27 June, 2003
Having "ling gan" now. Inspiration. Writing writing writing like a busy bee! Of course not for homework. (DUUUUUHHH) I don't know if I've mentioned it on the DEE before, but I'm writing a story. YEP! A STORY! I don't know. I began it quite some time ago. In late March.
Should I tell what it's about? I don't know. Should I give a short excerpt? I don't know. I might become famous one day, you know. (YEAH RIIIIIGHHHT) Hmm, it's rather hard to select an excerpt. I guess we'll make do with a paragraph! It's the first paragraph, and it roughly tells you what it's NOT about. Well, not the main plot anyway.
"Shan fingered a lock of hair as she gazed out of the grilled window of the flat, down at the cars below. The traffic light turned from green to red, then back to green again. Along with it were multitudes of cars, obeying the dance of coloured light mindlessly. Conformist fools, she thought as she turned away, eyes flashing dark red for a moment before returning to their dormant state of flickering blue-black. There was a swift movement of arm and finger, and the sharp sound of heavy curtains being drawn tore through the room."
It's a save-the-world! kind of story. And yeah, it has magic. Not Harry-Potter magic. More The-Named magic, but so much subtler. It's all about the eyes. THE EYES!! *hinthint* And yeah. They save the world from something that hasn't anything to do with their eyes at all but whatever.
Oh! And there's ROMMAAANNNCEEEE! Okay. Not a LOT of romance and sorry no sex scenes and stuff (haha). Just an innocent love between a boy and a girl. Darn. Shouldn't have written that. But I couldn't resist. And that love is SO PREDICTABLE AND CLICHED I don't know why I'm writing it. Meh. Maybe I shouldn't make the main character fall in love with THAT guy. Oh well. I'm sort of talking to my self now, am I? Because no one knows WHAT I'm talking about anyway so it doesn't matter. =P
OOHOHOOHOHOH. I got a recent obesession for PARK JEONG CHEOUL (eo=aw). Or however you romanise his name. XDXD I have too many Korean-hunk-obsessions. But they're all really droolarific so. Can't "dump" any of 'em, can I? Hehe.
AHHH HE IS SO CUTE! WEEEE. Can't get any decent photos. Too lazy to run upstairs to get the VCD, play it, take a screenshot, save it and whatnot. Maybe tomorrow.
*gringringrin*
If there's any "clue", it's that guy in Hotelier who acted as that annoying son of the boss of the hotel. Yeah. Whatever.
Should I tell what it's about? I don't know. Should I give a short excerpt? I don't know. I might become famous one day, you know. (YEAH RIIIIIGHHHT) Hmm, it's rather hard to select an excerpt. I guess we'll make do with a paragraph! It's the first paragraph, and it roughly tells you what it's NOT about. Well, not the main plot anyway.
"Shan fingered a lock of hair as she gazed out of the grilled window of the flat, down at the cars below. The traffic light turned from green to red, then back to green again. Along with it were multitudes of cars, obeying the dance of coloured light mindlessly. Conformist fools, she thought as she turned away, eyes flashing dark red for a moment before returning to their dormant state of flickering blue-black. There was a swift movement of arm and finger, and the sharp sound of heavy curtains being drawn tore through the room."
It's a save-the-world! kind of story. And yeah, it has magic. Not Harry-Potter magic. More The-Named magic, but so much subtler. It's all about the eyes. THE EYES!! *hinthint* And yeah. They save the world from something that hasn't anything to do with their eyes at all but whatever.
Oh! And there's ROMMAAANNNCEEEE! Okay. Not a LOT of romance and sorry no sex scenes and stuff (haha). Just an innocent love between a boy and a girl. Darn. Shouldn't have written that. But I couldn't resist. And that love is SO PREDICTABLE AND CLICHED I don't know why I'm writing it. Meh. Maybe I shouldn't make the main character fall in love with THAT guy. Oh well. I'm sort of talking to my self now, am I? Because no one knows WHAT I'm talking about anyway so it doesn't matter. =P
OOHOHOOHOHOH. I got a recent obesession for PARK JEONG CHEOUL (eo=aw). Or however you romanise his name. XDXD I have too many Korean-hunk-obsessions. But they're all really droolarific so. Can't "dump" any of 'em, can I? Hehe.
AHHH HE IS SO CUTE! WEEEE. Can't get any decent photos. Too lazy to run upstairs to get the VCD, play it, take a screenshot, save it and whatnot. Maybe tomorrow.
*gringringrin*
If there's any "clue", it's that guy in Hotelier who acted as that annoying son of the boss of the hotel. Yeah. Whatever.
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26 June, 2003
Ahem. Eh, well. I know it's nothing to be ASHAMED about. In fact, it's a very good thing. A very very good thing. But still.
