30 March, 2004
Just got back from tuition. ^^ And it wasn’t so bad, after all, except that it was just so
COLD.
Brr.
And yes, my tuition classmates didn’t stand me up, haha. ^^ They were there. The class was so big. -.-; Like, I think 11 people? Squeezed like sardines. Haha. But still soooo cold. Freezing still.
Anyway!! AM SO FREAKING HAPPY! Our group did super well for our literature project!! If you read I think entry 8-10 (more or less), you can see that I didn’t sleep the whole day! just because of the stupid freaking lit project. Haha. I really sacrificed so much... and our work really PAID OFF. We got an 84/100, I think, and that’s super good, the highest in our class. ^^ I can’t believe it! Still can’t believe it!! XD
COLD.
Brr.
And yes, my tuition classmates didn’t stand me up, haha. ^^ They were there. The class was so big. -.-; Like, I think 11 people? Squeezed like sardines. Haha. But still soooo cold. Freezing still.
Anyway!! AM SO FREAKING HAPPY! Our group did super well for our literature project!! If you read I think entry 8-10 (more or less), you can see that I didn’t sleep the whole day! just because of the stupid freaking lit project. Haha. I really sacrificed so much... and our work really PAID OFF. We got an 84/100, I think, and that’s super good, the highest in our class. ^^ I can’t believe it! Still can’t believe it!! XD
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29 March, 2004
Yaaah. Am online AGAIN!!! Bad me. ^^ But kind of couldn’t care less. Am online actually to do the stupid survey (I haven’t seen it and I don’t know what it’s about) that Wong asked (no, threatened) us to do. Yep. And to redo the rebuttal paragraph. Nair didn’t tell us it was a rebuttal paragraph. -.-; Durrhhh.
School was fine today. Monday is slack daaay!
Am so pissed at my physics/chem tuition teacher. >< Have to go for chem tuition tomorrow at Tiong Bahru Plaza. WTF?? Why make me go to a STRANGE STRANGE STRANGE place with even STRANGER PEOPLE?? I’m freaking out now as we speak. No NO nOnONOONONONO. Please let it not be strange. Please let the people be nice. Please let my tuition class people be there. They’d better not skip it or I will just MURDER them.
Am clinging on to any last bit of
hope.
But other than that, am feeling fine. ^^
Did I tell you? I finished Ship of Fools (Unto Leviathan). It’s good, though not fantastic (and the Enderverse comes to mind!! ^^). Reading Earth by David Brin. Just started, so no opinions yet, except that I think the net feeds between chapters is quite cool. But it’s what you would typically expect when the Earth is degenerating into an ecological disaster.
Okay. I’m done. See you guys in... how long? I don’t know. Maybe Wednesday! Oooh. Singapore versus Japan in World Cup qualifiers! Singapore’s so going to get SMASHed! Bad, but haha, I want to watch the football match. ^^
School was fine today. Monday is slack daaay!
Am so pissed at my physics/chem tuition teacher. >< Have to go for chem tuition tomorrow at Tiong Bahru Plaza. WTF?? Why make me go to a STRANGE STRANGE STRANGE place with even STRANGER PEOPLE?? I’m freaking out now as we speak. No NO nOnONOONONONO. Please let it not be strange. Please let the people be nice. Please let my tuition class people be there. They’d better not skip it or I will just MURDER them.
Am clinging on to any last bit of
hope.
But other than that, am feeling fine. ^^
Did I tell you? I finished Ship of Fools (Unto Leviathan). It’s good, though not fantastic (and the Enderverse comes to mind!! ^^). Reading Earth by David Brin. Just started, so no opinions yet, except that I think the net feeds between chapters is quite cool. But it’s what you would typically expect when the Earth is degenerating into an ecological disaster.
Okay. I’m done. See you guys in... how long? I don’t know. Maybe Wednesday! Oooh. Singapore versus Japan in World Cup qualifiers! Singapore’s so going to get SMASHed! Bad, but haha, I want to watch the football match. ^^
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28 March, 2004
Noooo, Veronica DIED. T_T
Okay, I shall get over it. Ship of Fools is kind of great so far. I mean, I read reviews on amazon.com and some were saying that it isn’t very good, but I beg to differ. Although when I first started on Ship of Fools I felt that it was going to be rather shallow, as I read I could see how much of the characters Russo develops. Maybe except for the backgroud characters, who seem to appear rather two-dimensional. Other than that I think his spectacular use of the first-person - which I’m not a fan of, I’m afraid - really pumps suspense into his prose.
Oh well. What a lame attempt to review a book. Anyway, it’s rather good, reads like a movie would. Kind of reminds me of Alien (you know, the one with Sigourney Weaver in it) because they both have an alien aboard their ship.
Anyway, am wasting time on the internet AGAINNNN!
Okay, I shall get over it. Ship of Fools is kind of great so far. I mean, I read reviews on amazon.com and some were saying that it isn’t very good, but I beg to differ. Although when I first started on Ship of Fools I felt that it was going to be rather shallow, as I read I could see how much of the characters Russo develops. Maybe except for the backgroud characters, who seem to appear rather two-dimensional. Other than that I think his spectacular use of the first-person - which I’m not a fan of, I’m afraid - really pumps suspense into his prose.
Oh well. What a lame attempt to review a book. Anyway, it’s rather good, reads like a movie would. Kind of reminds me of Alien (you know, the one with Sigourney Weaver in it) because they both have an alien aboard their ship.
Anyway, am wasting time on the internet AGAINNNN!
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27 March, 2004
I find it hypocritical that someone says that it is pointless to make a website that do not work properly in all browsers, and yet make their pages catered to a particular browser. I don’t know if I’m phrasing things right. But I get the impression. Well. That’s all.
I’m not good at writing.
edit// yeah, changed the phrasing about. wrote it last night and wasn’t thinking straight. ^^ should make more sense now.
I’m not good at writing.
edit// yeah, changed the phrasing about. wrote it last night and wasn’t thinking straight. ^^ should make more sense now.
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Ooh yes, self has been slacking again because self has been reading Ship of Fools by Richard Paul Russo and has found it extremely suspenseful and captivating. Love Veronica. ^^ She is a splendid character.
And one more evidence you have that self has been slacking is that am on computer.
Oh, you want to hear about self’s experience with Flag Day?
Was a bit late. But no matter. Went with Dawn and Kat to Newton MRT. Yingwan was late because she couldn’t wake up, haha. Yeah. So stood at staircase and waited for people to fit coins into slit on top of can. Gave stickers away merrily! Then two idiots came an stole the territory away by planting their enormous behinds right in front of the escalator! Pissesd self off to no end! Shan’t mention name of school because am a nice girl and this is the ibternet. Self has enough sense no to publish the name of their school.
Am feeling extremely disgusted with those two people. No sense of courtesy at all. !!!
