29 April, 2004
There were so many things I wanted to say. I think I’ll go slowly.
Did my 2.4 run yesterday with a timing of 15:03 min. It’s not very good, but it’s half a minute of improvement. I don’t know. I could have gone faster. My third round was at the 7 minute mark, but I guess I died in the last three. XD
Had my blasted 5-items today. Oh well, as usual, one item pulled me down to a bloody Silver. I usually jump quite far for standing broad jump, but I don’t know what came over me today. T_T I think it’s because my legs are still cramping from yesterday’s run. Argh. And you know what’s stupendously unfair? Classes from Justice onwards get to do their 5-items NEXT WEEK. And they got to go to assembly. 88.3FM DJ came to our school today and we all MISSED IT. And the other classes get to recover from the run. This is an outrage!
Had English “remedial” yesterday and I admit it was quite interesting. I mean, I expected to be sitting at a desk and rotting away. Considering I had a headache, I think I participated quite actively. I think everyone was rather enthusiastic. LOL.
Oh and guess bloody what. Next Saturday is the literature seminar and my group is going to present. And Jeya just told us we need to put points instead of quotes into our presentation, and we were like ???!!! We have like ZERO time and we have Chinese Prelims are on MONDAY. This is unfair unfair unfair unfair. UGH. ><
And SEVERAL PEOPLE’S ATTITUDES leave much to be desired. I don’t know what’s wrong with he/she/it/them (I won’t be specific here). Nothing I do seems to be able to please him/her/it/them. It took SO MUCH of me to not blow up in his/her/it/their face and scream and shout. I’m not saying that I’m a model human being. I’m not saying I’m perfect. But the way he/she/it/they is/are acting toward me (probably even “us”) is just so frustrating. I can’t go into details here. If you’re a gossip and would like to know more, email me or something. ^^
I’m still rather riled up.
Gosh, I really shouldn’t be online.
I have a chinese idiom (cheng2 yu3...) test TOMORROW. Though it won’t be counted, it’s a good time for me to actually start studying for it anyway. ARGH. I still have so much to do. I think not going online yesterda already took so much of my willpower. Haha.
Did my 2.4 run yesterday with a timing of 15:03 min. It’s not very good, but it’s half a minute of improvement. I don’t know. I could have gone faster. My third round was at the 7 minute mark, but I guess I died in the last three. XD
Had my blasted 5-items today. Oh well, as usual, one item pulled me down to a bloody Silver. I usually jump quite far for standing broad jump, but I don’t know what came over me today. T_T I think it’s because my legs are still cramping from yesterday’s run. Argh. And you know what’s stupendously unfair? Classes from Justice onwards get to do their 5-items NEXT WEEK. And they got to go to assembly. 88.3FM DJ came to our school today and we all MISSED IT. And the other classes get to recover from the run. This is an outrage!
Had English “remedial” yesterday and I admit it was quite interesting. I mean, I expected to be sitting at a desk and rotting away. Considering I had a headache, I think I participated quite actively. I think everyone was rather enthusiastic. LOL.
Oh and guess bloody what. Next Saturday is the literature seminar and my group is going to present. And Jeya just told us we need to put points instead of quotes into our presentation, and we were like ???!!! We have like ZERO time and we have Chinese Prelims are on MONDAY. This is unfair unfair unfair unfair. UGH. ><
And SEVERAL PEOPLE’S ATTITUDES leave much to be desired. I don’t know what’s wrong with he/she/it/them (I won’t be specific here). Nothing I do seems to be able to please him/her/it/them. It took SO MUCH of me to not blow up in his/her/it/their face and scream and shout. I’m not saying that I’m a model human being. I’m not saying I’m perfect. But the way he/she/it/they is/are acting toward me (probably even “us”) is just so frustrating. I can’t go into details here. If you’re a gossip and would like to know more, email me or something. ^^
I’m still rather riled up.
Gosh, I really shouldn’t be online.
I have a chinese idiom (cheng2 yu3...) test TOMORROW. Though it won’t be counted, it’s a good time for me to actually start studying for it anyway. ARGH. I still have so much to do. I think not going online yesterda already took so much of my willpower. Haha.
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Today was such a boring day. I was slightly irked in the morning. The whole class went down to participate in a brutal game of football. *yawn* Was left with the class key. Buried myself in Chindi which I brought to school. Was at a climax point! George, Tor and Alyx were going back to the chindi to explore it further. UUUGHHHH! And then we had to go down for ASSembly.
After assembly we had to go to the Drama Studio for those JC talks. The first one was (surprise surprise) NUS. What a JC. I have nothing against the university, but I personally think that it’s a little early. Okay, it’s fine if you’re just introducing the university to us, but damn, the guy had to go into SO MUCH DETAIL I was going to CRY.
