23 June, 2003
I guess I should blog about to'day. I like saying today "to'day". It's fun, no? Yes 'tis. Anyway. Went and spent $$$$$ on F00D today. Not good t'all. Eeeh. Food is bad bad bad bad. Shouldn't have gone along. But I did anyway. ((guilt))
Er. Got into the committee? Am happy, of course. Positions not announced yet, though. I don't know. YES, I AM happy that I got into the com. It's just that... I don't know. Why pick me? WHY PICK ME? I'm so SELFISH, j00 know. Extremely. Obscenely. SELFISH. I want to be in the committee. I don't know WHY. Prestigious? Recognition of ability? CRAVE? *shrug* And the point is, I know I can't serve anyone well, so what's the fucking POINT? I just stripped someone else's chances of getting into it and actually DOING SOMETHING.
D00d.
I came home "late" today. I bet my mum wanted to watch VCDs with me. And yet I spent that time with my friends. And it's this period. This excruciating trying period. And I'm not there for her. ((guilt))
God. I'm fucked up.
But still. I'm happy to'day, ja'know? I think I'm dealing somewhat with the guilt, I guess. It's the GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT.
I like/love/adore Earthbound. It rawks jer sawks.
Er. Got into the committee? Am happy, of course. Positions not announced yet, though. I don't know. YES, I AM happy that I got into the com. It's just that... I don't know. Why pick me? WHY PICK ME? I'm so SELFISH, j00 know. Extremely. Obscenely. SELFISH. I want to be in the committee. I don't know WHY. Prestigious? Recognition of ability? CRAVE? *shrug* And the point is, I know I can't serve anyone well, so what's the fucking POINT? I just stripped someone else's chances of getting into it and actually DOING SOMETHING.
D00d.
I came home "late" today. I bet my mum wanted to watch VCDs with me. And yet I spent that time with my friends. And it's this period. This excruciating trying period. And I'm not there for her. ((guilt))
God. I'm fucked up.
But still. I'm happy to'day, ja'know? I think I'm dealing somewhat with the guilt, I guess. It's the GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT GUILT.
I like/love/adore Earthbound. It rawks jer sawks.
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