No words to express anger still. Oh well.
Today is SATURDAYYY! Am happy. Because tomorrow is Sunday. Yet tuition resides on Sunday. It plants it’s hairy butt on my late afternoon slot. Damn it.
And one more evidence you have that self has been slacking is that am on computer.
Oh, you want to hear about self’s experience with Flag Day?
Was a bit late. But no matter. Went with Dawn and Kat to Newton MRT. Yingwan was late because she couldn’t wake up, haha. Yeah. So stood at staircase and waited for people to fit coins into slit on top of can. Gave stickers away merrily! Then two idiots came an stole the territory away by planting their enormous behinds right in front of the escalator! Pissesd self off to no end! Shan’t mention name of school because am a nice girl and this is the ibternet. Self has enough sense no to publish the name of their school.
Am feeling extremely disgusted with those two people. No sense of courtesy at all. !!!
No words to express anger still. Oh well.
Today is SATURDAYYY! Am happy. Because tomorrow is Sunday. Yet tuition resides on Sunday. It plants it’s hairy butt on my late afternoon slot. Damn it.
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Shall... blog. Yep. Going to sell flags today. First time I’m doing it. Not looking forward. Leaving house in half an hour! So darned early. I wanted to sleep in. Shit.
Feelng pissed now. Realised mother wrote phone number on paper that is NOT MINE. ASSHOLE. There’s so many other sheets of paper and she has to write on one that is NOT MINE. ARRGGGH.
Had a bad headache yesterday! Seems to be a season of headaches because Dawn was also headache-y. Ahahah. Not funny. However it wasn’t the worst headache I ever had, which is good... yet it was bad enough to make me pissy with everyone and needing to sleep right after I got home.
Woke up at seven.
Okay. I did study. From NINE. And I only finished homework at TEN. So I studied for TWO hours.
You know, I’m really going to fail fail fail fail my Os. I’m not going to make it. Sherwood is an ass. She made us to timetables in Geog class today. It wasn’t much use, sad to say. Oh well.
I’m feeling confused right now. I have so many things to do, yet I’m not doing them. I don’t know why. Maybe I’m just #1 procrastinator. Haha. Queen of procrastination. Ehehhhh.
You’re lucky I’ve just woken up. If not you’ll be reading a long rambling post about how shit self is. Haha.
Feelng pissed now. Realised mother wrote phone number on paper that is NOT MINE. ASSHOLE. There’s so many other sheets of paper and she has to write on one that is NOT MINE. ARRGGGH.
Had a bad headache yesterday! Seems to be a season of headaches because Dawn was also headache-y. Ahahah. Not funny. However it wasn’t the worst headache I ever had, which is good... yet it was bad enough to make me pissy with everyone and needing to sleep right after I got home.
Woke up at seven.
Okay. I did study. From NINE. And I only finished homework at TEN. So I studied for TWO hours.
You know, I’m really going to fail fail fail fail my Os. I’m not going to make it. Sherwood is an ass. She made us to timetables in Geog class today. It wasn’t much use, sad to say. Oh well.
I’m feeling confused right now. I have so many things to do, yet I’m not doing them. I don’t know why. Maybe I’m just #1 procrastinator. Haha. Queen of procrastination. Ehehhhh.
You’re lucky I’ve just woken up. If not you’ll be reading a long rambling post about how shit self is. Haha.
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24 March, 2004
Okay, I must post fast. Need to leave soon for tuition!
Had debate today. WE LOST. Yay. ): Oh well. It was a combination of many factors. Resigned to fate. Unity grp1 won us!
People. Are. IRRITATING. *glares at certain person* She always manages to piss me off. I think she finds it fun. I think she likes manipulating my mind. MAN! Fuck off.
What a shit day. Hate today, hate tomorrow, hate forever. Hate hate hate hate. Tired tired tired tired. Wee.
Oh please. Someone tell the woman to stop stop stop messaging me.
Had debate today. WE LOST. Yay. ): Oh well. It was a combination of many factors. Resigned to fate. Unity grp1 won us!
People. Are. IRRITATING. *glares at certain person* She always manages to piss me off. I think she finds it fun. I think she likes manipulating my mind. MAN! Fuck off.
What a shit day. Hate today, hate tomorrow, hate forever. Hate hate hate hate. Tired tired tired tired. Wee.
Oh please. Someone tell the woman to stop stop stop messaging me.
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23 March, 2004
I’m working on the Green House cheer booklet right now, and guess what? I just discoverd that I cannot be a publisher! Or anyone that works in that line. I have ZERO idea which page goes where. ARRGGHH! I don’t know HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW I’m going to make it double-sided and COMPREHENDABLE. Haha. This is most difficult. >< Argh.
Oh well. How was school since it started? I don’t know. I just have this feeling that I can’t ever ever ever pass my O levels. I mean, it’s possible, right? So many people have done it before. In fact, every damn person thinks I will do well. Hahahahaaha... er, *stops* But they way the teachers make it sound, it’s SUPER SCARY. Sherwood is making us bring our diary along this Friday to PLAN when to study for Geog and SS! God. She’s insaneeee.
DEBATE TOMORROW! I hate hate hate it. I’ve never been in a debate. Not that I’m speaking, but I’m the researcher person. Haha. And that’s kind of stressful too. >< Have to come up with rebuttals and points quickquick. Eeeh. And the stupid thing only starts at 1550. HOW LATE IS THAT. And I’ve got tuition later and a maths test the next day. OHMYGOSH I’m going to die... ><
Choir was so blaaah today! I was so tired. Sang Carnival of Animals! They suck though. The songs are stupid. I guess it’ll look good at the concert. Oh, and Elizabeth was sooo sweet! She gave me my name made into a bead thing. You know, those cross-stitchy looking stuff but with beads? Into a kinda bookmark thing. I dunno how to expalin. But it’s pretttty! THANKYOU! ^^
Oh well. How was school since it started? I don’t know. I just have this feeling that I can’t ever ever ever pass my O levels. I mean, it’s possible, right? So many people have done it before. In fact, every damn person thinks I will do well. Hahahahaaha... er, *stops* But they way the teachers make it sound, it’s SUPER SCARY. Sherwood is making us bring our diary along this Friday to PLAN when to study for Geog and SS! God. She’s insaneeee.