Had recess after that. Was rushing up and down with Kathy. Ugh. And I had a headache too. This headache has been hounding me for... two days. Almost. Because I’m slightly sick, I think. I still have it now. It’s annoying. It’s not the POUND POUND POUND I’M HERE kind of headache. It’s more like the SLOWWWW SLIIIIIICE SLOWWWW SLIIIIICE kind of heache. I hate drawn out pain.
After recess, set back in the Drama Studio for HCJC. Oh my God. I am SO intimidated by that JC. *shivers* FOUR POINTS? Like, oh my god, I can’t even get TEN POINTS AFTER DEDUCTION. That school is waaaay out of my league. Dude, it’s so SCARY. So we spent an hour and a half gasping for air.
After that the sec 4 level split. First four classes went to check our CCA records, which seriously didn’t need one and a half hours. Ugh. The MPR is SO stuffy. I was breaking out in sweat every few minutes. >< Very bad. And it worsened my headache.
Finally! Time to go home. Went home myself. Met Denise at the bus stop! Haha. Took the MRT to Yishun with her. Then met Shi Hui, and sat till Yew Tee. I brought my discman to school today. Was listening to Shinhwa. Yay.
Headache went POUND POUND POUND. It decided it didn’t want to be Mr Nice Guy anymore. Damn.
Going for tuition in about half an hour. Stopping by Jurong Regional. I’m going to look for more Iain Banks books.
After assembly we had to go to the Drama Studio for those JC talks. The first one was (surprise surprise) NUS. What a JC. I have nothing against the university, but I personally think that it’s a little early. Okay, it’s fine if you’re just introducing the university to us, but damn, the guy had to go into SO MUCH DETAIL I was going to CRY.
Had recess after that. Was rushing up and down with Kathy. Ugh. And I had a headache too. This headache has been hounding me for... two days. Almost. Because I’m slightly sick, I think. I still have it now. It’s annoying. It’s not the POUND POUND POUND I’M HERE kind of headache. It’s more like the SLOWWWW SLIIIIIICE SLOWWWW SLIIIIICE kind of heache. I hate drawn out pain.
After recess, set back in the Drama Studio for HCJC. Oh my God. I am SO intimidated by that JC. *shivers* FOUR POINTS? Like, oh my god, I can’t even get TEN POINTS AFTER DEDUCTION. That school is waaaay out of my league. Dude, it’s so SCARY. So we spent an hour and a half gasping for air.
After that the sec 4 level split. First four classes went to check our CCA records, which seriously didn’t need one and a half hours. Ugh. The MPR is SO stuffy. I was breaking out in sweat every few minutes. >< Very bad. And it worsened my headache.
Finally! Time to go home. Went home myself. Met Denise at the bus stop! Haha. Took the MRT to Yishun with her. Then met Shi Hui, and sat till Yew Tee. I brought my discman to school today. Was listening to Shinhwa. Yay.
Headache went POUND POUND POUND. It decided it didn’t want to be Mr Nice Guy anymore. Damn.
Going for tuition in about half an hour. Stopping by Jurong Regional. I’m going to look for more Iain Banks books.
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26 April, 2004
Time is not on my side. There is not enough time to finish revision for all SEVEN books (1A/B, 2A/B, 3A/B, 4A) for Chinese Prelims the Monday after next. Zhao ju (sentence... making?) is my WORST WORST WORST. Next to, maybe, the comprehension. ARGH.
Anywa, tuition has been changed to SATURDAY. There goes my Saturday. Though I now have my Sunday free, it’s not the same anymore. ><
I really have nothing else to say here. Except that I should sleep earlier. I have little sleep. I don’t know how I’m going to survive...
... this leads me to the 2.4KM RUN. ARGH. I’m so physically inept I think I’ll just die. The last time I ran that 2 weeks ago, I was constantly wishing I’d trip halfway so badly I’m kill my nose and get sent to hospital for reconstructive surgery.
I should stop letting my imagination run this wild. Bad bad bad.
I haven’t started revising for maths! I hate transformations. Meerrhhh.
Anywa, tuition has been changed to SATURDAY. There goes my Saturday. Though I now have my Sunday free, it’s not the same anymore. ><
I really have nothing else to say here. Except that I should sleep earlier. I have little sleep. I don’t know how I’m going to survive...
... this leads me to the 2.4KM RUN. ARGH. I’m so physically inept I think I’ll just die. The last time I ran that 2 weeks ago, I was constantly wishing I’d trip halfway so badly I’m kill my nose and get sent to hospital for reconstructive surgery.
I should stop letting my imagination run this wild. Bad bad bad.
I haven’t started revising for maths! I hate transformations. Meerrhhh.