I'm Treasurer. Hmm. $$$$$ Yeah, money face. Whatever.
Er. I have nothing much to say, really. I mean, I'm happy and all and kind of nervous about the responsibility it means I have to take up, it really makes me feel... well, opposite of what I usually feel, actually -- useless; unworthy; discardable?; replaceable; unneeded. I can't find that word I want to use. Oh well. Too lazy to call up the Thesaurus. However you spell that word.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW. I don't know why. Choir workshops excite me. *biggrin* We're going to Fairfield Methodist tomorrow. IT'S SO NEAR MY HOUSE!! *excite* It's at Commonwealth MRT... SO NEAR RIGHT? Haha!! 40mins away~! And people in AMK need to take 1 hour. =P
Okay. Less than halfway through Harry Potter. Meh. I love Harry in this book... don't know. He acts as I would (minus the intellect and bravery, of course). I think I have to same attitude about work as Ron. Haha. Leave everything to the last minute. Pity I don't have Hermione to help me out. >.<
I'm Treasurer. Hmm. $$$$$ Yeah, money face. Whatever.
Er. I have nothing much to say, really. I mean, I'm happy and all and kind of nervous about the responsibility it means I have to take up, it really makes me feel... well, opposite of what I usually feel, actually -- useless; unworthy; discardable?; replaceable; unneeded. I can't find that word I want to use. Oh well. Too lazy to call up the Thesaurus. However you spell that word.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW. I don't know why. Choir workshops excite me. *biggrin* We're going to Fairfield Methodist tomorrow. IT'S SO NEAR MY HOUSE!! *excite* It's at Commonwealth MRT... SO NEAR RIGHT? Haha!! 40mins away~! And people in AMK need to take 1 hour. =P
Okay. Less than halfway through Harry Potter. Meh. I love Harry in this book... don't know. He acts as I would (minus the intellect and bravery, of course). I think I have to same attitude about work as Ron. Haha. Leave everything to the last minute. Pity I don't have Hermione to help me out. >.<
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25 June, 2003
Guess I should post something. Got choir today, later. Leaving at about.. 12.20. Haven't had my breakfast yet... letting the Koko Crunch soak up milk. I like soggy cereal. XD
ER YES! Started reading OotP. Hard to put it down. Order of the Phoenix, for the uninitiated, but I doubt there are many of THOSE left.
Ah well.
I think I'm falling ill. I got pressure in my head and all that. And I feel generally... sick. If that makes any sense at all.
I acted horrible yesterday night. I bet my mum is disappointed with me now as she always is. Not that I really CARE at all, but... ((guilt)).
ER YES! Started reading OotP. Hard to put it down. Order of the Phoenix, for the uninitiated, but I doubt there are many of THOSE left.
Ah well.
I think I'm falling ill. I got pressure in my head and all that. And I feel generally... sick. If that makes any sense at all.
I acted horrible yesterday night. I bet my mum is disappointed with me now as she always is. Not that I really CARE at all, but... ((guilt)).
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24 June, 2003
Argh! I'm configuring a guestbook. YES! So Dementia will have a guestbook and that's all fine and dandy. BUT! I can't get the NAMES to appear. *scream* I wonder what I did wrong. They worked fine before... oh well.
I'm going to do LITERATURE today! Well, now actually, so I have to scoot upstairs, and, you know, torture my brain. I just read the poem we were supposed to analyse, and I do not understand a word.
Wish the literature-inept-me luck! Thank j00 all. *bow*
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Yay! FINALLY. I figured out what the problem was: phlogger. It has a field named "name" too, and it obviously can't work with two identically named fields. Haha. Okay okay. So go sign my guestbook, okay? I'm jumping on the bandwagon. Happy happy me.
Oh, and I just played Donkey Kong. I like carts.
I'm going to do LITERATURE today! Well, now actually, so I have to scoot upstairs, and, you know, torture my brain. I just read the poem we were supposed to analyse, and I do not understand a word.
Wish the literature-inept-me luck! Thank j00 all. *bow*
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Yay! FINALLY. I figured out what the problem was: phlogger. It has a field named "name" too, and it obviously can't work with two identically named fields. Haha. Okay okay. So go sign my guestbook, okay? I'm jumping on the bandwagon. Happy happy me.
Oh, and I just played Donkey Kong. I like carts.
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23 June, 2003
I admire people who can write real deep stuff. Not like me, rambling on about WHAT? I don't know. Complaints. That's all. Nothing insightful, nothing deep, nothing worth recording.
I like black holes. They're interesting. Go check it out sometime. Just search on google and you'll get lots of stuff on it. My favourite jargonic term (ahah.. is there even SUCH a phrase?) is "point of singularity". I don't know how to explain what it means though.