DEBATE TOMORROW! I hate hate hate it. I’ve never been in a debate. Not that I’m speaking, but I’m the researcher person. Haha. And that’s kind of stressful too. >< Have to come up with rebuttals and points quickquick. Eeeh. And the stupid thing only starts at 1550. HOW LATE IS THAT. And I’ve got tuition later and a maths test the next day. OHMYGOSH I’m going to die... ><
Choir was so blaaah today! I was so tired. Sang Carnival of Animals! They suck though. The songs are stupid. I guess it’ll look good at the concert. Oh, and Elizabeth was sooo sweet! She gave me my name made into a bead thing. You know, those cross-stitchy looking stuff but with beads? Into a kinda bookmark thing. I dunno how to expalin. But it’s pretttty! THANKYOU! ^^
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21 March, 2004
Haha, this is the most funny. XD
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Last day of the holidays. How am I feeling? Tired. I don’t know. Right now I just feel like sleeping. I’ve been going online everyday for the past week. Bleurgh. Sinful.
I don’t know how I’m going to get back into the swing of things. You know, I haven’t studied much at all. Okay, I did study, in the form of snatches before backups and stuff. And on Monday I studied. And you know, when I get home from the Outside, I’m just so freaking brain-drained and tired. I can’t concentrate.
That’s the main reason I hate going Out.
*blinkblink*
I’m so sleepy. ARGH. ONE MORE HOUR to tuition. Can’t sleep. No. Can’t... sleep...
I have to neaten up my stupid English holiday homework. I’ve written quite a bit, but they’re all unfinished paragraphs. I have to finish one so I can print it out, LOL... bah. Did my maths worksheets. So proud of myself. I suck at differentiation. Muurrrrhh.
I don’t know how I’m going to get back into the swing of things. You know, I haven’t studied much at all. Okay, I did study, in the form of snatches before backups and stuff. And on Monday I studied. And you know, when I get home from the Outside, I’m just so freaking brain-drained and tired. I can’t concentrate.
That’s the main reason I hate going Out.
*blinkblink*
I’m so sleepy. ARGH. ONE MORE HOUR to tuition. Can’t sleep. No. Can’t... sleep...
I have to neaten up my stupid English holiday homework. I’ve written quite a bit, but they’re all unfinished paragraphs. I have to finish one so I can print it out, LOL... bah. Did my maths worksheets. So proud of myself. I suck at differentiation. Muurrrrhh.
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20 March, 2004
Okay, so the talk wasn’t THAT bad. I tend to blow things out of magnitude. ^^
Anyway, am reading First Meetings by Orson Scott Card! YEAAAHH, Ender rocks. ^^ Will never get enough. Can’t wait for next book in Shadow series! Since mine was hardcover, took the jacket off so I could bring it around. It’s black! <3 And it looks cool with my orange bookmark. Hehe.
Okay, so met Kat at City Hall, then various people from our class at Aljunied. After asking around, took bus 125A to the end of Kallang Way and walked to the SPH News Centre. What a hot hot hot walk it was. Sweltering, humid, Singapore. EWEWEW. Thank God the place is ACed. ^^
So we sat there for 3 hours, listening to this guy talk about Chinese Os. It wasn’t that bad. He wasn’t THAT boring. Haha.
So that’s about all that happened today! Joy.
I’m trying to work on my art site by the way. It isn’t coming along very well though, haha. Oh, and writing my fanfic which I’m up to chapter 4! Yeah! (:
Anyway, am reading First Meetings by Orson Scott Card! YEAAAHH, Ender rocks. ^^ Will never get enough. Can’t wait for next book in Shadow series! Since mine was hardcover, took the jacket off so I could bring it around. It’s black! <3 And it looks cool with my orange bookmark. Hehe.
Okay, so met Kat at City Hall, then various people from our class at Aljunied. After asking around, took bus 125A to the end of Kallang Way and walked to the SPH News Centre. What a hot hot hot walk it was. Sweltering, humid, Singapore. EWEWEW. Thank God the place is ACed. ^^
So we sat there for 3 hours, listening to this guy talk about Chinese Os. It wasn’t that bad. He wasn’t THAT boring. Haha.
So that’s about all that happened today! Joy.
I’m trying to work on my art site by the way. It isn’t coming along very well though, haha. Oh, and writing my fanfic which I’m up to chapter 4! Yeah! (:
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God. That just totally ruined my good mood. I hate hate hate hate hate it. Hate hate hate hate hate it. Why must you do that. Huh. Why why why.
Fine. Nothing in the world will always please me. I must be able to deal with these... crises. Not complain about them. I must learn to deal with them. Learn learn learn.
Who cares anyway, right? You can walk, you are able. I’ll bet they’re there. And even if they’re not, you know what bus to take.
But I don’t like it. I don’t like it AT-ALL. Not ONE-BIT.
Okay? So just freaking calm your ass down and try not to break anything. Good. It doesn’t matter. Really it doesn’t. I’m not the one at the losing end anyway. In fact I gain gain gain gain gain. But I don’t want to gain it in this way. But if I don’t, I’ll never learn.
I’m so cryptic. Yay.
edit// You know what, imagination is a powerful thing. I don’t want it to happen. I can just imagine myself getting lost. I hate that. Don’t take the wrong bus Cerah. Don’t fucking take the wrong bus. And you know that freaking place will be crawling with fucking people. Argh.
I need to leave soon. Watch me delve into the clutches of hell.
Fine. Nothing in the world will always please me. I must be able to deal with these... crises. Not complain about them. I must learn to deal with them. Learn learn learn.
Who cares anyway, right? You can walk, you are able. I’ll bet they’re there. And even if they’re not, you know what bus to take.
But I don’t like it. I don’t like it AT-ALL. Not ONE-BIT.
Okay? So just freaking calm your ass down and try not to break anything. Good. It doesn’t matter. Really it doesn’t. I’m not the one at the losing end anyway. In fact I gain gain gain gain gain. But I don’t want to gain it in this way. But if I don’t, I’ll never learn.
I’m so cryptic. Yay.
edit// You know what, imagination is a powerful thing. I don’t want it to happen. I can just imagine myself getting lost. I hate that. Don’t take the wrong bus Cerah. Don’t fucking take the wrong bus. And you know that freaking place will be crawling with fucking people. Argh.
I need to leave soon. Watch me delve into the clutches of hell.
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The movie was great! The kids were so cute, especially the girl who acted as Noi Nah. ^^ *pinch cheeks* I enjoyed it very much and everyone should go watch it too. There’s plenty of funny moments which will leave you in stitches, but if you bother to listen and think, it’s actually very heart-warming and sweet. ^^
Have to go to Aljunied today for the stupid talk on Chinese Os. Ahhhhh. Okay, I admit, it’s “good for me”. But I want to stay at home for the whole day for ONCE. This whole holiday of mine has been spent OUTSIDE which is totally against my personal principles. >< ACkk. The only day that I didn’t go out at all was Monday! WHY WHY WHY must I go out today. I hate being out. Out is bad. Home is good. I rest my case.
Trying to work on stupid essay right now. At least we don’t have to write the whole thing. ^^ Just a few paragraphs. Yeah. But I think I’m either 1. not making sense, or 2. talking crap. Joy.