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25 April, 2004
The HCJC concert was quite good, and The Esplanade was even better. I have been there before, but never inside. The security checks were rather tight though, bag checks and stuff.
Anyway no, it wasn’t that bad after all, socially, I mean. I still felt self-concious half the time, but it wasn’t that bad.
I am terribly pessimistic, but I believe that in being so, it reduces the disappointment I have when things don’t turn out o be what I expected.
Anyway, had the Australian English Competition thing. It’s so cool! I wish I could take it again. On the practice test I got a 72/80. Not bad, huh? I hope I get a good score on that competition.
^^ I got a 33/40 for Physics! Yay. Happy! Because I studied for that chapter. Weeeee. However we got our PPR back today and my L1R5 is like... 16. Argh, I keep on “increasing” every term. I want to be a ten-pointer (SIXPOINTER!) again. But I’d have to work really really hard.
Anyway no, it wasn’t that bad after all, socially, I mean. I still felt self-concious half the time, but it wasn’t that bad.
I am terribly pessimistic, but I believe that in being so, it reduces the disappointment I have when things don’t turn out o be what I expected.
Anyway, had the Australian English Competition thing. It’s so cool! I wish I could take it again. On the practice test I got a 72/80. Not bad, huh? I hope I get a good score on that competition.
^^ I got a 33/40 for Physics! Yay. Happy! Because I studied for that chapter. Weeeee. However we got our PPR back today and my L1R5 is like... 16. Argh, I keep on “increasing” every term. I want to be a ten-pointer (SIXPOINTER!) again. But I’d have to work really really hard.
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23 April, 2004
LOOK at what I found while searching for “greyprism”? Scroll down a bit until you see “greyprism”. Cool huh? ^^ Before anyone gets any wrong ideas, I didn’t make it. Not in a million years. Haha.
Anyway haven’t been coming online for a few days. Feels like eternity. Chinese prelims the week after. 2.4km/5-item NAPFA next Wed/Thur. Arghhhhh. Can’t stand it. Can’t take it. Oh well.
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Note from the present: The website doesn't actually exist anymore, but I used the Wayback Machine and got a picture of what I was talking about. Take a look at it:
It actually says "PRISM" and "grey", but WHO CARES> :D
(23/01/07)
Anyway haven’t been coming online for a few days. Feels like eternity. Chinese prelims the week after. 2.4km/5-item NAPFA next Wed/Thur. Arghhhhh. Can’t stand it. Can’t take it. Oh well.
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Note from the present: The website doesn't actually exist anymore, but I used the Wayback Machine and got a picture of what I was talking about. Take a look at it:
It actually says "PRISM" and "grey", but WHO CARES> :D
(23/01/07)
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18 April, 2004
Gym class. Not exactly, but it looked like it because everyone was in PE attire and there were mats and stuff around. The kids looked to be about 10 years old.
Boy A and Boy B were playing together, but Boy A gets angry at Boy B so Boy B wanders off looking for something else to do. He spots a person covered with a piece of white cloth and jumps on her in a playful way, as if saying, hey, come and play too. But the girl is startled and runs away, toward the middle of the room where there is a rectangular hole. She falls through.
Below there is a huge trampoline. She hits it and rebounds, going all the way up, almost touching the edges of the rectangular hole again, but her limp form falls back, and lands with a slap onto he trampoline without rebounding again. The room where the trampoline is in (if you can call it a room) is extremely big too, and the ceiling is extremely high.
The girl awakes, and suddenly I am the girl. She (I?) loo at her (my?) watch, and see numbers falling rapidly. I feel suddenly, so sleepy and weak and useless and just feel so sleepy... so sleepy... and as I put my head down to succumb to this yearning, I notice the numbers on my watch again and see them falling even further. Then I realise the numbers represent my heart rate and how it’s going to stop... and then I panic ans start to fear and these numbers begin rising again, rising and rising so rapidly I feel that I’m going to burst...
Then I don’t remember any more.
I had a few dreams last night. And I realise something. Not just about what I dreamt about last night. I tend to dream about me leaving things in buildings, then attempting to get them back. But I never succeed. I’m always trying and trying, and then I wake up.
Boy A and Boy B were playing together, but Boy A gets angry at Boy B so Boy B wanders off looking for something else to do. He spots a person covered with a piece of white cloth and jumps on her in a playful way, as if saying, hey, come and play too. But the girl is startled and runs away, toward the middle of the room where there is a rectangular hole. She falls through.
Below there is a huge trampoline. She hits it and rebounds, going all the way up, almost touching the edges of the rectangular hole again, but her limp form falls back, and lands with a slap onto he trampoline without rebounding again. The room where the trampoline is in (if you can call it a room) is extremely big too, and the ceiling is extremely high.
