, and everyone's emotions were running astray. Felt kind of guilty to the 34 people 'cos they had to wait for me. Terribly sorry to everyone. It was 7.45pm when I finally went to meet them, I think.
Anyway, went to Pastamania at Cineleisure (again!) to have dinner. Everyone was starving like mad, because for most of us, lunch was an event that figured rather early in our timetables (read: 11.40am), and haven't eaten since. After eating, we walked around a bit. When we were at Wisma, about to go to Orchard MRT, Wei Jie was buying some bread at BreadTalk. But the cashier took so long to serve him that the security guard closed the entrance to the MRT station! Everyone was quite pissed, haha, seeing that we had to walk aboveground and one whole big round just to get to the damn MRT station.
The 34 outing didn't sound like much, but I enjoyed myself immensely. I swear, it's the people that make Hwa Chong worth staying on. For a lot of us, what is tying us down is the class, and most importantly, the people in it. If I had to leave the class, I'd most certainly not mind going to another JC altogether. It's true though, that the class is obviously splintered, and cliques are beginning to form. This is inevitable, but not a good sign. Perhaps if we handle it right, it'd be advantageous to the class, but these things are delicate and it's easy to go wrong. Already I am beginning to think that we (Jierong, Da En, Poh Wei, You Jin, Rachel, Wei Jie, Lay Ning and I, plus a few more occasional people like Eng Liang and Qi Han) are beginning to form a little 'clique' ourselves. I can try to defend ourselves by saying that we are the only locals who bother about the class at all, but isn't that reiterating the divide between locals and PRCs? At the same time, I'm wondering: are we making ourselves too inaccessible to the rest of the class? Are we isolating ourselves by building this image of a picture-perfect relationship between ourselves? Is our apparent 'exclusiveness' the reason why sometimes it seems that other people find it hard to approach us? I don't know how true my statements are, or what others feel, and so I don't dare to post this on the class blog. I guess I'll keep my musings to myself.
Talking about the class blog, I find myself hesitating a lot of the time before I actually post something up on it. I fear what others think of what I write. Sometimes I think I read too much into things. Hmm.
Okay, I really lost my stamina while thinking about the situation in our class right now. I guess I'll call it a day (night). Haha.