Have to go to Aljunied today for the stupid talk on Chinese Os. Ahhhhh. Okay, I admit, it’s “good for me”. But I want to stay at home for the whole day for ONCE. This whole holiday of mine has been spent OUTSIDE which is totally against my personal principles. >< ACkk. The only day that I didn’t go out at all was Monday! WHY WHY WHY must I go out today. I hate being out. Out is bad. Home is good. I rest my case.
Trying to work on stupid essay right now. At least we don’t have to write the whole thing. ^^ Just a few paragraphs. Yeah. But I think I’m either 1. not making sense, or 2. talking crap. Joy.
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19 March, 2004
Blah. Have to go for backups today. Again. Was riled up at it last night, but right now I’m kind of okay with it. Oh well. Who cares. All I’ve got to do is behave like a robot and sit there and just work work work work. Yeah. It’s so no-brainer.
Going to watch My Girl! YAAAAAY.
Going to watch My Girl! YAAAAAY.
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18 March, 2004
Going to dumb school again. I haven’t done any of my homework, haven’t studied. I hate this hate this hate this. I hate myself because I can’t juggle anything. I just want to give up and die die die die die.
Shut up. Really. Stop thinking about it.
Need to go. To the torture chamber they call school. To do what? Backups backups backups. What an inane thing. And a comm. meeting. Hope it better be productive. Geez. I don’t know anybody in the fucking comm at all. Feel so awkward around them. Hate hate hate the feeling so so much.
Shut up. Really. Stop thinking about it.
Need to go. To the torture chamber they call school. To do what? Backups backups backups. What an inane thing. And a comm. meeting. Hope it better be productive. Geez. I don’t know anybody in the fucking comm at all. Feel so awkward around them. Hate hate hate the feeling so so much.
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17 March, 2004
Well, today wasn’t that bad after all. I think being pessimistic is good because you don’t expect too much. In fact, you don’t expect anything at all, and that is when the results really count.
So anyway, reached school real early, like at 0830, went to the canteen which was totally EMPTY, promplty plopped my butt down and started studying chinese. And I tell you, the St. Nick’s canteen between 8 to 10 is the bestest best place to study! So quiet, so serene. And the view out of the canteen is great. It was so breezy and yah! I just fell in love with the place. ^^
Anyway, went up to the place opposite the library where we were supposed to do props, met Isabella and her friend and realised we weren’t very sure what to do. So we went to look for Pathatai to clarify things. So we worked and worked and worked... I don’t know how many damn hexagon-shaped things I folded. I think I can wrap aluminium nicely now, but I swear I’m not going to put my food in that. It stinks! >< Anyway, had a really bad backache and leg cramp and semi-numb fingers doing routine work. Ugh. Fingers even got stained grey from aluminium foil!! BADBADBAD.
So went for choir! YAY! Choir was good today. ^^ Because we sang well and all that! Oh yeah!! I’m in the ticket design comm!!!! HAHA. Get to design tickets for our upcoming combined concert with NYGH!!! YAaaaah. Great.
Okay, gotta go for tuition soon. Haha, happy cos I did all my tuition homework! Hope I don’t seem like a nerd - wait, I am one. Oh well, who carreessss.
So anyway, reached school real early, like at 0830, went to the canteen which was totally EMPTY, promplty plopped my butt down and started studying chinese. And I tell you, the St. Nick’s canteen between 8 to 10 is the bestest best place to study! So quiet, so serene. And the view out of the canteen is great. It was so breezy and yah! I just fell in love with the place. ^^
Anyway, went up to the place opposite the library where we were supposed to do props, met Isabella and her friend and realised we weren’t very sure what to do. So we went to look for Pathatai to clarify things. So we worked and worked and worked... I don’t know how many damn hexagon-shaped things I folded. I think I can wrap aluminium nicely now, but I swear I’m not going to put my food in that. It stinks! >< Anyway, had a really bad backache and leg cramp and semi-numb fingers doing routine work. Ugh. Fingers even got stained grey from aluminium foil!! BADBADBAD.
So went for choir! YAY! Choir was good today. ^^ Because we sang well and all that! Oh yeah!! I’m in the ticket design comm!!!! HAHA. Get to design tickets for our upcoming combined concert with NYGH!!! YAaaaah. Great.
Okay, gotta go for tuition soon. Haha, happy cos I did all my tuition homework! Hope I don’t seem like a nerd - wait, I am one. Oh well, who carreessss.
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...and the angel and devil continue their endless celestial battle...
I know I shouldn’t be dreading it. I know I should go and be happy and whatnot. But I can’t help it. I can’t help thinking and feeling this damn way. I’m so sorry. I hate backups. I hate having to go for backups. But I go becuase it is my responsibility. Fuck responsibility. But I go anyway. But why torture yourself... why can’t I be happy, why can’t I just LOOK FORWARD to this. I mean HEY. Hours of sitting on the floor with a cramp in your leg gluing together things with crappy art work skillz0rz is fun.
Oh shut up, Cerah.
You know other people are going through this too. You’re not the only one in your high and mighty world. So just STOP thinking about yourself for once and think about other people. Think about how much freaking fun you’ll be having with all the other people at backups (... and how lonely you are...) and the friends you’ll make and -
- you know, I haven’t started on the cheer booklet yet -
- guess what? I’ve got choir later. And right after choir is chem tuition. I’ve got over hating the latter two, really. Took a lot of hard work and heart. But I got over it. That shows that it CAN be done, innit?
... no I can’t I can’t I can’t. Just thinking about having to go makes me feel like crying. I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t...
The devils' voice is ringing in my ears...
I know I shouldn’t be dreading it. I know I should go and be happy and whatnot. But I can’t help it. I can’t help thinking and feeling this damn way. I’m so sorry. I hate backups. I hate having to go for backups. But I go becuase it is my responsibility. Fuck responsibility. But I go anyway. But why torture yourself... why can’t I be happy, why can’t I just LOOK FORWARD to this. I mean HEY. Hours of sitting on the floor with a cramp in your leg gluing together things with crappy art work skillz0rz is fun.
Oh shut up, Cerah.
You know other people are going through this too. You’re not the only one in your high and mighty world. So just STOP thinking about yourself for once and think about other people. Think about how much freaking fun you’ll be having with all the other people at backups (... and how lonely you are...) and the friends you’ll make and -
- you know, I haven’t started on the cheer booklet yet -
- guess what? I’ve got choir later. And right after choir is chem tuition. I’ve got over hating the latter two, really. Took a lot of hard work and heart. But I got over it. That shows that it CAN be done, innit?
... no I can’t I can’t I can’t. Just thinking about having to go makes me feel like crying. I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t...
The devils' voice is ringing in my ears...
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I should start working on the art section of my site... I do have some things to put up...