The girl awakes, and suddenly I am the girl. She (I?) loo at her (my?) watch, and see numbers falling rapidly. I feel suddenly, so sleepy and weak and useless and just feel so sleepy... so sleepy... and as I put my head down to succumb to this yearning, I notice the numbers on my watch again and see them falling even further. Then I realise the numbers represent my heart rate and how it’s going to stop... and then I panic ans start to fear and these numbers begin rising again, rising and rising so rapidly I feel that I’m going to burst...
Then I don’t remember any more.
I had a few dreams last night. And I realise something. Not just about what I dreamt about last night. I tend to dream about me leaving things in buildings, then attempting to get them back. But I never succeed. I’m always trying and trying, and then I wake up.
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15 April, 2004
I’m feeling more and more distant from the choir. I feel so sad because of that. I no longer feel joy when we sound nice because it’s not the Sop 1s who are good. I feel as if I suck so bad. I don’t know. Every time I open my mouth and sing, I feel as if I’m the one being the culprit, singing off-key or off-beat or not following her conducting. I’m sorry to say I have no fighting spirit. And when I see her praise the other sections I find myself feeling so jealous. And rather unjustified. I know I sang reasonably well! Why then does she put down the Sop 1s so? Okay. I know my complaints are unfounded because as a section we can do so much more. But I think we’re just not trying hard enough.
To tell the truth, we sounded not bad today during practice.
Anyway reached home at 2015 today. Stayed back to help with the props/banner. !! There was a dead cockroach on the banner. Haha. At one point I suggested painting it silver with my paintbrush, LOL. Okay.
I’m tired. I want to sleep. I shouldn’t be online. I procrastinate too much. I have two tests tomorrow. I admit, I have studied a little, but it is not enough. It is not enough. What is enough?
To tell the truth, we sounded not bad today during practice.
Anyway reached home at 2015 today. Stayed back to help with the props/banner. !! There was a dead cockroach on the banner. Haha. At one point I suggested painting it silver with my paintbrush, LOL. Okay.
I’m tired. I want to sleep. I shouldn’t be online. I procrastinate too much. I have two tests tomorrow. I admit, I have studied a little, but it is not enough. It is not enough. What is enough?
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13 April, 2004
I seem to be blogging everyday. ^^ Not too good a habit, because that involves coming online. But you know what? Am on my dad’s laptop now. Less distractions (*coughBOOKMARKEDFANFICTIONcough*) and stuff, so all I do is just read a few forum posts, blog, and check out other people’s blogs. Yeah, just stuff like that.
Today we had rehearsals for sports day. Oh my gosh, green house is so disappointing. During the house cheer, it was so half-hearted, it was so freaking obvious no one knew how to cheer. >< That is what happens when no one bothers to come down for cheer prac. SEE SEE SEE SEE???? It’s their freaking fault. Ugh!
Green house is so screwed. I’m sorry to be a damper on everything, but we’re screwed, all right. Arghhh. We’ll never even come in SECOND.
Choir was so blah today. Got off early because Ms Lim wanted to practice with the people going to Italy. ARGH. I wanna go so BAD. Anyway while waiting for dad to come, was in the Albenez with Denise, Si Hui, Bernadine and Pam. Pam is so cool. ^^ Red house cheer routine is damn good. Huhhh. Pam was practicing her cheer moves. Ahh. ^^ She’s good. Okay. I shall not digress. The sopranos were so out of it today. Kept on constantly going sharp. So clear that they weren’t giving it their all. So clear that they weren’t paying attention. But I was tired too. Ran around the whole of the morning.
Today we had rehearsals for sports day. Oh my gosh, green house is so disappointing. During the house cheer, it was so half-hearted, it was so freaking obvious no one knew how to cheer. >< That is what happens when no one bothers to come down for cheer prac. SEE SEE SEE SEE???? It’s their freaking fault. Ugh!
Green house is so screwed. I’m sorry to be a damper on everything, but we’re screwed, all right. Arghhh. We’ll never even come in SECOND.
Choir was so blah today. Got off early because Ms Lim wanted to practice with the people going to Italy. ARGH. I wanna go so BAD. Anyway while waiting for dad to come, was in the Albenez with Denise, Si Hui, Bernadine and Pam. Pam is so cool. ^^ Red house cheer routine is damn good. Huhhh. Pam was practicing her cheer moves. Ahh. ^^ She’s good. Okay. I shall not digress. The sopranos were so out of it today. Kept on constantly going sharp. So clear that they weren’t giving it their all. So clear that they weren’t paying attention. But I was tired too. Ran around the whole of the morning.
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12 April, 2004
I did a very bad thing today. No, I’m not proud of it. It was so typical of me to do it, running away, literally. I shan’t go into details.