However, read this:
"If you were to fall into a black hole, you would first notice that your feet were feeling heavy. This is because the gravitational pull at your feet will be increasingly greater then your head. As you approach the point of singularity you will be able to all the way around the black hole. You will fall right through the point of singularity, and at that point there is not hope for you. Gravity is pulling down faster then the speed of light and nothing can escape the pull of the black hole. In reality you would have been ripped to little pieces but for the sake of this explanation lets pretend you do not get ripped to pieces. You will continue to fall and as you reach the point of singularity you will be able to see more until you can see a complete 360 circle until. You will be able to see the back and sides of your head simultaneously. At this point you will be squished into the point of singularity. It is unclear what the point of singularity is or how big it is, but it is safe to assume you will already be dead at this point.
If you were to watch a friend jump out of a space ship into a black hole the picture would be very different. You would see your fiend approach the event horizon but never pass through it. This is because the light from you buddy would be moving away toward you at the speed of light, but gravity would be pulling it back at close to the speed of light. Imagine the light is a bird and gravity is wind. From our point of view the bird is stationary and from the birds point of view it is moving through the air. So we would see our friend suspended for ever at the even horizon when in fact he/she fell through."
Yes. Interesting, no? Haha. Now I've become an educational resource, haven't I? ((not)) Oh well. At least I tried.
Can I rave about the Ender series now? IT ROCKS IT ROCKS IT ROCKS IT ROCKS!! So everyone must buy it. Hah. Er, it IS a bit on the costly side though. Anyway. You can borrow it off me if you like.
GOD. Speaker For the Dead was SO SO good. I still can't get over it though I've finished it about two to three days ago. I don't KNOW what made it so good. It didn't even make me CRY. I couldn't even FEEL it's depth. But it's profoundness was probably beyond my grasp.
The pequeninos are cool. HECK, portuguese is cool. Do you think "ansible" is a nice word? I think so too. For the uninitiated, an ansible is a machine that enables instantaneous transfer of information over astronomical distances.
Okay. My rambling is NOT making sense. Weeeee. I don't really like the Shadow series now, because the original Game series is SO MUCH BETTER. And I didn't know. I must have been missing out. Well, no matter. I bought the last two books, Xenocide and Children of the Mind. Now I can enjoy the thrill anytime.
Got my Harry Potter book. Haha. Personal delivery. Won't read it until I finish Shadow Puppets, though. Mmm.
I hate hospitals. Hate hate hate hate hate hate. Hate the machines. Hate the ICU. Hate the rules. HATE.
Too much hate.
Too much guilt.
I need to cleanse my body, mind and soul.
But no one's helping me.
And I can't do it alone.
I like black holes. They're interesting. Go check it out sometime. Just search on google and you'll get lots of stuff on it. My favourite jargonic term (ahah.. is there even SUCH a phrase?) is "point of singularity". I don't know how to explain what it means though.
However, read this:
"If you were to fall into a black hole, you would first notice that your feet were feeling heavy. This is because the gravitational pull at your feet will be increasingly greater then your head. As you approach the point of singularity you will be able to all the way around the black hole. You will fall right through the point of singularity, and at that point there is not hope for you. Gravity is pulling down faster then the speed of light and nothing can escape the pull of the black hole. In reality you would have been ripped to little pieces but for the sake of this explanation lets pretend you do not get ripped to pieces. You will continue to fall and as you reach the point of singularity you will be able to see more until you can see a complete 360 circle until. You will be able to see the back and sides of your head simultaneously. At this point you will be squished into the point of singularity. It is unclear what the point of singularity is or how big it is, but it is safe to assume you will already be dead at this point.
If you were to watch a friend jump out of a space ship into a black hole the picture would be very different. You would see your fiend approach the event horizon but never pass through it. This is because the light from you buddy would be moving away toward you at the speed of light, but gravity would be pulling it back at close to the speed of light. Imagine the light is a bird and gravity is wind. From our point of view the bird is stationary and from the birds point of view it is moving through the air. So we would see our friend suspended for ever at the even horizon when in fact he/she fell through."
Yes. Interesting, no? Haha. Now I've become an educational resource, haven't I? ((not)) Oh well. At least I tried.
Can I rave about the Ender series now? IT ROCKS IT ROCKS IT ROCKS IT ROCKS!! So everyone must buy it. Hah. Er, it IS a bit on the costly side though. Anyway. You can borrow it off me if you like.
GOD. Speaker For the Dead was SO SO good. I still can't get over it though I've finished it about two to three days ago. I don't KNOW what made it so good. It didn't even make me CRY. I couldn't even FEEL it's depth. But it's profoundness was probably beyond my grasp.