You know, this is the perfect mood to draw. I already did something... it’s so pretty. I made it my desktop wallpaper.
Begone, Webshots! Creativity shall reign.
You know, this is the perfect mood to draw. I already did something... it’s so pretty. I made it my desktop wallpaper.
Begone, Webshots! Creativity shall reign.
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*blank* And all I get is this. You know, things are out of my control because the sky is too far away and the sun too bright. I can’t even reach out and draw the clouds over this blind spot in my eye. I’m helpless.
I crumple to the ground like some soul that God forgot. Pushed away by this tide of time into an abyss of confusion, forever falling... falling... falling... I tried to reach out and grab hold of something... anything... but I lost my grip and everything is slipped away...
I feel this weight upon me. I don’t know how to make it go away. So many things, so many... things. And I don’t know what to do. They’re all falling into my hands and I can’t hold up any longer. The weight is making the bones in my arms splinter and crack and crumble to dust. And these tears in my eyes, they fall unbidden. But that’s another cause.
Yet all these emotions are in a whirl inside of me. I don’t know what to say or what to do or what to think.
Where is my guiding hand?
Let the fire imps return to their hell hole.
Stop pouring all your hate in me. I know it. Stop it because I cannot hold it. My reservoir is running dry I need it I need it I need it why don’t you just GIVE IT TO ME.
Fuck you.
I crumple to the ground like some soul that God forgot. Pushed away by this tide of time into an abyss of confusion, forever falling... falling... falling... I tried to reach out and grab hold of something... anything... but I lost my grip and everything is slipped away...
I feel this weight upon me. I don’t know how to make it go away. So many things, so many... things. And I don’t know what to do. They’re all falling into my hands and I can’t hold up any longer. The weight is making the bones in my arms splinter and crack and crumble to dust. And these tears in my eyes, they fall unbidden. But that’s another cause.
Yet all these emotions are in a whirl inside of me. I don’t know what to say or what to do or what to think.
Where is my guiding hand?
Let the fire imps return to their hell hole.
Stop pouring all your hate in me. I know it. Stop it because I cannot hold it. My reservoir is running dry I need it I need it I need it why don’t you just GIVE IT TO ME.
Fuck you.
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15 March, 2004
Typed lots of stuff up here BUTTTT stupid damn thing illegal operated. Oh well. Have no control over this. ><
Anyway, I remodelled! Spent the whole damn afternoon on it, and I must say I like it very much better than the old one because 1) it has Korean words on it and 2) it’s grey. My domain isn’t named that way for nothing. ^^
You know what? Holidays suck. I’m spending too much time on the internet because they trick me into think I’ve got all the time in the world when actually it’s flowing by so quickly I can’t even reach out to stop it.
Well, I did do some work. Done 1/3 of my chemistry tuition homework. Have two exam papers left. And finished that damn 周记 thing. GAHH. It’s so slipshod. I bet Zhuang will kill meeee.
Oh well. I shall go and... I don’t know, continue slacking. And feeling guilty.
Anyway, I remodelled! Spent the whole damn afternoon on it, and I must say I like it very much better than the old one because 1) it has Korean words on it and 2) it’s grey. My domain isn’t named that way for nothing. ^^
You know what? Holidays suck. I’m spending too much time on the internet because they trick me into think I’ve got all the time in the world when actually it’s flowing by so quickly I can’t even reach out to stop it.
Well, I did do some work. Done 1/3 of my chemistry tuition homework. Have two exam papers left. And finished that damn 周记 thing. GAHH. It’s so slipshod. I bet Zhuang will kill meeee.
Oh well. I shall go and... I don’t know, continue slacking. And feeling guilty.
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And so today marks the beginning of the new week. Argh. Bad. New week is bad. Oh well.
Promised myself to study. Already have a timetable sketched out. The problem is following it. And it will be so hard so hard so hard...
Okay. Think positive, Cerah. Think positive. You’ve got your Five for Fighting CD with you! You have Kawamura Ryuichi’s Only Love... so you can listen to them over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-
You get my point.
And remember the satisfaction of knowing you’ve studied? YES. Think about that. Stop thinking about lounging in front of the TV waiting for the fat to creep up and attach itself to your behind and thunder thighs. Yesh. No thunhndurr thiiighs.
I’m uttering nonsense again. Can’t I speak sense for once.
Morning. It’s cold. Sunlight’s streaming through the big windows and falling neatly on the dining room curtains in golden streaks. Me? Sitting in a folding chair made of plastic and aluminium, hair in a pony-tail, eyes feeling tired - and it’s only EIGHT. Me, not wanting to get out of the room, not wanting to go upstairs and plunge myself in books. Yet part of me knows that I have to do it because it is my duty. If I don’t do it I will let everyone down... and most of all, myself.
Yeah. Reasoning. I’m trying to psyche myself into studying. Dunno. Doesn’t seem like it’s workinngggg.
Promised myself to study. Already have a timetable sketched out. The problem is following it. And it will be so hard so hard so hard...
Okay. Think positive, Cerah. Think positive. You’ve got your Five for Fighting CD with you! You have Kawamura Ryuichi’s Only Love... so you can listen to them over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-
You get my point.
And remember the satisfaction of knowing you’ve studied? YES. Think about that. Stop thinking about lounging in front of the TV waiting for the fat to creep up and attach itself to your behind and thunder thighs. Yesh. No thunhndurr thiiighs.
I’m uttering nonsense again. Can’t I speak sense for once.
Morning. It’s cold. Sunlight’s streaming through the big windows and falling neatly on the dining room curtains in golden streaks. Me? Sitting in a folding chair made of plastic and aluminium, hair in a pony-tail, eyes feeling tired - and it’s only EIGHT. Me, not wanting to get out of the room, not wanting to go upstairs and plunge myself in books. Yet part of me knows that I have to do it because it is my duty. If I don’t do it I will let everyone down... and most of all, myself.
Yeah. Reasoning. I’m trying to psyche myself into studying. Dunno. Doesn’t seem like it’s workinngggg.
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14 March, 2004
Finished watching rendez-vous. Wee! Took me a night and the whole of today to finish it. It’s a Japanese drama by the way.
Totally slacked the whole day away today. AGAIN. I need some self-discipline. Oh well.
God, it’s so fast. Monday tomorrow. Then Tuesday. Then the whole week will speed by and then I’m left with nothing. Nothing Nothing Nothing.
*sigh* I shan’t rant and rave about how everyone should watch rendez-vous. It’s so... caricature-istic. It’s quite funny. It’s basically about this housewife who runs away from her husband because he loves his obsession more than he loves her. So she goes to stay in this place where nobody knows her, in a odd little hotel called Hotel Maria. There she meets this other woan, Mayumi, who’s a writer, and they become friends. So Asako, that’s the housewife, sees this guy driving this boat and it’s love at first sight. Maybe not love, but she thinks the guy is cute. So one time when she was out taking a stroll, she sees the guy in trouble. These thugs are demanding money from him to pay for the boat. So she runs over and saves him by paying those thugs. So the guy asks her how he’s going to pay her back, and she answers that he be her boyfriend.