Had a fun time with my friends today. Good laughs. ^^
Went home by myself today. Haven’t done so in a long time. Nothing’s changed. In fact, the trips seem to get shorter and shorter. Maybe it’s because I slept on the train.
Am online now. For no reasono. Just to blog. And feel happy.
Had a fun time with my friends today. Good laughs. ^^
Went home by myself today. Haven’t done so in a long time. Nothing’s changed. In fact, the trips seem to get shorter and shorter. Maybe it’s because I slept on the train.
Am online now. For no reasono. Just to blog. And feel happy.
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10 April, 2004
Joy to the world, I remodelled. This took me five minutes. HAHA. ^^
It’s so simple. And a bit small. Apologies for the crampyness.
It’s so simple. And a bit small. Apologies for the crampyness.
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I found TPF again which was my life for so very long. No words can express my love for the place and people. I wasn’t there when it started, but I was there waaay back when it was at ITW. I could memorise the URL, but I can no longer. *sad* Oh well.
So many memories.
So many memories.
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09 April, 2004
to bean, if you read this: ^^ No problem. Good things are meant to be shared! Do you mind if I ask you where you are from?
Watching the Orange (?) British Awards now. I love the Orange British Academy of Film and Television Awards. The things they say are just so witty and peppered with humour. XD
Came back from Michelle’s birthday party a while ago. It was rather fun and I did enjoy myself. Haha.
Anyway, was watching Anti-Trust which was showing on channel i just now. From 2100 to 2300. I didn’t catch the beginning though, and it was all very confusing and hard to make sense of, but I finally did at the end, and it’s one heck of an ANTI-MICROSOFT MOVIE. Mwahaha. It was so cool. With Sun Microsystems doing a cameo and using UNIX and declaring OPENSOURCE!! multiple times.
From the official site, “When Milo (Ryan Phillippe) graduates from college and lands his dream job writing software at a multi-billion dollar computer company, he couldn’t be more thrilled. The company’s magnetic founder (Tim Robbins) that he worshiped as a child is now his personal mentor. As he settles into his new position, Milo uncovers some dark secrets about the firm and soon learns that he can’t trust anyone but himself in the high stakes world of computer technology.”
Yeah. And [SPOILER] so I have no idea what the dark secret is, but in the end he somehow stole the source code of Synapse (MICROSOFT!) and publicised it on the web. Haha.
Okay. Shall stop. NOthing else to say anyway. Still watching the Awards. It’s good. ^^
Watching the Orange (?) British Awards now. I love the Orange British Academy of Film and Television Awards. The things they say are just so witty and peppered with humour. XD
Came back from Michelle’s birthday party a while ago. It was rather fun and I did enjoy myself. Haha.
Anyway, was watching Anti-Trust which was showing on channel i just now. From 2100 to 2300. I didn’t catch the beginning though, and it was all very confusing and hard to make sense of, but I finally did at the end, and it’s one heck of an ANTI-MICROSOFT MOVIE. Mwahaha. It was so cool. With Sun Microsystems doing a cameo and using UNIX and declaring OPENSOURCE!! multiple times.
From the official site, “When Milo (Ryan Phillippe) graduates from college and lands his dream job writing software at a multi-billion dollar computer company, he couldn’t be more thrilled. The company’s magnetic founder (Tim Robbins) that he worshiped as a child is now his personal mentor. As he settles into his new position, Milo uncovers some dark secrets about the firm and soon learns that he can’t trust anyone but himself in the high stakes world of computer technology.”
Yeah. And [SPOILER] so I have no idea what the dark secret is, but in the end he somehow stole the source code of Synapse (MICROSOFT!) and publicised it on the web. Haha.
Okay. Shall stop. NOthing else to say anyway. Still watching the Awards. It’s good. ^^
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08 April, 2004
Ahhh, spent the last two hours working on the green house cheer booklet. Oh my gosh, it’s so good. ^^ All the borders are so exact and nice and !!!!! It’s my work! And to think every person will be holidng it in their hands come sports day... this makes me want sports day to come even more. Haha. I’m so egoego.
Anyway day at school was fine today. Nothing particuarly special. Choir was blah. Sec 3s and 4s were doing a SIXPART song. Ohmygosh it’s so difficult. Okay. Maybe not SO difficult. But relatively challenging. XD But it sounds rather okay. GOT THROUGH THE FIRST PAGE OF... 8 bars. Haha. Qingling came visiting! Ohmygosh (I’m repeating this phrase too many times, I know) I so miss my seniors. T_T
Okay enough craptalk. Shall go and read... fanfics. Yesms, shall.