The pequeninos are cool. HECK, portuguese is cool. Do you think "ansible" is a nice word? I think so too. For the uninitiated, an ansible is a machine that enables instantaneous transfer of information over astronomical distances.
Okay. My rambling is NOT making sense. Weeeee. I don't really like the Shadow series now, because the original Game series is SO MUCH BETTER. And I didn't know. I must have been missing out. Well, no matter. I bought the last two books, Xenocide and Children of the Mind. Now I can enjoy the thrill anytime.
Got my Harry Potter book. Haha. Personal delivery. Won't read it until I finish Shadow Puppets, though. Mmm.
I hate hospitals. Hate hate hate hate hate hate. Hate the machines. Hate the ICU. Hate the rules. HATE.
Too much hate.
Too much guilt.
I need to cleanse my body, mind and soul.
But no one's helping me.
And I can't do it alone.
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I guess I should blog about to'day. I like saying today "to'day". It's fun, no? Yes 'tis. Anyway. Went and spent $$$$$ on F00D today. Not good t'all. Eeeh. Food is bad bad bad bad. Shouldn't have gone along. But I did anyway. ((guilt))
Er. Got into the committee? Am happy, of course. Positions not announced yet, though. I don't know. YES, I AM happy that I got into the com. It's just that... I don't know. Why pick me? WHY PICK ME? I'm so SELFISH, j00 know. Extremely. Obscenely. SELFISH. I want to be in the committee. I don't know WHY. Prestigious? Recognition of ability? CRAVE? *shrug* And the point is, I know I can't serve anyone well, so what's the fucking POINT? I just stripped someone else's chances of getting into it and actually DOING SOMETHING.
D00d.
I came home "late" today. I bet my mum wanted to watch VCDs with me. And yet I spent that time with my friends. And it's this period. This excruciating trying period. And I'm not there for her. ((guilt))
God. I'm fucked up.
But still. I'm happy to'day, ja'know? I think I'm dealing somewhat with the guilt, I guess. It's the GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT.
I like/love/adore Earthbound. It rawks jer sawks.
Er. Got into the committee? Am happy, of course. Positions not announced yet, though. I don't know. YES, I AM happy that I got into the com. It's just that... I don't know. Why pick me? WHY PICK ME? I'm so SELFISH, j00 know. Extremely. Obscenely. SELFISH. I want to be in the committee. I don't know WHY. Prestigious? Recognition of ability? CRAVE? *shrug* And the point is, I know I can't serve anyone well, so what's the fucking POINT? I just stripped someone else's chances of getting into it and actually DOING SOMETHING.
D00d.
I came home "late" today. I bet my mum wanted to watch VCDs with me. And yet I spent that time with my friends. And it's this period. This excruciating trying period. And I'm not there for her. ((guilt))
God. I'm fucked up.
But still. I'm happy to'day, ja'know? I think I'm dealing somewhat with the guilt, I guess. It's the GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT.
I like/love/adore Earthbound. It rawks jer sawks.
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22 June, 2003
Erh, yeah. What a crappy remodel. I didn't even DO anything. This is some old shit I dug up from my old files.
Decided that I loved Dementia more. It's more... me. It's a year old now, methinks if I ain't wrong. Yep.
Oh well. Gotta go offline now... hafta pass down some choir message... thing. Yeah. I think tomorrow's gonna be an okay day.
OKAY DAY! I think that's a nice phrase. okaydayokayday. o-ay-kay. Hehe.
Decided that I loved Dementia more. It's more... me. It's a year old now, methinks if I ain't wrong. Yep.
Oh well. Gotta go offline now... hafta pass down some choir message... thing. Yeah. I think tomorrow's gonna be an okay day.
OKAY DAY! I think that's a nice phrase. okaydayokayday. o-ay-kay. Hehe.
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21 June, 2003
I'm not supposed to be online now. I'm being irresponsible. People are trying to call in. But I don't care. Guilt.
ANYWAY. Now to my personal selfishness and indulgence.
FINISHED SPEAKER FOR THE DEAD! Oh my GOD it was GOOD. XD MUST BY XENOCIDE NOW. Must must must must. ((guilt))
And I'm hooked on Earthbound too. ((guilt)) Hehe. I have Ness up to a high level. I must say Paula's a pain 'cos she keeps on DYING. God. Er, I'm up before Mondo Mole, if anyone plays.
ANYWAY. Now to my personal selfishness and indulgence.
FINISHED SPEAKER FOR THE DEAD! Oh my GOD it was GOOD. XD MUST BY XENOCIDE NOW. Must must must must. ((guilt))
And I'm hooked on Earthbound too. ((guilt)) Hehe. I have Ness up to a high level. I must say Paula's a pain 'cos she keeps on DYING. God. Er, I'm up before Mondo Mole, if anyone plays.
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