And the guy went ‘huh?’ blah blah. But she wasn’t after sex or anything. She just wanted somebody so she wouldn’t feel lonely, blah blah blah. And the worst thing was, she’s 13 years older than him. So there’s a lot of rumours going about. So they go on dates, where he “pays” the money back to her. And they do eventually fall in love with each other, and I think it’s so cute the way they go “110,000 left.” Argh, so hard to explain. You have to watch it.
Damn. I’m talking crap. I bet you guys don’t know what I’m talking about. Oh well. Haha. Obsessions are meant for oneself. Not sharing! And Kashiwabara Takashi is good looking! ^^ Heard he’s not in the entertainment scene anymore though. Blahhh.
Totally slacked the whole day away today. AGAIN. I need some self-discipline. Oh well.
God, it’s so fast. Monday tomorrow. Then Tuesday. Then the whole week will speed by and then I’m left with nothing. Nothing Nothing Nothing.
*sigh* I shan’t rant and rave about how everyone should watch rendez-vous. It’s so... caricature-istic. It’s quite funny. It’s basically about this housewife who runs away from her husband because he loves his obsession more than he loves her. So she goes to stay in this place where nobody knows her, in a odd little hotel called Hotel Maria. There she meets this other woan, Mayumi, who’s a writer, and they become friends. So Asako, that’s the housewife, sees this guy driving this boat and it’s love at first sight. Maybe not love, but she thinks the guy is cute. So one time when she was out taking a stroll, she sees the guy in trouble. These thugs are demanding money from him to pay for the boat. So she runs over and saves him by paying those thugs. So the guy asks her how he’s going to pay her back, and she answers that he be her boyfriend.
And the guy went ‘huh?’ blah blah. But she wasn’t after sex or anything. She just wanted somebody so she wouldn’t feel lonely, blah blah blah. And the worst thing was, she’s 13 years older than him. So there’s a lot of rumours going about. So they go on dates, where he “pays” the money back to her. And they do eventually fall in love with each other, and I think it’s so cute the way they go “110,000 left.” Argh, so hard to explain. You have to watch it.
Damn. I’m talking crap. I bet you guys don’t know what I’m talking about. Oh well. Haha. Obsessions are meant for oneself. Not sharing! And Kashiwabara Takashi is good looking! ^^ Heard he’s not in the entertainment scene anymore though. Blahhh.
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Went oout for dinner at Maison Basque - again. The food was good though, anyway. Haha.
(sung to the tune of Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head)
Calories are piling up on me
But there’s nothing I can do cos I can’t help myself
Everything’s so bleak
These calories are piling up on me...
Okay. That was stupid. So it rained and rained and I think rain is good because I like rain. ^^ My mum was going, “The carpark will flood,” because we parked at the Esplanade, B2. My gosh, $4. But the carpark ventilation was good. Haha.
Oh yeah? And I think my dad is the best. -.-; He was telling us (me and my mum) that one time he lost his orientation when he got out of the lecture theatre and was looking for his car. While doing so, he saw one and went, “Wow, that car looks good,” and when he looked again, it was... wait for it...
His own car.
I was like... *falls down* WHATEVER! HAHAHA.
But I do think my car is !!!... It’s a Citroen C5, 2 lit. YAY. All hail Citroens. Click on the link to read more about and see some COOL PICZKZZFZ!!! Oh, my two lit Citroen doesn’t have black bumpers. Those are 1.8 lit.
Okay, shan’t bore people with cars right now. It isn’t even mine. I want to drive! I want a Mazda RX-8. Or, if I have no moolah, a Citroen C3. Heheh.
(sung to the tune of Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head)
Calories are piling up on me
But there’s nothing I can do cos I can’t help myself
Everything’s so bleak
These calories are piling up on me...
Okay. That was stupid. So it rained and rained and I think rain is good because I like rain. ^^ My mum was going, “The carpark will flood,” because we parked at the Esplanade, B2. My gosh, $4. But the carpark ventilation was good. Haha.
Oh yeah? And I think my dad is the best. -.-; He was telling us (me and my mum) that one time he lost his orientation when he got out of the lecture theatre and was looking for his car. While doing so, he saw one and went, “Wow, that car looks good,” and when he looked again, it was... wait for it...
His own car.
I was like... *falls down* WHATEVER! HAHAHA.
But I do think my car is !!!... It’s a Citroen C5, 2 lit. YAY. All hail Citroens. Click on the link to read more about and see some COOL PICZKZZFZ!!! Oh, my two lit Citroen doesn’t have black bumpers. Those are 1.8 lit.
Okay, shan’t bore people with cars right now. It isn’t even mine. I want to drive! I want a Mazda RX-8. Or, if I have no moolah, a Citroen C3. Heheh.
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13 March, 2004
I totally messed up my internal clock. Guess what? I didn’t sleep at all on the night the day before last. That would be the last time I posted and you guys can see down there. Yeah. Rant rant rant.
And you know, I came home from school yesterday at about 6pm, and slept the moment I hit my bed until 10 today. That would be SIXTEEN HOURS of sleep.
I’m truly screwed up. XD
Anyway, didn’t present the stupid project at all. We have another week to do it! YAY. What I did was crap anyway. We’ll totally FAIL our asses off if we presented that. GAH.
Anyway the chinese test yesterday was so horribly annoying. The comprehension passage was so difficult. I’m going to screw that one up. And while trying not to fall asleep and actually UNDERSTAND the passage, the rest of the school just ended class and there were these annoying screams and shouts and lasjdfljewifnas!!! going on outside the classroom and I couldn’t concentrate. -.-; It was terribly annoying and I was MAJORLY PISSED. SHUT UP, I mean. Can’t you see we’re trying to THINK HERE? I mean, take your bimbotic asses elsewhere where I can’t see or hear it. GOSH.
Stayed back yesterday to discuss some green house matters, namely CHEER. ARGH. Was having a mental block and couldn’t think of A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G. Oh well. Have to work on cheer booklet anyhows.
Anyway, I’m slacking my whole Saturday off (s-ah-tur-day! not s-eh-tur-day!). WEIFNSDFKJA. I need to manage my time better. I got such an immense amount of things to do. FIENFLSAFJsd.
Yay.
And you know, I came home from school yesterday at about 6pm, and slept the moment I hit my bed until 10 today. That would be SIXTEEN HOURS of sleep.
I’m truly screwed up. XD
Anyway, didn’t present the stupid project at all. We have another week to do it! YAY. What I did was crap anyway. We’ll totally FAIL our asses off if we presented that. GAH.