Anyway day at school was fine today. Nothing particuarly special. Choir was blah. Sec 3s and 4s were doing a SIXPART song. Ohmygosh it’s so difficult. Okay. Maybe not SO difficult. But relatively challenging. XD But it sounds rather okay. GOT THROUGH THE FIRST PAGE OF... 8 bars. Haha. Qingling came visiting! Ohmygosh (I’m repeating this phrase too many times, I know) I so miss my seniors. T_T
Okay enough craptalk. Shall go and read... fanfics. Yesms, shall.
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07 April, 2004
I said I’d make it quick yesterday, but I stayed online for one hour instead. And I’m not supposed to be online now, yet I am. I don’t know what draws me to switch my computer on and waste my time. It’s probably the inexorable hatred I have for studying. Yes. And the fact that I lack self control. >< Contemplating on whether I should join WNL or not. I don’t think I should though. No time. And I wouldn’t be able to commit.
So many people were on MC today. Pamela didn’t come so I sat alone today. Poor me. Chemistry sucked. I sucked. I think I will do damn badly. I just lost SIX marks. Because I am stupid. ARGH.
Ran five rounds today. -.-; Dead tired. Huuh. Timing was 12:10, I think. I didn’t even hear the minutes right. I just deduced it from seeing my position. ^^ Five rounds is 2000m. I hate NAPFA! >< I think they came up with it to torture poor souls like mine. But okay, I admit, it’s “good for me”. So I shan’t complain.
Chem tuition... so much homework. Argh.
Sports day is a week away. Curse it.
So many people were on MC today. Pamela didn’t come so I sat alone today. Poor me. Chemistry sucked. I sucked. I think I will do damn badly. I just lost SIX marks. Because I am stupid. ARGH.
Ran five rounds today. -.-; Dead tired. Huuh. Timing was 12:10, I think. I didn’t even hear the minutes right. I just deduced it from seeing my position. ^^ Five rounds is 2000m. I hate NAPFA! >< I think they came up with it to torture poor souls like mine. But okay, I admit, it’s “good for me”. So I shan’t complain.
Chem tuition... so much homework. Argh.
Sports day is a week away. Curse it.
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06 April, 2004
I promised myself I’ll only go online for a little tiny bit (bad bad bad) so I’ll make it quick. ^^
Slept at 2130 yesterday! Is there something wrong with me? I’ve been sleeping a lot these few days. In fact I feel like giving up on chemistry and going back to sleep. Although slept early, still felt tired in school. Huuuh. No worky.
Dratted upper sec house cheer prac. No one turned up! Hooray.
Didn’t eat recess. Binged on Pamela’s Ritter Sport though. Ehhh. Guilt chocolate.
Mr Gan was terrifically, extremely, ultimately boring today. Zhuang was her typical self. Late and draggy. And she kept on talking about me. -.-; Picking on me. Stupid Zhuang. Grr. Well I know she doesn’t like me so shut up, d00d.
Anyway was eating lunch. It was super spicy. Stomach boiled and fired during choir after that. Shall learn my lesson and not eat spicy food before choir. Arrrgh. But it was a good lunch, espcially after skipping recess. T_T
Was caught by Pam (another Pamela, hehe) right after I finished my lunch to help her carry stuff for Red House. Am I a pan4 tu2 (double-crosser)? I’m helping Red House! Got to get a look at the teacher’s resource room. Gaah, their toilets are so nice. T_T And they got a nice couch and TELEVISION. Ehh. ><
Anyone heard of Yellowcard? Pam let me hear a bit of their songs. They were good. ^^
And that was the chronicle of today. Yay. Three-day-weekend, thanks to Good Friday! Wishing all Christians a holy Good Friday. ^^ Thanks for the holiday! Haha. Going for Michelle’s birthday party. Ooo, hide-and-seek in THEDARK? Interesting. Am prolly going to get her something from Kino. ^^
Chem test tomorrow. Chinese the day after. Not very stressful though. Quite happy. Finished AAALL my homework. Ain’t I a good girl. But I feel as if I’m slacking because I’m sleeping so early and coming online, haha. Shall check the fanfics I’m reading to see if the author’s posted, read stuff, then either go to bed or continue studying. But I don’t feel like it anymore.
Oh shit, just remembered. Tuition tomorrow! And I was so happy too. Gah, damn you, tuition, ruined my mooood.
Slept at 2130 yesterday! Is there something wrong with me? I’ve been sleeping a lot these few days. In fact I feel like giving up on chemistry and going back to sleep. Although slept early, still felt tired in school. Huuuh. No worky.
Dratted upper sec house cheer prac. No one turned up! Hooray.
Didn’t eat recess. Binged on Pamela’s Ritter Sport though. Ehhh. Guilt chocolate.
Mr Gan was terrifically, extremely, ultimately boring today. Zhuang was her typical self. Late and draggy. And she kept on talking about me. -.-; Picking on me. Stupid Zhuang. Grr. Well I know she doesn’t like me so shut up, d00d.
