19 January, 2003
Well, the painting thing in class wasn't THAT bad. I helped paint the bottom of the back of the class and a pillar, and part of the bottom of the blackboard. *achievement* Yay. =) It isn't much, though. But I still think it's pretty. I mean, if you're painting for 3-4 hours non-stop, won't you be proud of what you've done? I did end up with an aching arm and shoulder though. Bleh.
I'm still sick, although not so much. And I *groan* have science tuition today. What crap. Oh gee. Hope I'm not the only girl in the stupid class again. -.-
Woke up at 9.30am today. WOW! Yayness for late risers. Bleh. It's raining anyway. Rainy days are good. Heck, RAIN in general is GOOD! Wee. Parents have gone to IMM for goodness knows what reason. Bleh.
I'm still sick, although not so much. And I *groan* have science tuition today. What crap. Oh gee. Hope I'm not the only girl in the stupid class again. -.-
Woke up at 9.30am today. WOW! Yayness for late risers. Bleh. It's raining anyway. Rainy days are good. Heck, RAIN in general is GOOD! Wee. Parents have gone to IMM for goodness knows what reason. Bleh.
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17 January, 2003
This sucks... I'm sick. =( Badbadbadbad. I dislike being sick. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it. Bleh.
Have to go to school tomorrow to put up the physics board for class. ARGH! Hatehatehate. Can't sleep 'till 9am tomorrow. *sigh* And I should be getting optimal amount of rest. Instead, I spent the whole day today running around like a mad woman. Okay, maybe not. But I did have to find Mr Gan and run up and down from the staff room to the PA room and and and... hm. Oh yeah. Sing for the audition at choir today. I won't get in for SYF, I'm sure. I just sucksucksucksuck sucksucksucksuck sucksucksucksuck sucksucksucksucksucksucksuck so bad. Yeahhhh.
Darn it. I better get offline lest my mum starts screaming at me.
OH, and not to mention the obscene amount of homework the teachers have piled on me, AND I have yet to finish my A Maths tuition stuff AND there's science tuition on Sunday. Oh dear. Blah.
And I haven't been active at ND for a while. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?! I will die if my life online is ruined. Nooo!
Have to go to school tomorrow to put up the physics board for class. ARGH! Hatehatehate. Can't sleep 'till 9am tomorrow. *sigh* And I should be getting optimal amount of rest. Instead, I spent the whole day today running around like a mad woman. Okay, maybe not. But I did have to find Mr Gan and run up and down from the staff room to the PA room and and and... hm. Oh yeah. Sing for the audition at choir today. I won't get in for SYF, I'm sure. I just sucksucksucksuck sucksucksucksuck sucksucksucksuck sucksucksucksucksucksucksuck so bad. Yeahhhh.
Darn it. I better get offline lest my mum starts screaming at me.
OH, and not to mention the obscene amount of homework the teachers have piled on me, AND I have yet to finish my A Maths tuition stuff AND there's science tuition on Sunday. Oh dear. Blah.
And I haven't been active at ND for a while. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?! I will die if my life online is ruined. Nooo!
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13 January, 2003
Bleh, just realised that I didn't bring home my A Maths textbook... I'm not sure whether it's A Maths or E Maths today, though. I do hope it's E Maths... *sigh*
I totally FORGOT that there was tuition today. DAMN IT. *sigh*
I totally FORGOT that there was tuition today. DAMN IT. *sigh*
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12 January, 2003
If you slap yourself too much, will you go deaf?
I WANT TO SCREAM. But I have no one to scream to. Too much anger. Too much stress.
I know it's my fault. I know it's my fault that I get angry. I know it's all my freaking fault. In fact, these things don't need my anger. I am just getting myself more and more worked up for no good reason because there isn't anything to be angry about.
Perhaps I am angry at myself. At my incompetence.
MAYBE I JUST PLAIN HATE PEOPLE. Because I don't understand them. I don't understand myself. I am angry at the world, angry at myself, angry at my very existence.
And I ask: why am I like this? What can I do to change? And I try to suppress this anger and I try not to cry but I can't because there is too much hate.
Too much hate.
I WANT TO SCREAM. But I have no one to scream to. Too much anger. Too much stress.
I know it's my fault. I know it's my fault that I get angry. I know it's all my freaking fault. In fact, these things don't need my anger. I am just getting myself more and more worked up for no good reason because there isn't anything to be angry about.
Perhaps I am angry at myself. At my incompetence.
MAYBE I JUST PLAIN HATE PEOPLE. Because I don't understand them. I don't understand myself. I am angry at the world, angry at myself, angry at my very existence.
And I ask: why am I like this? What can I do to change? And I try to suppress this anger and I try not to cry but I can't because there is too much hate.
Too much hate.
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11 January, 2003
Being a Physics subject rep is B-A-D. Especially when you're forced to collect money from those little devils (i.e: classmates). Yeah. So it sucks, especially when one item requires a LOT of change to be given (i.e: $6.30). GEEZ.