Anyway the chinese test yesterday was so horribly annoying. The comprehension passage was so difficult. I’m going to screw that one up. And while trying not to fall asleep and actually UNDERSTAND the passage, the rest of the school just ended class and there were these annoying screams and shouts and lasjdfljewifnas!!! going on outside the classroom and I couldn’t concentrate. -.-; It was terribly annoying and I was MAJORLY PISSED. SHUT UP, I mean. Can’t you see we’re trying to THINK HERE? I mean, take your bimbotic asses elsewhere where I can’t see or hear it. GOSH.
Stayed back yesterday to discuss some green house matters, namely CHEER. ARGH. Was having a mental block and couldn’t think of A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G. Oh well. Have to work on cheer booklet anyhows.
Anyway, I’m slacking my whole Saturday off (s-ah-tur-day! not s-eh-tur-day!). WEIFNSDFKJA. I need to manage my time better. I got such an immense amount of things to do. FIENFLSAFJsd.
Yay.
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12 March, 2004
You know, I’m over feeling tired and shitty and all that. Now I just feel like finishing this and going to sleep. Heck, I’m not even sleepy anymore. I’m afraid that if I go to sleep, I’ll just never wake up. Haha.
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I’ve calmed down considerably. Now he problem is:
a) I’m hungry.
b) I’m tired.
c) I’m tired.
Yeah. Help meeeee.
a) I’m hungry.
b) I’m tired.
c) I’m tired.
Yeah. Help meeeee.
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11 March, 2004
I feel like crying, ahhh. But I know my feelings are not justified because it’s me me me me me me me me me. I bet others are feeling a million times worse than me me me me me, so why am I so selfish and self-entered and thinking only about me me me me me.
Everything is about me.
You know that?
I should calm down. Really. I should. Calm. Down. Then I can think. Coherently for once. Good. Breathe in... and out. In... and out. Okay. Feeling better.
Everything is about me.
You know that?
I should calm down. Really. I should. Calm. Down. Then I can think. Coherently for once. Good. Breathe in... and out. In... and out. Okay. Feeling better.
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A. R. G. H.
It’s my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault. Who else could it be.
There’s just TOO MUCH INFORMATION FOR MY POOR BRAIN TO PROCESS. I can’t deal with it. I suck. OKAY? Great. Now I should stop ranting and get back to work. If not I’ll really NOT be able to finish this piece of SHIT AT ALL. And it’ll be my fault again because I’m supposed to WORK FASTER.
A. R. G. H.
It’s my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault. Who else could it be.
There’s just TOO MUCH INFORMATION FOR MY POOR BRAIN TO PROCESS. I can’t deal with it. I suck. OKAY? Great. Now I should stop ranting and get back to work. If not I’ll really NOT be able to finish this piece of SHIT AT ALL. And it’ll be my fault again because I’m supposed to WORK FASTER.
A. R. G. H.
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10 March, 2004
Fuck you, can you shut up for a moment? I only have one brain. I only have one pair of hands. And most importantly, I can’t multi-task because I’m UNABLE.
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09 March, 2004
Just came back from Serangoon North GRC’s Meet-the-People session and it was a real eye opener. I’m in no mood to write some essay on it now on my blog. Too tired. Guess what time it is now? ELEVEN! Gosh, I’ve been at school the whole day. And they were wondering why I was rushing all my homework in school today. Have a maths differentiation test tomorrow. Blaaaah.
But I digress. The MPS was held at some PAP Kindergarten place, which smelled strongly of disinfectant. Reminded me of hospitals, but really, that was beside the point. Anyway, about 20 of us, I think, were divided into groups of three or four. I’m not exaclty sure about the other groups, but I was attached to the petition-writing people, specifically to this guy named Mr Richard Chua. Actually, he didn’t tell us his name. We kind of eavesdropped and deduced, you know? Hehe. ^^
Anyway, the first guy who came had three problems. Firstly, he couldn’t pay his utility bills, and his two tenants in his four room flat were complaining that their electricity and water supplies were cut off. And he didn’t have enough money to pay his bills. Already he was being charged for not paying money and owing it or something. I’m not very sure. So he was requesting if he could pay it in $50 instalments intead of $100. Furthermore, he is divorced and a single-parent with a 7-year-old son. Because he is currently unemployed - he does odd-jobs and stuff and earns $40 a day - he needs an after-school care thing for his son. To make a long story short, he was forced to pay full fees even though he was promised subsidised rates. I can’t remember the last problem. Anyway, when our petition-writer suggested that he apply for subsidy, he blatantly refused and walked away. O.o; Oh, and I must GUSH about Mr Chua’s letter-writing skills. They’re just so O.O! amazing. He was fast and coherent! Wow. I know it comes with practice but...!!
Okay, the second case was more trivial. This man was charged for beating the red light and causing and accident. He claimed that he was speeding up because of the amber light, but a car turning from the opposite direction hit his motorbike and he went flying, blah blah blah. So he wants them to drop his charges, etc. etc.
And we got to meet the MP Mr Wee. Forgot he full name. Eek. And it was not more than an hour ago. >< I have a bad memory. Anyway, he was totally not what I expected a typical MP to be: balding, old, wheezing. In fact, Mr Wee was jolly-looking and had red cheeks. Hehe. Like Santa Claus, or something. And I liked listening to him talk, because it really really made sense and the way he said things made me really want to listen to what he is saying.
I really learnt a lot. About myself, especially, and how we are just so damned fortunate we don’t know. I feel quite guilty now, with all this shit going around the world and thinking I’m the worst-off when I’m one of the priviledged few. Ehh.
But I digress. The MPS was held at some PAP Kindergarten place, which smelled strongly of disinfectant. Reminded me of hospitals, but really, that was beside the point. Anyway, about 20 of us, I think, were divided into groups of three or four. I’m not exaclty sure about the other groups, but I was attached to the petition-writing people, specifically to this guy named Mr Richard Chua. Actually, he didn’t tell us his name. We kind of eavesdropped and deduced, you know? Hehe. ^^
Anyway, the first guy who came had three problems. Firstly, he couldn’t pay his utility bills, and his two tenants in his four room flat were complaining that their electricity and water supplies were cut off. And he didn’t have enough money to pay his bills. Already he was being charged for not paying money and owing it or something. I’m not very sure. So he was requesting if he could pay it in $50 instalments intead of $100. Furthermore, he is divorced and a single-parent with a 7-year-old son. Because he is currently unemployed - he does odd-jobs and stuff and earns $40 a day - he needs an after-school care thing for his son. To make a long story short, he was forced to pay full fees even though he was promised subsidised rates. I can’t remember the last problem. Anyway, when our petition-writer suggested that he apply for subsidy, he blatantly refused and walked away. O.o; Oh, and I must GUSH about Mr Chua’s letter-writing skills. They’re just so O.O! amazing. He was fast and coherent! Wow. I know it comes with practice but...!!