Anyway was eating lunch. It was super spicy. Stomach boiled and fired during choir after that. Shall learn my lesson and not eat spicy food before choir. Arrrgh. But it was a good lunch, espcially after skipping recess. T_T
Was caught by Pam (another Pamela, hehe) right after I finished my lunch to help her carry stuff for Red House. Am I a pan4 tu2 (double-crosser)? I’m helping Red House! Got to get a look at the teacher’s resource room. Gaah, their toilets are so nice. T_T And they got a nice couch and TELEVISION. Ehh. ><
Anyone heard of Yellowcard? Pam let me hear a bit of their songs. They were good. ^^
And that was the chronicle of today. Yay. Three-day-weekend, thanks to Good Friday! Wishing all Christians a holy Good Friday. ^^ Thanks for the holiday! Haha. Going for Michelle’s birthday party. Ooo, hide-and-seek in THEDARK? Interesting. Am prolly going to get her something from Kino. ^^
Chem test tomorrow. Chinese the day after. Not very stressful though. Quite happy. Finished AAALL my homework. Ain’t I a good girl. But I feel as if I’m slacking because I’m sleeping so early and coming online, haha. Shall check the fanfics I’m reading to see if the author’s posted, read stuff, then either go to bed or continue studying. But I don’t feel like it anymore.
Oh shit, just remembered. Tuition tomorrow! And I was so happy too. Gah, damn you, tuition, ruined my mooood.
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04 April, 2004
Oh yay. I haven’t studied all day! Tuition wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. He just went through the test paper. But I don’t think he’d be so kind on Wednesday during chem tuition. Oh did I mention? There’s a new girl in my physics tuition class. Yayness.
Oh well. Tomorrow is Monday. Another cycle. Another episode. More exhaustion.
Guess what? I slept at 2030 yesterday and woke up at 0830 today. TWELVE hours of sleep! I didn’t think I could do it. I woke up, read the first part of today’s paper, then went upstairs and attempted o do chinese homeowkr. However I felt too tired to continue and went back to sleep at 1030, wakiing up only at 1230. -.-; Someone should stop me... I sleep way too much. =/
Dad’s watching Robocop on TV and so am I. They’re saying “OCP is lying to you!” Haha. This is tremendously funny 'cos I’ve a friend who we call OCP as they’re her initials. *cracks up*
I like the Robocop movies. ^^ Been watching them since I was a kid. The Terminator movies too. H'asta lavista, baby! Haven’t caught T3 yet though. Will, no matter how bad it sucks. Have watched 1 and 2 numerous times.
You know what? I think I might sleep early today too.
Gah, I am hopeless.
Oh well. Tomorrow is Monday. Another cycle. Another episode. More exhaustion.
Guess what? I slept at 2030 yesterday and woke up at 0830 today. TWELVE hours of sleep! I didn’t think I could do it. I woke up, read the first part of today’s paper, then went upstairs and attempted o do chinese homeowkr. However I felt too tired to continue and went back to sleep at 1030, wakiing up only at 1230. -.-; Someone should stop me... I sleep way too much. =/
Dad’s watching Robocop on TV and so am I. They’re saying “OCP is lying to you!” Haha. This is tremendously funny 'cos I’ve a friend who we call OCP as they’re her initials. *cracks up*
I like the Robocop movies. ^^ Been watching them since I was a kid. The Terminator movies too. H'asta lavista, baby! Haven’t caught T3 yet though. Will, no matter how bad it sucks. Have watched 1 and 2 numerous times.
You know what? I think I might sleep early today too.
Gah, I am hopeless.
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It’s OOOOVERRR! I can’t belive it. ^^ It’s over it’s over it’s over! And even if we have to present the blasted lit project again, I hope we don’t have to work on it ANYMORE.
Tuition later. I hate hate hate it. UGH.
Tuition later. I hate hate hate it. UGH.
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03 April, 2004
warning: self-deprecating post ahead.
Reading the testimonials people leave him makes me feel like shit. Ah, shut up. You know, Cerah, just shut up. And stop talking to yourself.
Hate this sense of failure, like everything I achieve is so meaningless and worthless. Like everything I do is not good enough.
On a lighter note, finished fixing up the stupid freaking literature project as best as we can. I really hate it. It can roast on a spit on the last level of hell.
I have a nagging feeling that Jeya will be angry. I don’t know why. I feel so bad, making her come so early? I don’t know. I don’t know anything.
You know I feel that I’m being an ass in school. I shouldn’t show or express how I really feel. It’s selfish of me, isn’t it? Because I’m affecting people around me. The way I talk, the way I look, the way I behave. But I don’t know. it’s so difficult and so hard to juggle everything at one go.