Enough of ranting. I was SO frustrated in school. And one girl had the NERVE to say "sorry, I don't want to buy the Physics file". It costs $3, by the way. And... !@#$%... well, I don't CARE. If you doesn't want to buy the fucking file, I DON'T CARE. See what Mr. Gan does with you. Actually, he won't do anything. He's too half-witted to think STRAIGHT. ARGH.
I hate that girl. Well, not hate, actually. DETEST. ABHOR. DISLIKE. LOATHE. ABOMINATE. You get that point. Can she STOP being so fucking IRRITATING? I know I'm not popular like your idiotic bimbotic friends are who go about swaggering like drunken fools, but can you at least RESPECT ME? YEARGH! Every time I hear her voice my skin crawls. YES, literally.
I feel like screaming. Yet I bite it back down. GOD. The anger is bubbling. Suppressed. Yeah, just like the poem we did during literature class. This is unhealthy, but FUCK, I am unhealthy so watch me CARE. *seethe*
I shall not calm down.
Anyway, *changes subject* I've been doing tables and making all those statistical posts at ND look pretty and nice. Yay! Now it looks all organised and I have the stats of all the members (i.e: their genders, elements, etc.). I feel proud. Tables are an PAIN IN THE ASS to do, and even more so when you have to delete all the line breaks in between. Ikonboard sucks. >.< But it's way better than eZboard in a sense that I don't need to pay for it, and that... yeah. That's the only advantage iB has over eZb. Bleurgh.
Enough of ranting. I was SO frustrated in school. And one girl had the NERVE to say "sorry, I don't want to buy the Physics file". It costs $3, by the way. And... !@#$%... well, I don't CARE. If you doesn't want to buy the fucking file, I DON'T CARE. See what Mr. Gan does with you. Actually, he won't do anything. He's too half-witted to think STRAIGHT. ARGH.
I hate that girl. Well, not hate, actually. DETEST. ABHOR. DISLIKE. LOATHE. ABOMINATE. You get that point. Can she STOP being so fucking IRRITATING? I know I'm not popular like your idiotic bimbotic friends are who go about swaggering like drunken fools, but can you at least RESPECT ME? YEARGH! Every time I hear her voice my skin crawls. YES, literally.
I feel like screaming. Yet I bite it back down. GOD. The anger is bubbling. Suppressed. Yeah, just like the poem we did during literature class. This is unhealthy, but FUCK, I am unhealthy so watch me CARE. *seethe*
I shall not calm down.
Anyway, *changes subject* I've been doing tables and making all those statistical posts at ND look pretty and nice. Yay! Now it looks all organised and I have the stats of all the members (i.e: their genders, elements, etc.). I feel proud. Tables are an PAIN IN THE ASS to do, and even more so when you have to delete all the line breaks in between. Ikonboard sucks. >.< But it's way better than eZboard in a sense that I don't need to pay for it, and that... yeah. That's the only advantage iB has over eZb. Bleurgh.
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07 January, 2003
"Can I have ?" WHY don't people learn to be more polite? I know this isn't as bad as saying "I want to have _". But still. It irks me.
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06 January, 2003
Hmm, got my $150 for GPA. Yay.
Other than that, school sucked. Hah.
Yeah. Whatever.
I've noticed something. Whenever I write regularly and diligently (I CAN SPELL THAT WORD!) in my journal, the weblog becomes sparse. When I write diligently here, I ignore my journal. Hmm.
Other than that, school sucked. Hah.
Yeah. Whatever.
I've noticed something. Whenever I write regularly and diligently (I CAN SPELL THAT WORD!) in my journal, the weblog becomes sparse. When I write diligently here, I ignore my journal. Hmm.
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04 January, 2003
DON'T talk about the CCA fair please. It was SO TIRING. We stood for like, almost 3 hours or something. My feet hurt. Or rather, did hurt.
Went for lunch after choir with Adeline, Cheryl, Joanne and Qing Ling. Yeah, I feel compelled to write about such mundane things BECAUSE I have absolutely NO LIFE. Yay for no-lifers. Bleh.
I AM ADMINISTRATOR! I AM ADMINISTRATOR! *jumps about and screams and yells* Well, I didn't really do that. But you get the point, you know? I LOVE YOU ELYSE! =P
Bleh, our air-con in the living room went a bit crazy. It switched on by itself at random times. O.o;; There's something wrong with the circuit board or whatever you call it. Yeah. So my dad's taking out it's power so it can't switch itself on again. BAD AIRCON. BAD AIRCON. *waggles finger*
Went for lunch after choir with Adeline, Cheryl, Joanne and Qing Ling. Yeah, I feel compelled to write about such mundane things BECAUSE I have absolutely NO LIFE. Yay for no-lifers. Bleh.
I AM ADMINISTRATOR! I AM ADMINISTRATOR! *jumps about and screams and yells* Well, I didn't really do that. But you get the point, you know? I LOVE YOU ELYSE! =P
Bleh, our air-con in the living room went a bit crazy. It switched on by itself at random times. O.o;; There's something wrong with the circuit board or whatever you call it. Yeah. So my dad's taking out it's power so it can't switch itself on again. BAD AIRCON. BAD AIRCON. *waggles finger*
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