Okay, the second case was more trivial. This man was charged for beating the red light and causing and accident. He claimed that he was speeding up because of the amber light, but a car turning from the opposite direction hit his motorbike and he went flying, blah blah blah. So he wants them to drop his charges, etc. etc.
And we got to meet the MP Mr Wee. Forgot he full name. Eek. And it was not more than an hour ago. >< I have a bad memory. Anyway, he was totally not what I expected a typical MP to be: balding, old, wheezing. In fact, Mr Wee was jolly-looking and had red cheeks. Hehe. Like Santa Claus, or something. And I liked listening to him talk, because it really really made sense and the way he said things made me really want to listen to what he is saying.
I really learnt a lot. About myself, especially, and how we are just so damned fortunate we don’t know. I feel quite guilty now, with all this shit going around the world and thinking I’m the worst-off when I’m one of the priviledged few. Ehh.
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08 March, 2004
Was listening to an old old old album (1992!) of Chage and Aska’s, Super Best II. And guess what? Track 11, LOVE SONG, is the theme song - resung, of course - of a Korean drama, Success Story of a Bright Girl. Which is so !!! because Jang Hyuk was super in it. And the songs were great. But you know, it’s like FATE. I didn’t expect the theme song of SSBG to be a Chage and Aska song. My mum was a fan waaaay back, so I’ve got some CDs, haha.
I still can’t really get over the coincidence. ^^ Happyhappy.
I tell you, they can’t force me to do the chemistry paper. I’m stupid and I don’t know how to do, okay? So what. SO WHAT. I hate the people at chem tuition. They’re FREAKS. Except for one girl whom I spoke to two lessons before. She seems okay. But this other girl from I THINK Nan Hua or River Valley or God-Knows-Where and this boy from Boon Lay sec are just pains O.o; Don’t want to talk to them. Hate hate hate. Not that they’ve done anything to me. OF COURSE THEY HAVEN’T. They just seem intimidating. Yes. Actually, that doesn’t make sense AT-ALL, but fear is irrational. Hooray.
Surfing the net! Wast time! SAVE ME! KILL ME! EXECUTE ME! *dies*
Going for the Meet-The-People session at some Sembawang GRC thing. Watch an MP do something and the RC (I think?) craft petitions. Wee! Interesting. Maybe not to you guys, but I really would love to see what goes on... behind-the-scenes. Yay.
I should have more content up on greyprism.org. But I’m a) too lazy, b) uncreative, c) too lazy.
I still can’t really get over the coincidence. ^^ Happyhappy.
I tell you, they can’t force me to do the chemistry paper. I’m stupid and I don’t know how to do, okay? So what. SO WHAT. I hate the people at chem tuition. They’re FREAKS. Except for one girl whom I spoke to two lessons before. She seems okay. But this other girl from I THINK Nan Hua or River Valley or God-Knows-Where and this boy from Boon Lay sec are just pains O.o; Don’t want to talk to them. Hate hate hate. Not that they’ve done anything to me. OF COURSE THEY HAVEN’T. They just seem intimidating. Yes. Actually, that doesn’t make sense AT-ALL, but fear is irrational. Hooray.
Surfing the net! Wast time! SAVE ME! KILL ME! EXECUTE ME! *dies*
Going for the Meet-The-People session at some Sembawang GRC thing. Watch an MP do something and the RC (I think?) craft petitions. Wee! Interesting. Maybe not to you guys, but I really would love to see what goes on... behind-the-scenes. Yay.
I should have more content up on greyprism.org. But I’m a) too lazy, b) uncreative, c) too lazy.
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07 March, 2004
b2 is a piece of shit. Took like, the whole evening to configure it. YAAARGH. It’s not idiot-proof, I tell you. It’s idiot-prone. God, my XANGA is a piece of crap. It’s been down a few days. *pause* What’s a XANGA? It’s a blog thing, remotely hosted. Because my server was being a STUPID LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT *curses endlessly* and there’s something fishy with the fucking cgi right now. Crap. As I was saying, XANGA has been down for the past few days and NO, I’m not giving you the URL because there are some rather... sensitive issues inside. I mean, read it at your own risk, just down burst into tears when you realise I just insulted you. O.O!
That’s giving away a bit too much. Read it if you can find the link, smartypants. In the meantime...
...YYEEEEAAAH! Got blog tool back. Cannot live without blog. Absolutely torturous.
Read Bridget Jones' Diary. Wasn’t quite satisfied with it. Oh well. Figggguuures. Bought LIRAEL last week at school! Happy happy. Been looking for it a Kinokuniya for a long long time. Speaking of Kino, can’t wait for 20% discount! Then can get my greedy little paws on HIS DARK MATERIALS!! Ahh, *squeal*. Okay d00d, calm down.
Chris is going to VJC! Oh my GOD. That is so unfair. I’ll probably do like SHIIIIIIIT for my O’s. Jesus. Then again, I don’t know if my sources are correct. Heard from my mother who heard from my aunt who he’s staying with so he can go to school without having to travel 19390248385 hours like me. DAMN. I need to get 10 points and below. I’m telling you, as long as I hit TEN POINTS I’ll be BAWLING my eyes out from happiness. Actually, 16 is fine cos I can get into the JJC science stream with that. Hehe. JJC is SO FREAKING NEAR MY HOUSE. YAY. NO MORE TRAVELLING.
There are so many caps today. Must be hyper due to blog installation. *smirk*
That’s giving away a bit too much. Read it if you can find the link, smartypants. In the meantime...
...YYEEEEAAAH! Got blog tool back. Cannot live without blog. Absolutely torturous.
Read Bridget Jones' Diary. Wasn’t quite satisfied with it. Oh well. Figggguuures. Bought LIRAEL last week at school! Happy happy. Been looking for it a Kinokuniya for a long long time. Speaking of Kino, can’t wait for 20% discount! Then can get my greedy little paws on HIS DARK MATERIALS!! Ahh, *squeal*. Okay d00d, calm down.
Chris is going to VJC! Oh my GOD. That is so unfair. I’ll probably do like SHIIIIIIIT for my O’s. Jesus. Then again, I don’t know if my sources are correct. Heard from my mother who heard from my aunt who he’s staying with so he can go to school without having to travel 19390248385 hours like me. DAMN. I need to get 10 points and below. I’m telling you, as long as I hit TEN POINTS I’ll be BAWLING my eyes out from happiness. Actually, 16 is fine cos I can get into the JJC science stream with that. Hehe. JJC is SO FREAKING NEAR MY HOUSE. YAY. NO MORE TRAVELLING.
There are so many caps today. Must be hyper due to blog installation. *smirk*
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