And I tell myself, you can do better, you just need to try a little harder, a little harder... but the problem is, I either never start trying, or I give up halfway. Or I just don’t succeed. I feel like I’m struggling, like I run out of breath way too fast. I wish my studies could be like how I feel when I run. Good going at first, then a little strain. Then there’s a point where I feel like giving up, but I press on, and then the pain seems to go away and I just go on and on and on. And the feeling when you stop is so great, like a wave of relief washing over you. I’m not making sense, am I? Haha.
There is no need for me to make sense. I’m talking to myself here. No one listens. No one wants to listen. When I talk, I don’t know. There’s just so much frustration in my voice. I sound like I’m angry all he time. I don’t know how to express myself. Maybe I really am angry. Angry at how I can' control my emotions, angry a how other people seem so successful.
Maybe people do try to listen. I think they do. I believe they do try their very best. But I’m not helping myself. Everything I do backfires. I can’t even help myself.
I can’t help. I can’t think. I can’t speak.
Reading the testimonials people leave him makes me feel like shit. Ah, shut up. You know, Cerah, just shut up. And stop talking to yourself.
Hate this sense of failure, like everything I achieve is so meaningless and worthless. Like everything I do is not good enough.
On a lighter note, finished fixing up the stupid freaking literature project as best as we can. I really hate it. It can roast on a spit on the last level of hell.
I have a nagging feeling that Jeya will be angry. I don’t know why. I feel so bad, making her come so early? I don’t know. I don’t know anything.
You know I feel that I’m being an ass in school. I shouldn’t show or express how I really feel. It’s selfish of me, isn’t it? Because I’m affecting people around me. The way I talk, the way I look, the way I behave. But I don’t know. it’s so difficult and so hard to juggle everything at one go.
And I tell myself, you can do better, you just need to try a little harder, a little harder... but the problem is, I either never start trying, or I give up halfway. Or I just don’t succeed. I feel like I’m struggling, like I run out of breath way too fast. I wish my studies could be like how I feel when I run. Good going at first, then a little strain. Then there’s a point where I feel like giving up, but I press on, and then the pain seems to go away and I just go on and on and on. And the feeling when you stop is so great, like a wave of relief washing over you. I’m not making sense, am I? Haha.
There is no need for me to make sense. I’m talking to myself here. No one listens. No one wants to listen. When I talk, I don’t know. There’s just so much frustration in my voice. I sound like I’m angry all he time. I don’t know how to express myself. Maybe I really am angry. Angry at how I can' control my emotions, angry a how other people seem so successful.
Maybe people do try to listen. I think they do. I believe they do try their very best. But I’m not helping myself. Everything I do backfires. I can’t even help myself.
I can’t help. I can’t think. I can’t speak.
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02 April, 2004
Am I exaggerating? Am I? I probably am. I am blowing up things because I am a self-centred, egocentric freak. Everything revolves around me, and me only. Doesn’t it? I never knew any other fact in my entire life because my life only consists of
me.
me.
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01 April, 2004
Eating chocolate Hello Pandas. They’re not crunchy anymore. Ehh. Need to buy a new... can. Yep. A 450g can of chocolate Hello Pandas. !! Heavenly bliss.
Anyway, am up late at night again! To fix the stupid powerpoint because we must present it to the whole cohort on SATURDAY which is about THREE days away.
We are so pressed for time. Oinnng. T_T
We were only told YESTERDAY. But we were too happy and over the moon about reaping the fruits of our labour. Yeah yeah, we shouldn’t have. But we didn’t have time to meet up yesterday anyway. Look down and note how late I came back. -.-;
Anyway, I haven’t studied for GEOGRAPHY which I am so going to fail. >< Help me. *drowns* And for tomorrow’s lit test? I totally don’t know how to write literature essays. Arghh. What’s the point of doing well for the presentation if I can’t organise my thoughts in 10 seconds. I hate literature. I’m not going to take it in JC. Never ever again.
Okay. I can’t say I hate literature. But it’s such a pain to sit for a paper.
Anyway, am up late at night again! To fix the stupid powerpoint because we must present it to the whole cohort on SATURDAY which is about THREE days away.
We are so pressed for time. Oinnng. T_T
We were only told YESTERDAY. But we were too happy and over the moon about reaping the fruits of our labour. Yeah yeah, we shouldn’t have. But we didn’t have time to meet up yesterday anyway. Look down and note how late I came back. -.-;
Anyway, I haven’t studied for GEOGRAPHY which I am so going to fail. >< Help me. *drowns* And for tomorrow’s lit test? I totally don’t know how to write literature essays. Arghh. What’s the point of doing well for the presentation if I can’t organise my thoughts in 10 seconds. I hate literature. I’m not going to take it in JC. Never ever again.
Okay. I can’t say I hate literature. But it’s such a pain to sit for a paper.
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